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I may have some ways of coping and Himiko speaks to me somewhat darker than usual
8 of swords is about feeling trapped and robbed of freedom
It's also about feeling abandoned and cold, lonely and confused, like a cornered animal
"Let the birds of my soul fly freely at last..."
And yeah this one is the pic I was talking about in this post. It makes so much more sense now
part 3/x
other cards:
Three of cups
Four of cups
Dogma Headcanon
When he was a cadet on Kamino, he was not the same reg-loving guy. He broke the rules, snuck food, classic cadet behavior.
*Obviously, Tup was his batchmate. They were the closest in their group.
ANYways, in a training sim gone wrong due to their team going off protocol, his entire batch besides he and Tup got killed. Tup suffered a head wound, which while didn’t cause significant damage then, is what got the ball rolling in his chip decaying. Dogma, on the other hand, only had minor damage.
After this, Dogma followed the regs more closely, but it still wasn’t to the full extent as we saw during the show. He stopped sneaking food, and he broke the rules less, but he was still a fun guy.
One day, Dogma accidentally overheard the Kaminoans talking about the chips. He ran away back to his bunk room, but not before being noticed by the Kaminoans.
Dogma was escorted to the lab, where the Kaminoans demanded to know what he had heard. Dogma, knowing better than to lie to a Kaminoan, told them. After gaining this information, they *reconditioned Dogma, but only of the information that they didn’t want him to know. Once the process was over, they threatened harm to his person if he ever told anyone what had just happened.
After this incident, Dogma became more reserved, and only talked to Tup. This is also when he became a target of bullying, which also contributed to his love for regs as they were the only thing (besides Tup) that never hurt him.
A few days before being shipped out to their battalions, the Kaminoans pulled Dogma to the side. As a final effort to scare Dogma into behaving, they threatened to harm Tup and himself if he ever disobeyed commands. After hours of threats and a deep cut curved around his eye (which Dogma eventually got his memorable tattoo to cover) Dogma promised to never speak of what had just happened.
His first battalion was serving with the 501st, and not even a year into his deployment the Umbara arc happened.
*Reconditioning. In this little au, I imagine reconditioning to be somewhat different than what is normally seen in Star Wars fics. The Kaminoans can select what clones can and cannot remember, and to what extent. Reconditioning is very painful and traumatic, and only works when the clone is awake. The more specific an event removal is, the more pain it causes. In Dogma’s case, they knew that removing his entire encounter with overhearing the Kaminoans would be useless, and cause eventual suspicion, so they just took out the part where Dogma heard what they were discussing.
+Something to note: the more a clone is reconditioned, the less stable their chip becomes. That’s why more clones are decommissioned than reconditioned, as the Kaminoans didn’t want their plans to be revealed. In Dogma’s case, after he was reconditioned, his chip stability decreased. During Umbara, Krell noticed something weird with Dogma, and when he did some force shit and found a link to manipulate Dogma using his chip (not that Krell new that’s what it was) he used this newfound knowledge for his own gain. He now had a clone that would listen to his command, and he could destruct the clones’ trust in one another. Throughout this all, Dogma was unaware of his or Krell’s actions, and only came to when Rex was hesitating to shoot Krell. After he shot Krell, his memories came rolling in, about what he did and what Krell did to him and everything else he witnessed during the Umbara arc.
If anyone wants to write something about this go ahead! Just put the fic and where I can find it in the comments so I can read it :)
oh my gosh we officially reached over 10,000 views on the Agathario fanfic!
My unsuspecting followers:
Me, about to go on a serious reblogging spree:
Hello friends!
I won't be able to post as much because there was something wrong with our internet and it's not fixed until the 29th, right now i have to either use school wifi or wait until my parents get home at around 8 so i could use the internet from my mom's phone.
Along with that I've been feeling really unmotivated, even with writing and I've started to consider writing fanfiction for the first time in my life just to post something on the other account.
I'll try to post a bit but it will probably be quite quiet this month apart from occasional posts.
GUYS GUYS GUYS LOOK MY FIRST MERCH
I would totally do it but then I wouldn’t get to read AlphaGeto x BetaGojo smut and that would totally bum me out so how about some other day, yeah?
Story time y'all. I was just about to go to bed when the LOUD AS HELL FIRE ALARM in my apartment complex starts going off. Flashing lights and BEH BEH BEH. I outside all upset, thinking my night's ruined because it takes FOREVER for them to get it off and it's FREEZING out. Then I open Tumblr and this post is the first one I read, conveniently after I just read a fix involving a wild boar, and it just really made me smile. Thanks, people of Tumblr, for making a shitty experience less shitty
Needless to say, I am HORRIFIED.
The singular form of "lice" is "louse"
If the singular form of “mice” is “mouse”, shouldn’t the singular of “lice” be “louse”?
my brother just called the mississauga towers hot ?
Guys help, I can't find my drawing tablet's pencil. I can't do digital art until I find it, soooo I might just post traditional art :]
If you sent asks, I might not be able to like, draw a reply, BUT I'LL TRY MY BEST!!!
Thank you :3
sorry if I don’t post as much for a while, I’ve been feeling kind of weird and just need a bit of a break. I’ll try to keep posting for you guys whenever I can, but I apologize if I disappear at all.
HEY who’s following me …
Jimmy when asked to do a grand total of 4 tasks as Captain:
everytime someone headcanons a fictional character as aromantic an angel grows its wings
puppy want a treat?
puppy want a fucking break from it all
I feel like I’m getting exorcised rn holy shit
Shout out to everyone who followed me for welcome home stuff and my puppet to only see me constantly post about gay space marines for months and random things that happen, you didn't deserve to be bamboozled like that
some perspective training
rating ships of my fandoms except I don't give explanations: part 1
including some rarepairs too!
fandom: my hero academia (scared)
0: Todoroki Shoto x Momo Yaoyorozu
Rating: 4.5/10 for potential
1: Izuku Midoriya x Ochako Uraraka (Izuocha)
Rating: 10/10
2: Izuku Midoriya x Katsuki Bakugou (BakuDeku)
rating: 0.001/10 (I felt bad)
3: Bakugou Katsuki x Denki Kaminari (BakuKami)
Rating: 2/10
4: Ochako Uraraka x Tenya Iida (OchaIida?)
rating: 10/10
5: Bakugou Katsuki x Eijirou Kirishima (KiriBaku)
Rating: 10/10
6: Izuku Midoriya x Shoto Todoroki (TodoDeku)
rating: 4.5/10
7: Ochako Uraraka x Himiko Toga (TogaChako)
Rating: 4.1/10 (genuinely have an explanation but sticking to the series.)
8: Kaminari Denki x Kyouka Jirou (KamiJirou)
Rating: 10/10
(rarepair time!)
9: Bakugou Katsuki x Momo Yaoyorozu (BakuMomo)
rating: 8.5/10 (look away.)
10: Izuku Midoriya x Kyouka Jirou (IzuJirou)
Rating: 4.5/10
11: Bakugou Katsuki x Momo Yaoyorozu x Eijirou Kirishima (yes I just made that up)
rating: 10/10 absolute peak of peak
12: Mina Ashido x Shoji (ShojiMina)
Rating: 0/10
13: Kirishima Eijirou x Ochako Uraraka (KiriChako)
rating: 10/10
14: Tenya Iida x Sero Hanta (IidaSero)
Rating: 5.0/10
15: Shoto Todoroki x Ochako Uraraka (TodoChako)
Rating: 10/10
16: Kaminari Denki x Momo Yaoyorozu (KamiMomo)
Rating: 7.5/10
17: Todoroki Shoto x Kirishima Eijirou
Rating: 10/10
18: Tenya Iida x Momo Yaoyorozu
Rating: 9/10
19: Tsuyu Asui x Mina Ashido
Rating: 9/10
20: Yuuga Aoyoma x Mina Ashido
Rating: 3/10
21: Jirou Kyouka x Eijirou Kirishima
Rating: 7.5/10
will continue it soon maybe... don't jump me this is all opinions hahaha
Honorable mentions:
Eijirou Kirishima x Mina Ashido (KiriMina)
Rating: 0.5/10
Kyouka Jirou x Momo Yaoyorozu (MomoJirou)
Rating: 7.5/10
Todoroki Shouto x Bakugou Katsuki (TodoBaku)
Rating: 3/10
no hate to any fic writers I love you guys so much but how does Thomas know exactly what he's doing each time y'all get down and dirty
He's a VIRGIN living in an EXTREMELY RELIGIOUS household. His bruncle probably knows nothing of value or accuracy, considering he's a "sexually perverted homicidal maniac" in the words of R Lee Ermey.
Thomas' only experience with sex is most likely through magazines and observation (of non-consensual sex, might I add).
How does he know proper sex ettiequte. Or how to pleasure someone at ALL (Especially afab)?? He does not know the anatomy enough 😭
"But Tae..he's a butcher? Wouldn't he know anatomy?" Uh, yeah, but does he know the anatomy of female reproduction and their purposes? No, I think not.
I'm less concerned with male anatomy considering Thomas has male anatomy..and has probably experimented with it..
ALSO - if I may, he's so gross. So so so so SO gross. One word: UTI. You're gonna get a UTI, baby..I don't make the rules. I love you Tommy but you need to shower and probably trim a bit
Listen - I love reading them. I love writing them sometimes, but my brain can't accept fanfics unless they are 90-95% accurate 😭
{Thomas} Hewitt Family Dynamic/Psychology Analysis
TW: Canon-related dynamics/activities, Incest, Rape/SA, Pedophilia, Abuse {Mental, Psychical, Emotional}, Discussions of mental health, extreme language, Usage of R!slur, War, Hoyt {Biggest warning of them all}
Yapping session again, I apologize {Wrote this whilst listening to Preacher's Daughter, GOATED ALBUM} Poorly edited, a bit more coherent than the last post 🩷
The family dynamic seems to be very..unconventional yet unsurprising. It’s a family of traumatized, traumatizing, enablers who’re struggling to survive both in spirit and in actuality. This post was intended to focus mainly on Thomas but I dove deep into Hoyt and the other family members as well because I feel they have such a big impact on Tommy:(
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Thomas is obviously a very closed-off and introverted individual. His childhood was full of ridicule, cruelty, and abuse. His main father figure was and still is Hoyt - Charlie, but his biggest influence is his Momma, Luda Mae. I’ve seen multiple people paint Luda as a saint when in all actuality, she’s not. Although she may not be as malicious, she’s an enabler with intense family pride and protectiveness. Her automatic dislike of Erin is proof of this. She assumes Erin {and her friends, brother, boyfriend} are judgemental and arrogant ‘city-slickers’ who’re out to get Thomas. In all actuality, Erin never comments on Thomas’ looks besides her small conversation with Henrietta: “I couldn’t, I couldn’t look at him.” Even in this segment, she never says anything bad about Thomas except warning Henrietta and the Tea Lady {we’ll just call her ‘Kathy’ based on her actor} of his arrival. During this segment, we learn additional information about how the family views Thomas, as well as his general behavior. Dialogue from family members include:
“He knows better than to be messing around here…Poor Sweet boy--He’s no harm; Always keeps to himself.” - Henrietta, Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2003--1:02
“I know your kind--Nothing but cruelty and ridicule for my boy, all the time he was growing up. Does anybody care about me and my boy?” - Luda Mae, Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2003--1:06
“He ain’t retarded; He’s misunderstood.” - Sheriff Hoyt / Charlie, Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning 2006--16:30
“You don’t like playing with me anymore because I’m a pussy, that’s what you said. Well, my nephew Tommy ain’t no pussy; Maybe you’d like to play with him for a little while.” - Sheriff Hoyt / Charlie, Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning 2006--51:35
“You beautiful bastard, you!” {Honestly this entire scene could be used here} - Sheriff Hoyt / Charlie, Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning 2006--1:01:21 - 1:02:40
“Thomas, quit playing with your fucking dolls and get up here!..Hmm, I like your new face.” - Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning 2006--1:06:15 - 1:06:35
“There you go, nice work, Tommy.” - Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning 2006--1:09:55
“There’s a time when every boy becomes a man.” Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning 2006--1:17:53
As you can see, most of the praise Thomas gets is from Hoyt. Honestly, reviewing Hoyt’s character on his own, this may seem surprising, but diving past face-value, this isn’t surprising at all. Hoyt is a sadistic, impulsive, traumatized veteran who very clearly values his family. I think both Thomas and Hoyt have the same thought{s}: “Family is all I’ve known, family is all I have consistently. Therefore, I need to protect it.” This is very apparent in Hoyt’s speech in The Beginning 2006: “Us... we're staying right here. The ashes of six generations of Hewitts have been tilled into the soil of this farm. We will never abandon the place of our birth. We're on our own now, people. And alone... we will rise above it all.” Both Hoyt and Thomas value family so much, and this is apparent in their immediate protection of them; As well as how violent they get once the family's safety is in jeopardy. The family also heavily depends on both of them, Thomas more than Hoyt. Luda Mae immediately calling out for Hoyt once Eric throws a brick through their window {48:25}, relying on Thomas to chase down Chrissie, ordering Thomas to ‘wrap things up’ after Monty’s amputation, Thomas being the main source of income prior to the meat plant shutting down, Hoyt Charlie being the one to protect Thomas from the original Sheriff Hoyt, the deleted scene where Charlie protects Thomas from malicious classmates, Thomas protecting Hoyt by killing the biker {1:01 - 1:03}.
I’d also like to add; As someone with multiple military family members, the military changes you. War changes you. Considering Charlie is a POW, his trauma has to be so deep. {I’d like to make this clear: !!I’M NOT DEFENDING NOR SYMPATHISING WITH HOYT!!} His lust for violence, domination, control, and protection is most likely a combination of his personality, growing up dirt poor, his relationship with Luda Mae + other family members {which I’ll talk about below}, the war, and their current situation. He definitely gets defensive of his country, the military in general, the South, and his family. I.E: “Ain’t nothing I hate worse than a draft-dodging hippie protester.” - The Beginning 2006--40:30. He most likely has the same views on “City-slickers” as Luda Mae, just more extreme. In fact, I think it’s safe to assume the entire family has that view, maybe even Thomas. {Though his would be more protection-based as opposed to politically divided.} *cough-cough, Hoyt*
Going back to Thomas’ “father figures”, Monty and Hoyt were the only men in the house for Thomas to look up to. Hoyt was gone when Thomas was around 13, meaning during his very “experimental” years, he only had Monty to look up to. Both Monty and Hoyt are sexual deviants with no shame at all; Monty very openly gropes Erin in the 2003 remake whilst calling her a “Good girl.” {I almost turned off the movie, I kid you not} Whilst Hoyt very openly gropes Bailey multiple times, and even toys with Erin. It’s also heavily implied he raped Bailey {poor girl, this entire movie was so poor to her and Chrissie.} And whilst Luda Mae does get Hoyt to calm down with Erin, she still actively enables this behavior and completely ignores it. Now, I don’t think Thomas would replicate this {fingers crossed}; I’m sure Thomas has ‘urges’ but he has so much to do, such little extra energy, and a shit ton of {religious} trauma which would most likely coerce him away from sexual activity. He also very obviously wants praise. The more Hoyt praises and encourages Thomas, the more sadistic he gets. And yes, Thomas is sadistic. Sure he’s trying to survive, protect, and feed his family, but he also actively tortures his victims. I.E; skinning Eric’s arms, bathing Andy’s amputation in salt, ect. And I don’t wanna blame this on his ‘mental deterioration’, because that’s not it in my opinion. Thomas has crossed the threshold of “I’m doing this to protect my family / because I’m forced to.’ No, he’s violent and angry. He’s so done with everything. He needs an outlet to take his anger from him, and the victims are practically begging him with how infuriating they can be. Also, wearing Kemper’s mask to catch Erin??? Jesus Christ, Thomas, that’s traumatizing. And he knows he’ll get away with it. The law enforcement is gone, Hoyt has done worse, Momma doesn’t seem to speak on it, why not continue? And I’m sure he feels powerful when he finally gets the chance to bite back. This is exactly the kind of manipulation Hoyt did to get Thomas fully on board with this killing-spree shit; “It’s one of those assholes who used to fuck with you in the schoolyard, Tommy!” - The Beginning 2006--1:01:40. This brings me to my next point -
The family is immensely good at manipulation. Kinda by default, too. I know Southern hospitality can be viewed as passive aggressive and unnecessary depending on where you’re from, especially if you’re from up North; And I can’t disagree in some instances. Luda Mae is the MOST likely to use her ‘Southern hospitality’ as means of manipulation. Her little coo to Bailey about “We got to get you cleaned up, you don’t want to look dirty for company, do you?” at around 42:30 {Which by the way, was Marrietta Marich’s [Luda Mae’s actress] idea apparently.} It was not only a way to distract Bailey from the torture below them, but to indoctrinate herself into believing everything was fine. This was their life, and Charlie Hoyt knows what’s best, doesn’t he? I’m sure this was really difficult for her; Truly seeing who her son was and how the war affected him so deeply. Her seeming so closed off to Bailey and Chrissie at the community center was a result of the intense lifestyle change. Hoyt is EXTREMELY manipulative as well. I mean, he was a POW, you need a lot of skills in pattern recognition and psychology to survive such things. The way he speaks to everyone; Beginning slightly rational and neutral, only to quickly be angered and intimidated by his lack of power in the situation. This is especially prominent when he speaks to Morgan, Erin, and Pepper; But mostly Morgan. In the first movie, when the car breaks down and he tries to “calm Erin down” only to scold all of them for possession of drugs and such; Trying to convince Erin that Kemper killed the hitchhiker when he knew what really happened; Making Morgan reenact the scene whilst threatening him with an unloaded gun, pressuring him into “shooting” whilst taunting about how they’ll be “accomplices to murder.” Smashing the bottle in Morgan’s face when he says Hoyt can have the Skynyrd tickets. The way he kisses and rubs on Bailey during the dinner scene in The Beginning?? How he coos and taunts Erin once she wakes up from the poison?? He’s a master in manipulation and puts on a damn good show at that. Henrietta and the Tea Lady / Kathy are also extremely manipulative. When they force Erin to drink the tea, blame her for the baby crying, saying that she “looks tense” and “needs to relax”?? Yeah, this family is full of manipulative and emotionally abusive cycles. Anyway, back to how this affects Thomas.
Thomas was most definitely manipulated in multiple ways. I’m sure Luda Mae has manipulated him into ‘doing what's best for the family’ and all that bullshit. He definitely has some religious trauma and sure as hell has endured abuse of many kinds.
To tie this all together, I present to you: The Family Dynamic.
I saw a post by I believe Scrapnick?{Their art is so so appealing} Anyway, someone had asked why Thomas and Hoyt are both “brothers and uncle/nephew.” They responded with something like: “Luda Mae most likely got assaulted by her father as a child.” Their post was more detailed than that but that was the main point. And honestly, I agree. At first I thought Hoyt was Luda Mae’s husband, and then I heard him refer to Thomas as his “nephew”, and then I heard him call Luda Mae “mama.” I went researching on wikis and such only to find results such as “he doesn’t view Thomas as a real brother, therefore he uses uncle/nephew.” Whilst this may be true, Hoyt and Luda Mae only have at MAX a 15 year difference. The actors {Marrietta Marich, R. Lee Ermey} only had a 14 year difference. Considering he also calls Monty his uncle, I think it's safe to assume Luda experienced assault from her father during her teens, resulting in pregnancy. Tying this back to religious trauma, I think this fact really upsets Hoyt. He loves his family, obviously, but I think the idea of him being ‘born of sin,’ I.E: Out of wedlock, incest, pedophilia; most likely affects him. I wonder if he ever thought “Well, I’m going to hell anyway, might as well sin.” I’m rambling right now, I apologize; Welcome to my blog {Yappville.}
Now, this dynamic obviously affected his relationship with Luda Mae. I doubt she loves him any less, but I think it was definitely difficult considering A.) Growing up religious; B.) Being such a young mother; And C.) Growing up and continuing to be excruciatingly poor. I think Hoyt gets a bit jealous of Thomas, surprisingly. He’s jealous of how much Luda Mae adores him; How he really gets to have a mother instead of a struggling sister/mother who was trying so hard to get by. Hoyt seems to have a closer {yet still distant} relationship to Monty than Thomas does. I think Monty is just a distant, miserable old man whose patience is low and tiredness is high. He’s worn out, especially after the amputation. The entire family is worn out; Slowly losing their grip on humanity with each passing day. The only consistent thing they have is each other, and yet still their relationships escape them. I think everyone, but especially Thomas {and Jedidiah, poor baby} just want a home to feel safe in. Really, just a stable income, stable food supply, and the ability to rest both physically and mentally. He wants to be able to have a purpose; To work again without needing to worry if his family will be okay. Being able to walk around the house without having to shut himself in the basement to avoid scoldings, demands, or endless calls. This entire family is really fucked up and in need of some rest, family therapy, maybe some physical therapy, and some damn prozac.
Okay, yay!! You made it to the end; I apologize for the long post again, I get so into analyzing things and I couldn’t resist looking into the Hewitts. Tommy needs some prozac and some Southern cooking {He’s just like me fr}
Love you all, thank you so much for the support on the previous post 🫀
getting eaten out by someone with facial hair has gotta be like. finding a twenty on an already nice walk..what a bonus
This is not a Morph post. This is a Quentin post.
Deal with it
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I found a good tag, it's okay XD 🌴 ║ 🍰 will be the tag for whatever L_ST AU content.
Another TOH unpopular opinion:
I can’t stand Huntlow
Is it good or bad that I got the meaning when Cooper tells his brother to “Stop being a bunny and step up to the plate” after using the examples “She took bat out of your hands” and “She’s the bear and you’re the scared little bunny”?