Sometimes stpd is shame. Constant shame. Shame so intense it bleeds out from you, into the rest of the world, where no one is to be trusted, not humanity, not anyone you know, not even yourself.
Shame that defies “common reality," where no one is to be trusted because humanity is inherently sinister. Because everyone you know personally is going to watch you through cameras or kidnap you. They're watching you because they've noticed that there is something "off" about you, that you're inept or otherwise incompetent. And thats why they want to hurt you.
Stpd is to exist in two seemingly contradictory states all at the same time- constant anxiety, and constant apathy.
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I will connect with the gods from my culture then I will have a deeper understanding of the divine feminine and be closer to mother once that takes place I will sacrifice my blood for her :) mother will love me then maybe I can even be a high priestess for her :)
I desperately want to cosplay Valerie from Josie and the pussy cats I would post it here if I ever do it
cluster a culture is having a safe person who you'd like to talk about stuff and things with and then just. *loud incorrect buzzer* wrong! actually you should shut up forever
I’ve been feeling an entity watching me for the past couple of weeks
Anyone else homicidal instead of suicidal?
I miss being high
I’m getting suspicious of a family member trying to make me sick
I don’t want to interact with society anymore I want to be alone
Last night I was terrified to fall asleep because I felt like I was being watched again :(