So I Was Supposed To Put Up With Someone Constantly Joking About My Sexual Assault And Abusive Family

Really sorry to have a mildly nsfw/nsft rant on an otherwise completely sfw blog, but I had to get this out... TW: cis men's disgusting (sexual) behaviour towards trans men

I've had it happened several times now where I thought I had a normal guy friendship with a cis dude, only to find out they in some way fantasized about me as my agab, or thought about my agab parts, usually in a sexual way.

It really hurts. Cis men get to get away with all that, but people act like *I* am the bad guy when I just want to jerk off to girls in peace... As much as it pains me to say it, trans men and cis men are in no way equal, nor treated as such...

I've been getting told "it'll get better since like age 11. I'm 20 now. Let me tell you it has not gotten any better, and never will be.

the fact that trans women can talk about their specific oppression without acknowledging trans men, but trans men cant talk about our experiences without acknowledging trans women, or we will get treated like we are somehow the real oppressors.... is not great not gonna lie

It's barely the beginning of the year and I'm already failing

If you tell a trans man that you don't trust him because he is a man and you think men are untrustworthy, you are directly saying you would be more comfortable around him if he stayed in the closet.

queers will do anything except admit that amab/afab dynamics within the queer community are often the same as man/woman dynamics in the general world

"stop being upset about missing out on a childhood you can live your entire adult life as the gender you want" 1. assuming I'll live "an entire adult life" with this mental state

2. What if I actually want to be an autistic little boy with destructive tendencies but his mom actually still loves him

death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

Forever hating how a big portion of the internet is inaccessible to me because of some stupid shit I did at 16.... like do these mega tech corps realize how long "forever" is?

I can't have reddit on my phone. When on pc, I can almost never post or comment and hope it goes through the spam filter and automod. Discord is extremely limited to me and I can't participate in any server that requires phone authentication, which are a lot of big (official) servers.

I can already hear people complain "hurr durr, you don't need reddit and discord to survive", but can we at least recognize how fucked up it is to permanently lock people out of such big parts of the internet, especially with no way to appeal? I kinda jokingly sent an appeal for a 4 year old ban recently and they still rejected me, though I doubt a human even looked at it.

On top of that, discord and reddit nowadays are huge sources of information. Yes, they both have their dark and grim sides, but also a lot of information and communication goes through there. And I can't access that ever again because of some stupid shit I did at 16. Tell me that's not censorship and tech corps going on a power trip.

I think my most boomer take is WHY THE FUCK TO COMPANIES HAVE NO TECH SUPPORT WHATSOEVER???

This is mostly about online/tech companies, who often have no real way of contacting them, or they have a shitty contact form at most, and 99.99% of the time they "reply" with some shitty auto-reply that offers no help and basically politely tells you to go fuck yourself.

Like wtf happened to being able to give a phone company a call, and they would walk you step to step through your issue? I've had serious account issues with like discord and reddit, and most if not all of it could've been resolved if I could give them a customer support call.

Having troubles with my google account out of all things, and I can't find a real way to contact them where you actually get any help.

It fucking sucks and makes everything so much more complicated. Can tech companies please give us real customer support, and can the EU finally grow some balls and do something about it?