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I don't get how some people can eat whatever they want and not feel guilty about it......

Trigger warning: ED

As someone suffering from ED. It's really triggering to have those "health check ups" at school. And guess what, mine is back AGAIN. On top of that, the way people talk about weight and body image so insensitivly can make you go back to old habits. Today I heard so many people talk about their weight that I started to feel so anxious about mine. When anyone asked me I didn't say. I just feel like if you do have health check ups, it should be only the person and a teacher and not all the students watching, making fun and comments on others appearance.

I have had BDD since I was 11 or even younger due to certain comments in my family. I have had ED since I was 14. It's not easy. But I know I am not alone.

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It's really hard to be someone with a superiority complex and an inferiority complex at the same time.

Ps: also have GAD, BDD, ED, OCD and other things haven't discovered yet.

Heyyy guys I’m back!!! I’m gonna try to be more active on here anyways I need to lose 15 kg!! Like asp (I’ll give myself a month or less but anyway ya!

Meanspo In comments pls 🫶🏼🫶🏼

How to stop binge cycle after school

Holiday didn’t help ate like trash anyway I’m starting school again so I hope it’ll help lol

Thank god I started my holiday it’s going to be so much easier to starv3 lol

Literally I recovered for a bit and gained 3kg I’m gonna relapse lol I show lose 5kg by the end of the month yea anyway meanspo in the comments pls

That’s it I’ve made a decision I’ll eat now then I’ll fast for one week if I break it I’ll km$ ughhh I need to lose 10kg I have 2weeks and that’s it I will lose them.

Bro I come back from school and literally eat anything I see then I don’t eat for the rest of the day how do I stop this like I starve at school then when I come back I binge (not that big of a binge) it’s so annoying.

I’ve been eating too much lately!!! I’m pretty Sure I gained 1-2kg. Ugh I’m gonna do this and I’ll update you guys when I finish it (also I made this challenge if you wanna do it do it at your own risk!!) I might as well blog what I eat so I’ll be pressured to eat clean!! Also meanspo in the comments pls!!!

700 calories is my new safe number now. I dont feel safe eating above 700. I know it's not sustainable but I will give everything I got to meet that number. I don't want to be fat anymore it's making me a target for abuse and my weight has kept me trapped in a bad relationship.

Every lb I lose will dig me out of this cage my ex has put me in.

When eating does anyone else feel like throwing up as soon as the food touches your tongue? Especially when it comes to meat?

Well that and like. The ability to eat consistent healthy meals. Or jump rope. Or make chili.

I would be so powerful if I could come up with puns. It’s the one skill I currently lack.

Feel better by Penelope Scott is the ultimate relapse song

I'm really annoyed rn and I don't want to actually fix my problems so vent post :P writing this to a certain person who doesn't actually gaf about me

You got mad at me for not taking care of my health. I think it's fucking hilarious that you chose to care now. What is it convenient now?

Why couldn't you care every time that I messaged you to distract myself from the pile of pills in my hands and the blade pressed against my skin. No when I needed you most what you did give was too little too late.

But now you care. Now you're mad at me for being dismissive of my health. I think it's fucking hilarious. Why would I care if I can't eat or drink without chest pains? I'm fucking suicidal! If my body takes itself out good for me! Then I don't have to do it myself.

You're worried sick about me but you don't notice or care that I didn't eat anything at lunch and I was shaking after. When you know that Ive had multiple eating disorders. Bullshit.

Goddammit if you were actually worried you'd listen to me when I talked instead of just scoffing at me when I tell you that no, I haven't scheduled a doctor's appointment. Cause doctors have failed me so many times that I don't trust them anymore and I told you this but you didn't listen. Because doctors are there to help you say. Maybe they help you but I've been let down time and time again. So yeah I hate doctors. I'm allowed to have an opinion even if it's different from yours.

Y'know I think it's really fuckin shitty of you the way you treat me. Even if someone I hated told me the things I told you I'd still look out for them, but you don't do that and we're supposed to be friends.

You're soooo fuckin sad when I tell you that I almost committed suicide once, but you don't notice the sad smile I give when people talk about suicide. When someone told a story about the dream they had about suicide notes I say there knowing I had mine written. They're fucking ready to go when I am. It's soo obvious that something is seriously wrong. I am showing all the signs.

You just don't care to help me

At least not in the way I need

You just wanna preach your bullshit so you can be the winner and the one who was fucking right. You don't care about what I actually need. No one fucking does. I'm so sick of lectures when I just really need a hug but I have no one I can hug without raising suspicion. And if I raise suspicion there goes my plans and way out.

Fuck this I'm so sick of it.

I would never do this to you.

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˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de morango ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 xícara de morangos congelados

♡1/2 banana congelada

♡1/2 xícara de leite semi desnatado

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de frutas vermelhas ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 xícara de frutas vermelhas congeladas

♡ 1/2 banana congelada

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de manga ♡‧₊˚

♡ 100g ou meia manga média em cubos congelada

♡ 1/2 banana congelada

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite;

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de pitaya ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1/2 pitaya vermelha congelada

♡ 1/2 banana congelada

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de pêssego ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 pêssego congelado em cubos

♡ 1/2 banana congelada

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie proteico de chocolate ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 banana congelada

♡ 1 scoop de whey de chocolate

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

♡ Opcional: 1 colher de sopa de pasta de amendoim

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de chocolate ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 banana congelada

♡ 2 colheres de cacau em pó/achocolatado

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

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♡ 1/2 banana congelada

♡ 1 caixinha de YoPro 25g

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie verde ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 maçã verde congelada em cubos (pode ser da vermelha também);

♡ 2 folhas de couve

♡ 7 folhas de espinafre

♡ 1 limão espremido

♡ 1 colher de chá de chia

˚₊‧♡ Smoothie de morango sem banana ♡‧₊˚

♡ 1 potinho de iogurte Vigor Grego 0% gordura

♡ 1 xícara de morango congelado (ou qualquer outra fruta)

♡ 1/2 xícara de leite

Saw a homeless guy with a chainsaw this morning, that's one way to do it, you go guy, you climb to the top

I actually verbally gasped when I sew this it was that breath taking, absolutely fucking flabbergasted and taken back by such glory.

(Not mine obviously check out the original creator I was just that incredibly baffled I had to say something)

saw the most whimsical ass tree in my life and I had to draw his face