Overwhelmed - Blog Posts

it had been a week at this point since hearing Zoro’s conversation with Luffy. As a result you were obviously hurt by what you heard, but chose to put all those emotions into training.

sure, you weren’t as strong as the rest of them, but you still had to try- right?

you sighed. you were currently training in the crows nest while on watch for the night, to be honest you’d been training any time you got the chance- which was always.

you grunted as you lifted some weights. your body ached and was practically screaming for you to take a break but you ignored its protests, pushing through until you physically couldn’t do it anymore.

the weights made a loud crash as they hit the ground of the crows nest- your body following quickly behind as you collapsed onto the floor along with it.

what had happened? you couldn’t tell.

all you knew was your head was pounding on the walls of your skull, you panted as you closed your eyes. your muscles were sore, stiff, aching, all of the overtraining the past few days was hitting you like a rock.

you grunted and moaned in pain before hearing muffled sounds, voices maybe? you couldn’t make them out, before passing out a few seconds later.

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just heard a girl say to her friend "because I'm on edge, Lexi" and I've never heard anything more accurate about final exams in my life

Rant about my overconsuption with nail polish below. Read if you dare lol

The struggle of having so much of one thing you love the the point of it overwhelming you to the point of not wanting it anymore is such a bitch. I always get it with my massive nail polish collection. This only started with me becoming a fan of simply nailogical back in middle school. I became such a fan that me and my mom bought many polishes for myself, and then in recent years, she started to buy nail polish for herself too. My collection is so large that it's in or near the hundreds. It's all on these racks my mom bought (she had to buy a second to fit all the polish, and still I have some in extra bins). But now all I can see is the overwhelming amount of nail polish that I own, some drug store/ walmart brand, and some that are expensive, like Holo Taco. I've gotten so much nail polish over the years, some as holiday gifts and others just from passing by them in the store. I had a problem with buying, but now I have a problem with being unable to get rid of it. When I try to paint my nails, the self-doubt of if I'll hate it later latches onto me like a bloodsucking leech. I wish I could get rid of it like old clothes I don't wear but my mom won't let me. I know when I move out, I'm not taking all these nail polishes with me, I just can't. It's all too much, and I execute my solution.

02/12/25 :

went to jersey to get my hair done since im going to jamaica soon !! :)

knotless 613!!

anyone else hate getting their hair done ? its so overwhelming i hate it. i hate the amount of time it takes, i hate being touched, i hate the gel touching any part of my body (especially my face), i hate when my clothes (especially my sweater) gets dirty with anything as i feel like its an extension of my body, i hate my hair being pulled, i hate how loud it is, i hate the smells, i hate how much work it is to deal with my hair in general, etc etc

my baby hairs are very sensitive so i cannot get them braided in at all or they’ll literally fall out too :( and i know whenever they get braided in because it hurts like hell

then i also hate explaining this to braiders whenever i go because they never understand it at first so i have to explain it 2-5 more times which causes my anxiety riddled ass to get quieter and more scared

i do plan on getting locs tho so!! only got the knotless because my hair was a mess and i couldnt keep it out

Anyone else feel lost?

I don’t know what is happening in my life anymore and I want to know if there are others that feel the same. But everyday is the same and everyday I yearn more and more for some sort of shift into a fictional world or some feeling...but I’m stuck crying over my comfort characters, feeling absolutely helpless. How do I live in the moment? How do I feel something?

I miss you. I am hurting—can't find a song loud enough.

Everyday, and counting.

“Sometimes I feel dead, and I hate everybody”

Ottessa Moshfegh “My Year of Rest and Relaxation”

hhhhhhhhh

Aaaaaah!!! I have so much homework due on Wednesday. Most of it was assigned today so I got lots to do. AAaaaaaaaah!!!! I’m going to have to start it right now cuz like I’m wasting my time right now! Also I have some friend issues rn and I feel sad so like uh yeah hope I won’t be too gloomy by next week!

I feel numb, I don't want to think about anything. It's too much. I didn't want to wake up today. I have a lot to take care of and think about but I just don't have it in me to tend to anything.

I feel numb.

beware, this is a vent-ish

do you ever feel so much anxiety & empty yearning for something, but you cannot grasp the concept of what it is so you just end up crying hysterically. I swear I’m going crazy.

(not in a cringe way)

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