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🎀 she/her 🎀 18 🎀 istp

🩰 into kpop, ive, wonyoung, illit, newjeans, aespa, coquette, lana del rey, and more!

🩷 stream IVE

🌸 whispers are in #marielle roses

i will never not understand cassie , she is me i am her

ovulation week

currently embracing my inner unicorn

im tired of drivin ‘till i see stars in my eyes .. ･:*･

౨ৎ and yes it does taste like pepsi cola ..

You're in the wind, i'm in the water🦢

the urge to cut everyone off, burn every bridge, and fall off the face of the earth

everytime i open my mouth to say something, everyone just makes me feel stupid. so i just stopped talking.

i can’t do this anymore. i give up. life wins. let me bed rot for the rest of my days. i no longer want to face the world.

when did everyone else start to see me as a terrible person?

no cause im genuinely convinced everyone hates me

feeling unlovable and misunderstood is like my two main emotions

i love when my mind convinces me that everyone hates me and everything bad that has ever happened is my fault🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶💕💕💕💕

CHAT!! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND WORTH LIVING!! YOU DESERVE TO LIVE AND EXPERIENCE HAPPINESS!! EVEN IF ITS SMALL!! HAPPY IS HAPPY!! (i went to the park and cured my depression)

unfortunately i'm back at uni

I genuinely was dreading this since the day I landed back home. I am still considering dropping out, taking a semester or year off, and just returning home. Worse case, I'll transfer to a uni back home and have no friends, but at least I'll be home with my family, and somewhere that's familiar, and I know by heart. Another part of me wants to stay and battle it out (also, I'm afraid of what others will think of me if I drop out/take a break). I went through so much my first year, and I'm afraid of going through them again. Depression sucks! Anyways, classes start in a few days, and I'm so stressed about it. I made a deal with myself to last the first month and then decide if I wanted to go back home. Hopefully I'm better mentally by then so I can stay here without being worried that I would be a danger to myself, If I am then I'm going back home to get proper help and to be with family.

I desperately miss my cats.

grief hits in funny little ways always trying to remind you what you’ve lost.

i realized i never speak abt how im feeling and i keep everything in bc i don’t want ppl to perceive me in a negative way like i already do with myself. i already think this way about myself i don’t need anyone else to do that too.

i hate the fact that i am perceived

everyday i hope and pray this is all just some terrible dream and i wake up 7 years old again when all I had to worry about was what storyline my toys would have to put up with today

i wish i could just fade into nothingness and everyone would forget about me

i have spent so much of my life keeping things in, I genuinely don’t know how to let it out

i need someone to desperately fall in love with me rn. i swear i’ll be good🙏

i fucking hate this trend (it is the most understood i’ve ever felt)