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ATSUSHI ANGST!!
(Uyarılar: Yeme bozukluğu, kendine zarar verme, shin soukoku, soukoku,Dazai)
Atsushi ve Akutagawa Dazai sayesinde tekrar bir görevde birlikte çalışıyorlardı. Görevleri gereği bir otelde birlikte kalacaklardı. Otel hafif lüks, tek yataklı bir oteldi. Görev bilgilerini aldılar ve otele gittiler.
ATSUSHI POV:
Gerçekten Akutagawa ile birlikte mi kalacaktım? Daha kötüsü olamazdı. Otele girer girmez banyoya girdim.
⚠️ (başlıyor)
Cebimden bir bıçak çıkardım, eski bandajları kenara attım ve bıçak ile elimi kesmeye başladım.
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11, daha fazla yaparsam Akutagawa'nın şüpheleneceğini düşündüm, kanları temizleyip ve bandajlayıp çıktım.
⚠️ (bitti)
Akşam yemeğine Chuuya ve Dazai ile buluşacaktık. Sıcak havaya rağmen ince uzun kollu bir bluz giydim ve n'olur n'olmaz diye ceket aldım.
AKUTAGAWA POV:
Jinko'nun bu sıcak havaya rağmen uzun şeyler giymesi beni şüphelendirdi. Çok sorgulamadım ve sadece bir tişört ve normal eşofman giydim. Akşam yemeğine Dazai ve Chuuya ile buluşacaktık. Mekana gittik ve oturduk. Dazai, Chuuya ile flörtleşiyordu. Biz gelince durdular.
Kimsenin POV:
Dazai, Atsushi'nin uzun kollu giyinmesine ve üstüne üstlük ceket giymesine şaşırmış gibi görünüyordu.
Dazai: "At-su-shi-kun~! Neden kısa kollu giymedin? Hava soğuk değil ve kedilerin tüylerinin soğuktan koruduğunu duymuştum~!"
(Eğer severseniz burdan devam edicem, sevmezseniz Wattpad'den devam ederim:3)
(Wattpad: Fan_Of_Angst veya Atsushi:3)
If you take requests, can I have Atsushi being comforted by the reader when hes crying because they saw him as a weretiger? Please?
Request?: yes Summery: The reader runs after Atsushi, as he lost control of his tiger form, getting hurt in the progress. Character?: Atsushi nakajima Genre: Angst to fluff
A/n: hi hi! Thank you so much for your request, it was different than most of them and I'm glad I made it! Please feel free to request more for it to be written in the near future. For now enjoy the fanfic! <3
All you could think about is ‘Run as fast as you can’.
You ran through the screaming crowd, trying to reach the one you love with all your heart. Atsushi and you have been assigned with a mission, it wasn’t a difficult mission at all, but someone had did their research on the agency and their members, and all it took was a little bit of information about Atsushi’s past to get him out of control.
He had fully turned into the were tiger without ever meaning to do so
“ATSUSHI!” You screamed for him, as you used your combat skills to get onto objects like trash cans, bus stations or even cars. You needed to calm him down before anything would happen to him.
You jumped over the cars, seeing him in the distance as you received a call from none other than kunikida.
“Y/N WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING OVER THERE?” You heard him scream, as you realised this is all being broadcasted, looking up as you saw the news helicopter fly above the two of you. ‘Shit.’ You muttered, as you speed up.
“Someone got sensitive information kunikida, He went out of control and almost killed the guy have they not gotten away since I stopped Atsushi.” You explained, your legs aching while you still speed up after Atsushi, hearing more screaming people of fright.
“SECURE THE AREA FOR ME OKAY THANKS BYE-“ You rushed the call before you heard kunikida scream on the other side.
You ran as fast as your legs could, as your eyes widen, seeing Atsushi about to attack. “ATSUSHI!” You screamed as you came in between the innocent people and the tiger that was about to attack. He couldn’t stop on time, as his claw made contact with your arms, giving it a nasty scratch mark.
You screamed out in pain and held onto your arm, whimpering slightly as you saw the blood and clothes being ripped off your body.
That’s definitely going to leave a nasty scar.
“Run!” You screamed at the innocent people, as they quickly scrammed, leaving you alone with a clearly distressed tiger. “Its okay baby its okay..” You whispered softly, holding your other hand out, treating him like a cat. “Its just me, your safe Atsushi..But you have to get control again.” You put a step forward, as him bumped his nose against your hand, smelling in the scent and his pupils dilated to a normal size again, as you heard whimpers come out of his mouth.
You slowly pet him with your good hand, as you squad down.
“We have to get out of here, can I ride your back?” You asked him as he nodded gently. You hopped onto his back, leaned forward and whispered, ‘Make sure to lose the helicopter first dear”
As you guys moved like the speed of light, going directly towards the Agency.
They immediately stood their ground, as Dazai and Kunikida came to your rescue. You were bleeding quite a lot on the floor as your vision began to blur because of the amount of blood you had lost by the wound that needed treatment this instant.
You heard screaming, Dazai nullifying Atsushi’s ability, Seeing the doctors coat of Yosano flash in front of you, as you slowly fade away out of consciousness.
As everything around you became black pool of darkness.
You woke up, slightly feeling your arm being sore, as you slowly opened your eyes to adjust at the light of the room. You groaned softly, as you felt a weight at the side of your bed. You looked down, seeing a sleeping Atsushi with red puffy eyes, sleep by your side.
A sharp pain in your side snapped you back in reality, as you realised you also had been bandaged by the side of your body.
“Your lucky it wasn’t something that touched our organs.” A sudden voice spoke as you were eye to eye with Yosano herself. “A shot like that could’ve been nasty if you weren’t here on time.” She stated, something that you nodded your head in agreement on. “He’s been worried about you, He basically cried like a small baby when I told him your state and that you were okay.” Yosano chuckled as you smiled gently, stroking his hair with the hand attached to the bandaged arm.
You heard him groan slightly, as yosano took that as a cue to get out of the room.
He slowly woke up, as you smiled softly at him, your hand on his cheek as you whispered softly. “Hi baby..” You let out a small smile as he started to cry again, His arms and body flopping on top of him.
“Y/N!!” He sobbed, as you groaned slightly but rubbed his back and kissed his cheek gently. “Right here dear..right here..” You smiled gently, as you cupped his face, making him look at you. “Oh Y/n Im so sorry I shouldn’t have lost control and that was just- he just-“ He stuttered, trying to get his words in the right context.
You kissed him gently, immediately shutting him up. “Its okay its okay trust me it is okay-“ You stated, as he still kept crying. You hugged him close, as you guys slowly calmed down together.
“We’ll train some more sushi, you need the emotions and those powers of yours under control.” You teased him as he kept crying.
“Okay- I love you”
“I love you too”
Do you have a rules page or any guidelines for requesting ?
your very free to ask whatever you want! I do have a few rules, but those are kinda the basics, just decent human being rules
Scroll all the way down at this post and you’ll see the few rules I put in :D
Thank you for asking though <33
Atsushi Kinnie Callout - From an Atsushi Kinnie (Part 1)
I'm gonna be brutally honest here and projecting a lot so be warned fellow kinnies
1. You were taught that the worth of your life is determined by how much you help or benefit others
An important figure in your life (the orphanage “headmaster”) taught you that people who don’t help others with their existence do not deserve to live, and it would be better if they were dead.
The irony is, you only extend this belief to yourself, because you recognize that in extending it to others, you would be believing some other people do not deserve to live. And you recognize how cruel, terrible and wrong that is. Yet, you cannot see how cruel and terrible it is to yourself.
2. You have a huge savior complex
Since you believe the value of your life comes from how much you benefit others, you try to help people as much as you can. To others, it seems like you are a kind and selfless person, but deep down, you have two things motivating you:
• the suffocating fear of being unworthy of living if you aren't of any use to people around you
• the rush of "selfish” joy you feel when you have a great impact on someone, when you are the most important person to someone and are irreplaceable to them. Because these make you feel useful and worthy of living.
Because of these, you have the tendency to form codependent relationships, with you as the "giver". It ensures that someone always needs you, so you are always worthy of living. You may even become slightly manipulative, befriending and trying to become close to those who seem more in need of help, more isolated, more lonely.
Because they're more likely to need you, as desperately as you need to be needed.
3. You believe your kindness is fake, and that you are actually a selfish and terrible person
Because you help people out of the selfish motivation to make yourself feel better, so that you feel like you deserve to live more, you feel endlessly guilty. Because.. an actually kind person would help others, for others to be happy, not for themselves, right?
Additionally, since the belief that helping others gives you the permission to live was taught to you, you feel your kindness was a taught behavior as well. You feel that at your core, you are a selfish person who was just taught not to be, and that makes all the selfless actions you’ve done worthless. Maybe you approach caring for others in a calculating way: memorize their interests, check up on them, listen to them; these will make people happy.
4. Guilt is your primary emotion
Guilt for your existence, for your mistakes, for failing to help people, is the biggest driver of your emotions. Guilt controls your life, and it is an exhausting emotion to live with.
5. You care more about what’s inside than outside
You’re not concerned about other people or your appearances, reputations or social status, because how people treat others around them and their hearts is much more important to you.
6. You are stuck in the past
The belief that chains you to the cycle of guilt is one in your past. The headmaster in your life is gone now, but the flashbacks and words remain. Why is that? Is it because you became so used to them, that they kept you safe? They were all you ever knew, the only way you knew how to navigate the world. With no other guide, you are terrified of letting go of this belief, which defines your existence.
Maybe you are terrified, if you let go of this belief, you will become a terrible and selfish person. Or maybe you are scared of becoming better, because it would feel like your past never happened.
Okay thanks for reading! Will post part 2 when this gets 20+ notes :D
Atsushi: What's a word that's a mix between 'sad' and 'mad' ?
Kunikida: Disgruntled, miserable, desolated-
Dazai: Smad
I read a lot of sskk fics and one of my favorite Atsushi moods is him having gay as fuck thoughts during inappropriate situations. Like yes your mans does look hot while he's suffering BUT ATSUSHI BBY worry first horny later.
atsushi: akutagawa is so annoying and rude and i hate him
kunikida, hopeful: so ull avoid him??
atsushi: no, im asking u to come to my wedding with him
kunikida:
atsushi: it’s tomorrow
kunikida:
kunikida: you’ve known him for a month
atsushi: worst month of my life
kunikida:
someone tell aku to stop being gay for five seconds and be so fucking fr because what
i ovoe atushi so much
Atsushi: You see how I come to work? Very tired. Very sleepy. I don’t come to work with a pep in my step. I clock in and go to the bathroom for 10 minutes.
Atsushi: I don’t come to work with coffee in hand. I wait till I get to work and get my coffee for free, where they offer it. Very cheap. Very tired.
Atsushi Nakajima Reference
Lost Parents and was in orphanage
Bit by spider and chaos ensues
Basically think of the typical chaos caused by a spider person figuring out their powers (I'm thinking lunchroom scene from Tobey Maguire spiderman one)
Runs away from orphanage and spends time on the streets being a thief
Runs into Dazai who is his mentor figure and takes him in
Dazai dies (not sure how yet but it leads to Atsushi becoming Spider-man)
More details will come later!
...so I wrote a really weird little mermaid AU
Atsushi and Akutagawa for the Soul Eater AU!!!
In this pair, Atsushi is the Meister and Akutagawa is the weapon. In PM Academy, Akutagawa primarily fights solo, materializing blades from his body. Atsushi on the other hand is a versatile Meister who wields several of the weapons in the agency. The most common ones are Dazai, Junichiro, and sometimes Kenji. I haven’t decided if Kyouka is a Meister or a weapon, but if she’s a weapon she’d likely team up with Atsushi a lot because she’d trust him not to use her for evil.
These two both dislike how Dazai paired them together, but they’re a strong team once they get past their fighting and actually work together. Maybe they’re like the second coming of Double Black?
