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despretely in need of an almond mom, i geniunely cant do this shit alone i swear

i hate having slim friends. its like two butterflies and a caterpillar side by side... but at least if im the caterpillar, i can evolve into a beautiful butterfly like them too!! ^_^

One sad truth I realized recently is that no one outside of our bubble can understand how it feels. No one can understand what it feels like to just not being able to eat more, even if we want to. To just not having the strenght to eat, face our fears or sometimes even to get up.

It hurts so much not to be understood, not even by my closest people. I sometimes feel like they don't even worry nor care. They just tell me I should "just eat more", then I'd be fine...

It is not that fu**ing easy! If it was, then why do I hate myself even when I go the slightest amount over my self-set "calorie goal"? If it's supposed to be that easy, why do I hate myself when I see any "imperfection" or don't do sports for only one fu**ing day?

I just wan't to be understood or at least seen, but no, even the one's I slightly told what's on my mind don't seem to care...

Well, the fast didn't went as well as I wanted... I ate 350calories. But I have to say, I was forced to eat by my family, so idk I still feel guilty...

I'm invited to a B-Day Party next friday, so maybe I should try not to eat anything till then(would be 5days including friday)

Let me know in the comments, if you think that's a good decision!

Have a good day!

Omfg, today, I binged so hard! Like I ate 1200cals… I‘m feeling so guilty rn. Guess tomorrow I‘ll eat nothing!

I‘ll update you tmr in the evening how it went…

Anyways, some Inspo:

Ate around 500calories today(yes, more, than I wanted to eat). But also burnt like 900cals by judo Training.

I'll try to eat less tmr! Also, I'll have a math exam tmr, so wish me luck pls...

Stay consistent and have a nice day!🦋😘

Ate 993cals today... It's okay I guess, cuz I burnt more than 1000 calories with martial arts training. Well, I try to eat less than 300cals tomorrow!

Hope you had a nice day! Stay consistent!!<3🦋

Hey guys! Today, I ate 399cals. Guess, I should be proud or at least glad, that I didn't ate more. But honestly, I feel nothing at all. Not bad, but neither happy. Y'all know?

Hope y'all had a nice day!!<3

Can someone pls tell me, why I feel like a disgusting, worthless piece of shit after eating 1000cals, even, if i'm still undereating?! I don't get it...

Heyy guys, I'm so sorry for not being that activ on tumblr for such a long time. I hadn't had much time because of lots of exams and stuff. I'll try to post more often from now on.

Today, I went to Barcelona with school. It's a school exchange. Guess it'll be a really nice experience, but the driving by train the whole day was literally so exhausting, that i slept almost the whole time.

Luckily, I only ate two ricecakes today!!(makes 58 cals!!!)

Stay on track and have a nice week!<3

I tried Dr Pepper for the very first time and sorry guys, but for me, this tastes horrible in comparison to real coke or energy drink!

I‘ll stick to my opinion.

If you wanna eat something rn, think twice: Is it really worth the crying, the purging, the self-hate after eating this one disgusting little piece of food? No, it’s definitely not! Eating won’t make you happier, but dropping on the scale, fitting into smaller clothes and noticing others being worried bout you barely eating anything, will! The feeling of an empty stomach, the way you feel, if you can proudly say, that u haven’t eaten for like 5days or longer>>> That’s what will truly make you happy and make you feel worthy!!! 🧚🏻🦋🧚🏻‍♀️

Stay consistent<3

Well guys, I can’t stand myself like this. Guess I’ll purge to prevent gaining from the food I ate..(even though it would be just the weight of the food😞

Well... No, actually not well, today, I ate!

It was only a Salad and a protein shake(122cals). But I don't know how many calories where in the salad😭 But I guess, it's less than 300, so maybe i've eaten like 400 cals this day...

I was spontaniously eating out with my mom and a friend of mine and it would've been suspicious, if I wouldn't have eaten anything, so I chose a low cal option.

Won't eat anything else today and I'll continue fasting tomorrow for another few days!(for me, drinks like, coke zero or black coffee don't count, cuz it has less than 3 cals...)

Okay, but the problem is, i'm rlly blosted now, cuz my body isn't used to that much food anymore. And tmrw is a dance party, where I have to look good(well, at least skinny). I hope the bloating will disappear till then. Maybe I'm going for a run to burn off the cals.

Hope your day was better than mine!

Update

Sooo, well, today I consumed like 37 cals. I know, i'ts not nothing, but it was an energy drink and gum. Guess i'ts okay... especially in fact, that I burnt like 900 cals with martial arts. Good night, hope you also had a good day! ⭐🦋

Heyyy, i'm back!!!

Today, i ate about 597 calories.

I know that's a bit much, but i was like 2 weeks ill and just didn't felt like ⭐ving today. Well, for me it's okay, 'cause in my opinion, being sick and having to take antibiotics isn't the right time to st4rve and also, i ate under my calorie limit of 600.

Waiting for everyone else to go to sleep so you can chew and sp!t>>>>>

June is my month this time fr.

Fuck May.

A month from now...

You can either have a month of progress

OR

A month of excuses why you didn’t.

I want an accountability partner or someone that would do a competition with me to see who can lose the most weight by the end of the year. Is anyone interested???

Okay being super vulnerable by sharing this but this is my weight loss so far. I’m 5’4” and this is from 208.4 to my current weigh in of 152.8

I’m not where I want to be yet but I’ve made so much progress.

**Edit: the pictures in the purple were taken 4/22/22 and the pictures in the orange were taken 9/18/23 so this is well over a year. I was also postpartum

I have officially lost enough weight that I can no longer borrow my husbands sweatpants because they’re so big that don’t stay up anymore

My husband told me I look skinny and I don’t think I’ve ever heard a better compliment

Would anyone be interested in seeing progress pics from my weight loss? I started at 208.4 and am currently 152.8. Still nowhere near my goal but I’ve made so much progress.

10 likes and I’ll post some

Okay I want y’all’s opinions…

I am 5’4” and I had originally set my goal weight to be 128 but now I am thinking 118? Because in reality 128 is basically 130 and I want to be in the 20s so maybe 118? Is that too low for someone my size? Which should be my goal?

I can’t wait until my body is someone’s thinspo

My favorite thinspos

Until I reach my next weight goal I am going to only eat the amount of calories that I burn. I weighed in this morning so I will post daily weigh ins until then and we’ll see how long it takes

Next goal is 148.4

9/10: 160.0

9/11: 157.4

9/12: 154.6 & I got my period today 🙄

9/13: 154.6

9/14: 154.0

9/15: 153.4

9/16: 152.8

9/17: 152.6

9/18: 152.4

9/19: 151.9

9/20: 151.2

9/21: 151.2 😠

I feel like my husband never wants to touch me or be intimate with me. I currently weigh 161.3 at 5’5” maybe if I lost 20 pounds he would be interested.. I hate feeling disgusting and unlovable

I’m not sure if I’ve developed an ed or not cause I feel like I could still normal when I need to or if it’s a social event but every other normal day I eat like ~600 cal? Only because there’s absolutely nothing more satisfying than watching the scale drop. It’s quite literally my favorite thing. And in the last month I’ve lost 15 pounds and I feel so good. I also loovveee working out like I go to the gym 5+ times a week and go on walks almost every day. Maybe I’m kidding myself and I have an ed but I don’t really feel like it. Let me know your thoughts