14 Months & Counting ,

I hear you,

I can feel you

I can’t see you.

Sickness

Weakness

You make me do all these things.

Love

Hate

Twisted emotions

You control all these .

My movement

My touch

My taste

Are all crazy things

It scares me

To know your the most powerful thing.

@trueemotions91

She said

He said

Is a game of war .

The unbeatable,

Game of saw.

Against your self

Will do just harm

To play a game

With no possible outcome .

@trueemotions91

Lost Balloons

(Pic is mine. Reproduce however you want)

when i look at the sky

i dont

see clouds

at least not as often as

i see feathers

from missing wings

i dont see myself

next to the stars

im in the middle

where lost balloons are found

i let one go once

it explored the sky

while i swore

it would come back

© @parasomnambulist December 15, 2020

My mind is my haven

Yet I have no where to hide

Crazy thoughts

Constantly running in my mind

Wired feelings

I’ve never felt

Makes me giddy

Makes me wanna shout .

Feeling of something

Deep within me

Trying it’s best to reach out

With all my might

I struggle to keep it locked in

I’m fuckin petrified

If I declined

What would this thing do to my insides

It creeps in my throat

I promise you not

I feel it real tight

Makes me want to choke .

To keep it down

Is a strength I hold

Coz this fucker really wants to take hold

But I’m scared how my future will unfold .

@trueemotions91

Good morning ❤️

My mind is my master

A slave to all

The only thing

That is out of my control.

@trueemotions91

On a dark cold night

Awoken my soul under the moon light

Like a wolf in sheep clothes

While the whole world stayed closed

My soul opened to the universe

On that hill rise

I was exposed

To the elements of life

And lord behold

As the devils hide

And nature took hold

A beast , I felt , deep inside .

@trueemotions91

There is a reason it takes two .

Abuse is powerful

And is on the rise

But what really

Tears up my eyes

Is ignorant parents

Who can’t see the damage

That Themselves are inflicting

To the person thier promise

Their cherish.

Out of spite ,

Not for love,

Just to cause a stupid fight

All for some petty right .

A child needs both parents

For respect and order .

I was raised by a single mother

And I adore her.

But to many parents

Put up the fight

To know it will all

end in just heart ache

It’s not fair

Nor right.

The damage you think

Is a game and a laugh

When it’s

Caused to your child’s

Other half

But your soon point the finger

When the painted picture

Comes crashing down

And all will be told

Of the child

of a

Spiteful other.

Please just

Think of how your child’s life could of been told

By the other

Story teller .

@trueemotions91

In life we have years , but in reality it’s seconds!

Within a blink our whole life can be altered !

Do you really appreciate life ?!

What we are giving , what we can give ?!

Is it a blessing or curse to be living on our world of ours today!

Children always hurting, adults always killing!

Not even the waters are no longer clean!

Food is processed - it’s a chemical overload to a body we have neglected !

The air we breath is no longer healthy it’s a time bomb waiting on your lungs!

The weak die young but their always live the hardest !

Life is a game of fear, hope & love,

But is it ?

Or is it just a part of a illusionist to paint ourselves this pretty picture

Our children ,

our off spring .

Have to be strong ,

mentally and physically to take on this world !

A lot tougher then us

As the world adapts people adapt!

And not always in the best way!

Hold ya love ones close , keep your enemy’s away not closer !

Hold your head high above the dark cloud that smothers you and carry on my soldiers !

Because I hope and pray one day the fog will fade and the sun will shine for all to breathe what was ment to be !

Peace and harmony

@trueemotions91

To be scared is a under statement,

That fear no longer dwindles in my bones ,

Tumblr has taught me ,

Friends are just ghosts , or empty egg shells.

Strangers have more empathy then the man next door,

I was just a fool ,

all along , playing to the devils own dirty tune .

Emotions that ran high ,

Words that didn’t make much sense ,

To a soul opened my eyes

By just a few tiny words.

I realise now ,

it is not, who is here to pick up the phone

It’s the ones who are in the dark

But yet take the time to pass your name in there own daily thoughts.

Yet I’ve done nothing for them, yet there speak of me so kindly.

In this world that’s distracted by so much colour,

Them bright doors don’t hold the key to this earths heavens,

It is the doors that are hid in the darkest shadows,

waiting for someone to find them, to help them flourish.

So Don’t go looking for the brightest light ,

Search for the darkest gate

that’s where we will find all things beautiful in

such a dark cold world,

that’s flourished with colour To distract us ,

from the true treasures of this world .

@trueemotions91

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