True Except For Bottom Surgery.

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

Shstegwggevr girl help me I'm thinking about the experience of being the only 'girl' in so many spaces I occupied growing up and how that makes me feel weird and alien amongst men no matter how much I pass or whatever because I still always feel like I don't belong there again

"stop being upset about missing out on a childhood you can live your entire adult life as the gender you want" 1. assuming I'll live "an entire adult life" with this mental state

2. What if I actually want to be an autistic little boy with destructive tendencies but his mom actually still loves him

being a trans man sucks bcs you experience both misogyny and the challenges that come with being marginalized men, while constantly being denied that you experience either. youre a man only when it can be used against you. youre a 'failed woman' otherwise.

I don't know how to take amabs seriously when they describe how oppressed they think they were for their sex as children and it's literally just that they weren't allowed to wear frilly clothes. Like I'm sorry but no, I don't care about the time you cried because your parents made you get a haircut you didn't like. I was taught by the world's most common religion as a child that afab people are the root of all human evil, we exist to be slaves for amab people, and our only redemption is suffering.

New missed childhood memory unlocked

Piss on an electric fence.

Big part of this is the fact parents often can't let go of their parental role even after they've been an adult for several years. Like tf you mean your 22 year old son has a curfew?

People often compare toxic parents of adult children to toxic roommates, but it's nowhere near the same simply due to the power dynamic parents feel like they have even over their adult children. At least with a toxic roommate you're on the same level of authority, the same can't be said about toxic parents.

there's no shame in continuing to live with your parents as an adult, but it does have an undeniable poisoning effect on your brain that you can't start healing until you live somewhere else

My most toxic trait is thinking "there's people far worse than me" is a legitimate excuse. Like it really is in my opinion. But for some reason that seems a way of toxic thinking and now I'm feeling conflicted

Parents gave me a "kayleigh" type of name and getting to change it to something normal may just be the only good thing I gained from being trans

sigh.