Time Blindness - Blog Posts

thinking about c!dreams clock once again

Constantly throwing it away makes so much sense, beyond just as a way to see c!sam.

The constant ticking only serves to let him feel every second of his time imprisoned. To know exactly how many days he’s been locked away, that’s a torture all on it’s own. But so would ignorance. To be unsure of how much time has passed between each delivery of food rations. Are they coming further apart now? C!sam comes to give him a new clock and says its been only a day, but he’d been so sure a week had passed.

an effect of solitary confinement is paranoia. C!dream begins to suspect his clock has been tampered with. It speeds up, slows down. Surely it hasn’t been that long yet? And yet, surely its been longer?

he cares too much about this inanimate object. Anytime he realises that he couldn’t bare to have it taken from him, he destroys it himself.

Fog happens.

Have you ever been asked, "where do you see yourself in five years?" If you have, some of you might have a clear image of your life for the next 5-10 years, and some of us can barely see hours, days, or weeks ahead, let alone years. And of course, many people exist somewhere at various points on that spectrum of forward-thinking visibility. If you're one of those who have trouble seeing how you want your life to be or seeing ahead more than a few days or weeks, you are not alone.

I'm grateful to have surrounded myself with people who are forward thinking in hopes it will someday rub off on me, lol. For real, though, it's a struggle for me to plan ahead, see ahead, all of that. My ADHD doesn't help, and my ASD (testing phase) makes it more difficult for me to understand and utilize forward thinking without a little assistance. If you're in a similar boat, luckily we live in a time of technology where we have apps and ways to help us plan better than we would otherwise. So, if you haven't tried any of those, now's a great time! That's not a cure-all by any means. Even with planners and calendars, I can be future-blind and only able to see the hand in front of my face "when the fog is thick."

The point of this post is to tell you, it's ok if you don't know what your life will look like in several years. My logical-thinking brain says no one can truly know what the future holds. Make plans and goals and enjoy each day you are given. Whether you have your life mapped out to the T, or if you don't even know what you're doing for dinner this evening, it's ok!

Having ADHD is constantly checking the time so it doesn’t get naughty and pass 15 minutes while you tie your shoes

ADHD time blindness be like "oh, today is the 30th? that's fine, December is still next month, that's forever away!

...what do you mean tommorrow?"

having adhd is like "fuck, it's half past noon. that pretty much means it's one o'clock. that means it's lunchtime. that means it's pretty much three. that means it's almost five o'clock, and that means the day is pretty much over and i don't have time for any of the things i was going to do today :( time to scroll aimlessly through social media until bedtime"

graph of what being hungry is like with adhd