I Would Love To Try Art Again, But I Can't Stop Comparing Myself To Other Artists. I Know They Have Been

i am out of spoons today. im trying so hard to do the bare minimum and then the rest i can make up. its okay to take a day of rest. it's okay to take your time to do things. as long as they get finished in the end! just remember to take care of yourself.

Seasonal depression is trying to creep in. I am doing my best to push forward and keep going. I have to remind myself it's okay to take things at my own pace, even if it slows down for a few days. As long as I am not stopping.

Ah, to be a cat who has no responsibilities and only needs to find someone warm to be comfortable. My little moon cat who teaches me to slow down and relax... and sometimes go wild. Also that gaming is not as important as cat.

I keep having this weird dream.

No this isn't a Kingdom Hearts fanfic.

I dream about being in a house with other people, who I can't name or recognize, but apparently, I know them. The house is never the same layout, but there is always one room that's pitch black and where I say the "witch" lives.

No one can go in there or you'll provoke her. You have to keep away from the door or she'll start coming out of the room.

It's unsettling and there's always some reason I have to go near the room. The room is a basement next to the laundry room where I'm supposed to do laundry. The room is right across from a bedroom I need to go into. The room is halfway up some stairs I need to ascend to get where I'm going.

I wake up feeling tension in my chest and unease. I'm not sure what it is, but this thing has been haunting me for about two weeks now. I don't like it.

I have never seen Wicked and I've only absorbed what I know through social media and I am under the impression it's a high school drama about two girls dealing with their lesbian feelings for one another. Also they're witches.

Seek Peace, not Praise.

i cry a lot, but i am so productive

While I feel good at the start of my day, it always begins to slow down, and the weight of depression settles in. It's hard to motivate myself to do anything and even if I do get it done, I feel as though I haven't done enough and have to keep going. I have to do a lot to feel I accomplished anything and by then I'm overwhelmed mentally. It's not a good feeling.

So my husband talked me into playing LotRO and... wow. What a pretty game for it's age and it's so chill and relaxed. I rolled an Elf Loremaster and character creation was pretty fun. Kind of wish FFXIV had a few sliders...

Anyway, I think it'll be my slow down and just enjoy the vibe game. I mean, I'm only level 6 but... you know.

Guys new Cait Sith plush dropped!