I Don't Understand Much But What I Do Know Is That People Who Read Books And Poetries Are So Attractive

sorry to disappoint you, but i’d rather stare out of the window, listen to music and create fake scenarios in my head than do those worthless mortal tasks

Quarantined dark academia :

Looking out to the porch waiting for your order of books to arrive, reading till 4AM, lazy sips of red wine, black coffee in the late afternoon, burning candles on all day, mozart playing quietly while you sketch in your well-loved notebook, your favourite novels falling apart as you read them for the hundredth time, dressing in scarves and tweed jackets for your daily walks, missing museums and galleries and libraries .

Some illustrations from Astronomy, Explained Upon Sir Isaac Newton's Principles and Made Easy to Those Who Have Not Studied Mathematics by James Ferguson (1799).

your hologram 👾👻 stumbled 🫨 into my apartment 🌃 hands 🙌 in the hair 💆‍♀️ of somebody 💏 in darkness 🌫️😶‍🌫️ named Chloe 💆‍♀️ or Sam 💆 or Sophia 💆‍♀️ or Marcus 💆‍♂️ and I. just. ʷᵃᵗᶜʰᵉᵈ 👀. it happen 💏🧍‍♀️. as the decade 📆 would play us for fools 🃏🤝🃏 and you saw 👀 my bones 💀🤝💀 out 💃🕺 with somebody new 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨 who seemed like 🤔 he would've bullied you 🤓🥊🤣 in school 🤕🏫 and you. just. ʷᵃᵗᶜʰᵉᵈ 👀. it happen 🫂🧍‍♂️. if you wanna break 💔🔨🤬 my cold 🤧 cold 🥶 heart 💙 just say, 🗣️"I loved you 🥰…the way that you were 😕🤷‍♂️” if you wanna tear 🫱💔🤏 my world 🫱🌎🤏 apart 🫱💥🤏 just say you've always…woOondered 🤔💭👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨…you said some things 🗣️🗯️ that I can't 🙅‍♀️ unabsorb 🗣️🗯️🧽 you turned me into an idea of sorts 🧍‍♀️🟰🤔💭😇🪽 you needed me 🫂 but you needed drugs more 🤷‍♀️ and I could-n't. 🙅‍♀️. ʷᵃᵗᶜʰ 🫣. it happen. I changed into goddesses 🧝‍♀️ villains 🦹‍♀️ and fools 🤡🎨🖌️ changed plans 🇬🇧✈️🗽 and lovers 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨 and outfits 👩🏼‍🦱👱🏻‍♀️💇🏼‍♀️👩🏻‍🦳👩🏼 and rules 📏👸 all to outrun 🏃‍♀️💨 my desertion of you 🏃‍♀️💨🏝️ and you. just. ʷᵃᵗᶜʰᵉᵈ 👀. it 🏃‍♀️💨🏝️🧍‍♂️. if you wanna break 💔🔨🤬 my cold 🤧 cold 🥶 heart 💙 just say, 🗣️"I loved you 🥰…the way that you were 😕🤷‍♂️” if you wanna tear 🫱💔🤏 my world 🫱🌎🤏 apart 🫱💥🤏 just say you've always…woOoOondered 🤔💭 if the glint in my eye ✨👁️ traced the depths ✏️🗺️🤿 of your sigh ✏️🗺️😮‍💨 down that passage ⬇️ in time ⌛️ back to the moment ⏳⏪ I crashed into you 🧍‍♂️💥🏃‍♀️ like so many wrecks do 🏝️💥🚢 too impaired by my youth 👼 to know what to do 🤷‍♀️❓ so if I sell my apartment 🌃💸 and you have some kids 👶👧🧒👦 with an internet starlet 🤵‍♂️🤰🤳🏻 will that make your memory 🤔💭❤️‍🔥 fade from this scarlet maroon 🤔💭😶‍🌫️ like it never happened? 🤷‍♀️💭🌫️ could it be enough 🤔 to just float in your orbit? 👩‍🚀🪐🧍‍♂️can we watch our phantoms 🧍‍♂️👻❤️‍🔥👻🧍‍♀️like watching wild horses? 🧍‍♂️🐎🐎🧍‍♀️ cooler 😎 in theory 👩‍🔬💭 but not if you force it to be 🫸🧍‍♂️🧍‍♀️🫷it just didn't happen 🤷‍♀️ so, if you wanna break 💔🔨🤬 my cold 🤧 cold 🥶 heart 💙…..say you loved me 😞…….and if you wanna tear 🫱💔🤏 my world 🫱🌎🤏 apart 🫱💥🤏 say you'll always…woOoOonder 🤔💭………………….'cause I woOoOooonder 😞💭…….will I always…will I always…..won-der? 🤷‍♀️💭🌫️

horror → castles

to whoever i end up with:

i want to share a shower with you. i want to share soaps with you. i want to be constantly running out of soaps because we use each other's soaps. i want to smell my soaps on you.

i want to sit on the train with you late at night leaning on each other and listening to music. i want to be drinking coffee and stroking your hair.

i want to hit you whenever you crack a stupid joke.

i want to make movies about you.

i want to write journals about you.

i want you to wake up while i'm still sleeping and read until i wake up to see how many chapters you can read before i wake up. probably a lot. i wake up really late.

i want to write things for you. good things. not things like this. i want to write things that make you understand how much i adore you but i'm bad with words but i promise i'm trying. i'm really trying.

As an only child, maybe I’m the only one who feels this way. But, in my opinion we pick our closest friends to substitute for brothers and sisters, and though we love spending time with them, we’re perfectly comfortable being alone when things get too hectic. In fact, that’s where we thrive when it comes to creativity and thinking. 

Me in the middle of the night: *coming up with ideas for papers, developing points to argue, thinking of concepts for stories I want to write, imagining worlds that make me eager to start writing*

Me when I’m finally in front of my laptop: How do I write?

I told my brother I couldn’t sleep and he told me to watch something boring so, did you guys knew stars have different light colors? Actually red light stars are that color because since they are in the cool and bloated stage of their evolution they are more dense, therefore can dominate the infrared light. Still awake though.

No no, hear me out, okay? You date me, you get love letters, we recreate cute Pinterest photos, I surprise you with annotated copies of your favourite books, we get matching lockets and put pictures of each other in them, we explore the forest, we go to museums and libraries together, I make you your favourite tea, I write you sappy love songs, and we read books together so we can talk about them when we're done reading them. What do you think? Good idea, yeah?