A Bit TH1NSPØ:

Update

Sooo, well, today I consumed like 37 cals. I know, i'ts not nothing, but it was an energy drink and gum. Guess i'ts okay... especially in fact, that I burnt like 900 cals with martial arts. Good night, hope you also had a good day! ⭐🦋

One sad truth I realized recently is that no one outside of our bubble can understand how it feels. No one can understand what it feels like to just not being able to eat more, even if we want to. To just not having the strenght to eat, face our fears or sometimes even to get up.

It hurts so much not to be understood, not even by my closest people. I sometimes feel like they don't even worry nor care. They just tell me I should "just eat more", then I'd be fine...

It is not that fu**ing easy! If it was, then why do I hate myself even when I go the slightest amount over my self-set "calorie goal"? If it's supposed to be that easy, why do I hate myself when I see any "imperfection" or don't do sports for only one fu**ing day?

I just wan't to be understood or at least seen, but no, even the one's I slightly told what's on my mind don't seem to care...

Dietspø

Hey guys, from tmr on, i'll try the following diet:

Well, i don't think, i'm rlly going to lose 10kg with this in 10 days, but anyways, wish me luck🍀🦋

Btw, are you interested in Mealspo, if so, i'll try to make it pretty. Pls comment if you want me to post smth like that.<3

If you wanna eat something rn, think twice: Is it really worth the crying, the purging, the self-hate after eating this one disgusting little piece of food? No, it’s definitely not! Eating won’t make you happier, but dropping on the scale, fitting into smaller clothes and noticing others being worried bout you barely eating anything, will! The feeling of an empty stomach, the way you feel, if you can proudly say, that u haven’t eaten for like 5days or longer>>> That’s what will truly make you happy and make you feel worthy!!! 🧚🏻🦋🧚🏻‍♀️

Stay consistent<3

Well... No, actually not well, today, I ate!

It was only a Salad and a protein shake(122cals). But I don't know how many calories where in the salad😭 But I guess, it's less than 300, so maybe i've eaten like 400 cals this day...

I was spontaniously eating out with my mom and a friend of mine and it would've been suspicious, if I wouldn't have eaten anything, so I chose a low cal option.

Won't eat anything else today and I'll continue fasting tomorrow for another few days!(for me, drinks like, coke zero or black coffee don't count, cuz it has less than 3 cals...)

Okay, but the problem is, i'm rlly blosted now, cuz my body isn't used to that much food anymore. And tmrw is a dance party, where I have to look good(well, at least skinny). I hope the bloating will disappear till then. Maybe I'm going for a run to burn off the cals.

Hope your day was better than mine!

Okay, today I‘ll restart the diet, I already shared with you. I’m gonna be consistent this time. No binges, no excuses. I want to lose weight, so I have to work for it.

Have a nice day and stay on track<3

BTW, a bit Thinspø:

Can someone pls tell me, why I feel like a disgusting, worthless piece of shit after eating 1000cals, even, if i'm still undereating?! I don't get it...

So, today i ate 406 calories:Noodle soup(350kcal) and Olaf ice cream from Frozen(55kcal) also a coke zero(1kcal)

Idk, was it too much?

Omfg, today, I binged so hard! Like I ate 1200cals… I‘m feeling so guilty rn. Guess tomorrow I‘ll eat nothing!

I‘ll update you tmr in the evening how it went…

Anyways, some Inspo:

Ate only 345kcal today, but still feel guilty...

Breakfast: 130g Strawberries(42kcal)

Lunch: green Smoothie(140kcal)

Dinner: 2 Rice cakes(57kcal)

And was forced to eat a slice of bread(106kcal)