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Daily Draw, 8.16.17

The King of Wands, Reversed

I feel resistant to reversed cards. I dread their apparent negativity. 

I didn’t have much information to call up about this one right off the bat, beyond the fact that wands are fire. Desire and will. So... I looked it up. 

This card reversed can indicate inauthenticity. Doing things that don’t feel true to you. It could be warning against recklessness or risky impulses. It may mean that you are holding yourself to grand, but unrealistic expectations that you are struggling to achieve, resulting in frustration with your lack of progress.

Looking at the card right side up, the King looks cocky and authoritative. Reversed, those same qualities could seem brash and egotistical.

Reflecting on my day, at the end of it, this card was accurate. I had to ask my mother for help paying my health insurance bill, which is very unlike me and which causes me an enormous amount of distress. I am fiercely independent. I feel like a failure. But is it reasonable to hold myself to expectations of financial security, given the current situation? No. It isn’t.

Maybe I need to take it easier on myself and learn to accept help when I need it.

For a few weeks now I’ve been using the Golden Thread tarot app. One of its features is a daily draw. Now that I have a physical deck, I’ve been doing a daily draw in both the app and real life, which I’ll likely reflect on here when it feels meaningful.

Today’s daily draw is the Page of Pentacles. I sat on my bed, shuffled, then quietly pressed my hands to the splayed out cards and thought, “What do I need to know about today?” I closed my eyes and pulled a card by feel.

My first thoughts were, “Pages, new opportunities. Pentacles, earthly and material things.” Maybe this is about my finances looking up. One can hope. I investigated various analyses as to the meaning of the card, as Tashi did not gift me with the box or guidebook. I’ve shared what felt relevant below.

The Galaxy Tarot app has this to say: “Cautious, new job or project, new studies. The page is a youthful, dependable, practical person, willing to work hard to gain new knowledge or skills.”

The Rider Waite app was nonsensical to me and provided too many interpretations. It’s much more comprehensive, but it didn’t seem to offer anything useful this time.

The Golden Thread app says: “Pages are the child, the new spark, the holder of energy. Dreams, desire, new opportunities. You are on the brink of giving life to a new venture or opportunity that brings you luck in the material world. You are full of energy and enthusiasm to make this new opportunity come to life.”

Looking at the card itself, the Page appears to be holding the light of the sun in one hand. She is floating towards the light, away from a darker corner where bird beaks that look like sharp claws peek out. The sun is a pentacle. She is looking away from it.

This could mean many things, I suppose. It feels optimistic, but she’s unfocused on the brilliant sun. I’m choosing to interpret it as an appeal to keep my chin up and my eyes on the prize. Encouragement to continue my job search. That my luck is about to change.

I need that optimism right now.