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me doing anything else: omggg i just wanna write i could making so much progress on my WIP right nowww

me working on said WIP: scrolling on phone with laptop open on the same chapter it's been open on for days.

I made this callout meme for me and me specifically

im complaining all day about my neck hurting and then sit down to read like that

*Scrolling on my phone and seeing a writing meme*

"Oh wow this is so funny!" I say as my story collects dust in the background

having adhd is like "fuck, it's half past noon. that pretty much means it's one o'clock. that means it's lunchtime. that means it's pretty much three. that means it's almost five o'clock, and that means the day is pretty much over and i don't have time for any of the things i was going to do today :( time to scroll aimlessly through social media until bedtime"

i don't smoke for the obvious reasons of not wanting to develop an addiction to nicotine but god do i so often feel the emotion 'i need a cigarette'.

every day i make choices. not the right ones, usually, but choices nevertheless.

Gifted kid still in school here!

I am struggling in math, but everyone thinks I’m great at it since I’m a grade ahead no one listens to me when I talk about my anxiety about getting bad grades (a low A or a B, I have cried over getting those multiple times), saying that I can’t have anxiety/be stressed because I’m so young.

And because I excel in science, I’m currently in an honors course and two college courses! How fun. (/Sarcasm)

Everyone calls me smart just because I get decent grades. I don’t know anything about the solar system, engineering or coding.. but my special interest is architecture, urban design, City , art, reading and storytelling yet I never get to show anyone that.

They call me smart because I know most of the SAT words already and their definitions, but I only know that because I pick up a book every once in a while and binge read a whole series in a week.

According to everyone, I know, I’m a know it all, yet I can’t control the tone of my voice, I can’t understand Love or emotions. I just don’t feel human sometimes. Yet they call me smart.

I never learned how to study, I never learned how to take notes properly until this year and I still can’t turning my homework on time because it’s difficult sometimes and it’s discouraged me because everything supposed to be easy. That’s what I was told.

It’s not easy. Nothing is anymore, and it’s throwing me for such a loop that I can’t understand.

Maybe I’m in the middle of a gifted kid burn out, but I’ve been burnt out since middle school.

people misunderstand what ‘gifted kid’ actually means but it’s ok it’s fine it’s cool it’s good

Me and my friends hanging out and talking about our fictional crushes:

Friends: normal crushes on attractive characters

Me: has a crush on only main character's brothers

Friends: omg looks likes you have a brother complex...hahaha.....just kidding

Me: heh....no of course not

Me, later in my bed: I think I do have a brother complex caused by lack of male figures to look up that has made me in want of finding them in other peoples siblings.....

Me: or they are just hot when they are two years older

‪The incorrect and negative beliefs we can get from years of negative feedback not knowing we have ADHD or how it affects our lives. While not everything is solely caused by ADHD, it can affect us and our comorbidities in many, many ways. Good news is, treating ADHD can do wonders for Anxiety and Depression!

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So, my brother wanted to cheer me up...

when you and the homie are trying to emote correctly but you both have autism