"if You Are Fully Aware Of Yourself, Why Do You Keep Acting Like That?" Babe Slapping Self Awareness

my scars are fading.

i need to make more

The second I feel slightly better I'm like: "you never felt bad in the first place you're all faking it for attention, fuck you fake ass emo"

And then I feel stupid 🧍

bpd feels like you’re constantly begging for affection because normal amounts of affection doesn’t feel like enough

I love my scars

"erm that leaves scars" Thats the best part

im only a survivor because im physically here, i was killed in every other way. im afraid i’ve always been dead and that i always will be.

when you finally reach that numb after the breakdown >>>

I genuinely think there’s something so irrevocably wrong with me that no matter how hard I try to recover and distract myself with good people and nice things I will never be able to escape it

And you broke me in all the ways I loved you.

Bpd is not being able to love yourself unless someone else loves you, but never fully believing that they could actually love someone like you.