now I'm really not sure about R2 in this regard (I've seen theories that it may be more about Ivan than it appears but I really haven't made up my mind on whether I agree or disagree), but what I do personally think is that Till's portion of "Cure" in R6 genuinely makes significantly more sense to me, lyrically, if it is -- at least partly -- about Ivan (consciously or subconsciously), than if it is 100% about Mizi and only Mizi from start to end, even though the MV only shows him thinking about Mizi as he sings the part.
let me explain:
Allow me, to the tips of your fingers Allow me, to the ends of your feet Dissolve me in your gaze I don't want to let you go Please, leave me scars Please, hurt me so that Not a single drop of me remains Let me drown in you
... idk, I feel like if this is indeed entirely about Mizi, Till must have made up a lot about their relationship in his mind by that point because it sounds kind of strange to me otherwise. Mainly because while they are sort of friends and have had friendly interactions, it seems that they are not especially close (based on Mizi's words about Till in the artbook), and what Till carries for her is a somewhat distant & idolizing crush sort of thing, which... isn't the sort of energy the lyrics gives?
Like. maybe this is just me, but I can view this portion two ways:
The singer is asking "you", the person being sang about, to hurt him, because he views "you" as someone who would indeed hurt them (e.g. maybe they have hurt him/harmed him/fought with him before; maybe they have a toxic or tumultuous relationship) and/or someone who is in a position where they have a reason/need to hurt him (e.g. going against each other on the Alien Stage); and/or,
The singer is asking "you", the person being sang about, to hurt him, because of his own self-loathing and depressive feelings -- but in this case this just. idk. to me at least, it sounds more like something you are more likely to sing about, like. someone you have been very close to at one point. e.g. a love interest or w/e, who has been in a romantic relationship or situationship or something in an ambiguous relationship with you -- or a closer friend, frenemy or someone like that, that you have complicated or untold feelings about. unless your idolized crush is someone you view as a person who would (hypothetically) hurt you, in which case it falls under 1... except Till's perception of Mizi just kinda doesn't feel that way to me
which. hmmm. idk because like Till's image of Mizi is someone kind, sweet, gentle, soft, comforting and angelic (even with the R5 stuff, we still see this in the way she's like in Till's eyes in Cure's MV), and she's an idol-like figure to him in that sense (and they are not... so 'close' that it feels like he would very naturally sing to her for her to hurt him out of self-flaggellation reasons), it has always been slightly jarring to me that he would sing about her like this, even back when I was sure he was singing about Mizi.
But if you interpret it as being about, or partly about, Ivan instead, then it feels more natural to me; they have a closer relationship, Ivan has hurt him/fought with him and stuff multiple times, and right now they are going against each other on the Alien Stage where the loser among them will be killed.
secondly:
Until these falling stars Are buried in the blur of time On your icy lips Read my soul Yes, my soul, oh, oh
If this is about Mizi: I guess it could be?? if "falling stars" are entirely metaphorical and/or refers to the rain actually... except, even in this case, I feel like it's very possible to interpret it as him subconsciously thinking of such a symbol / such imagery because of Ivan-related reasons.
If this is about Ivan: ...sorry what, "falling stars"? You mean like. a meteor shower?? Okay no yeah, that is literally a major memory he has with Ivan, not with Mizi. And this particular phrasing, "Until these falling stars / Are buried in the blur of time" does further suggest that this is very possibly about a memory that haunts him to this day. which. points to the meteor shower scene more than anything... yeah I honestly feel like this line ties back to Ivan no matter how I think about it.
in any case this is honestly just my opinion and I don't know if I'm right but. just a thought. I think Till might be singing a bit more about Ivan in "Cure" than it seems from a glance at the MV, even if he doesn't realize/acknowledge it himself
OKAY I TOLD MYSELF I WOULDNT ISAT POST TIL IM DONE BUT I NEED TO SHARE THIS
so @birbwithapen got me to start playing isat and I've been playing it the past few days on call with them. I've amassed about six hours so far and have given myself muscle Stiffness from sitting at my computer with horrific posture playing isat π₯° absolutely amazing game but anyways-
I was fighting the third floor of the castle boss. Forgot his name but the guy with six hands. HE FREEZED EVERYONE BUT MIRA. SIFF, ISA, AND ODILE WERE ALL FROZEN. AND THIS MF DOESNT ATTACK MIRA, HE JUST KEEPS FREEZING HER. HE FREEZED HER SIX TIMES IN A ROW. WHY DID THE RNG DO THAT IM SCARED ME AND BIRB ARE FLABBERGASTED
anyways play in stars and time if you've somehow stumbled upon this post without playing it
One of my stims is spinning and I stimmed so hard I fell down and sprained my ankle. Why am I like this π
vent post bc im tired and feel alone in this
TW; dysfunctional families, implied abuse kinda I'm not really being abused
I fucking hate being "perfect." Stupid, I know, I feel like I should be grateful.
Have you heard about golden child and scapegoat dynamics in dysfunctional households? Because me and my brother are living examples of that. I'm the golden child and I loathe it.
I have it so much better then my brother, I know. But being the golden child, I am my mother's trophy, and it's exhausting. I am a doll, not a person. A bragging right. An award. I have to always do what I'm told, be smart, achieve high things, always have to look pretty, have perfect manners, tons of impossible expectations, be the perfect little girl. Or she starts yelling. I hate it so much. I'm tired, I'm really tired. I stress myself out to be enough for her. I'm the definition of a burnt out gifted kid. Yet i feel like i'm supposed to be grateful because the one above made me smart and pretty. I can only be who I really am online, with my s/o, or with my friends. And I loathe it.
And I just feel alone. I see posts about how golden children will become the abuser and it scares me. I don't feel like anyone understands that both the golden child and the scapegoat suffer. I don't want to be my mother, I swore I'd be better. I don't want to be her. I don't know how to break this cycle.
Fuck.
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why can anxiety cause psychical symptoms. why is it allowed to do that. i don't like that. no
wicked posting twice within a few minutes. crazy
anyways we're painting a mural in my elective art class on lgbtq, poc, female, etc artists rn and the other week we were listening to the wicked soundtrack while painting (bc the teacher and 4 out of the 5 students are theatre kids) and popular came on and during that one part we all banged on something and screamed "RIGHT πΉ"
can y'all imagine a room of middle schoolers screaming that bc I can and I giggle every time I remember it.
anyways thought y'all might appreciate that.
hey so 21-92% of autistic people who menstruate also have pmdd, and I think more people need to know of that (coming from an autistic transguy who also has pmdd, and had no idea of this until their then undiagnosed pmdd drove them to a breaking point)
anyone else? ...just me? oh okay cool just checking
reblog if the first musical you listened to was not Hamilton
I lied. Put your clothes back on. We're gonna talk about how we don't hear about women in history. Think about it, think of an artist or an inventor. The first person that came to mind was most likely a man. Because we did not give women the same skills and education they needed to grow and thrive, and live up to their potential. And when they were geniuses anyway, their accomplishments were overshadowed by a man. Maria Anna Mozart? Γmilie du ChΓ’telet? We don't hear their names. There's many more we don't even know the identity of. Gifted people with wonderful talents, overshadowed, lost to history. All because they had the misfortune of being born a woman.
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