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james' reggie

Regulus Arcturus Black wasn't always Regulus. Just last term, he was Rosalia Orion Black. But he was always James' Reggie.

Tonight was just the same as all the other nights he's spent with James these past few months. He would excuse himself from dinner in The Great Hall to go meet his boyfriend who's just finished Quidditch practice.

Boyfriend.

He's never used that word before.

James was definitely Regulus' boyfriend, but he wasn't too sure that he was James'.

He's told everybody but James. He's tried showing him. James was the first person he showed his new haircut to. The first person he told about his new name was Sirius, but he told James not too long after that. But he never actually asked James if he's his boyfriend. Frankly he doesn't want to either.

"You'll have to tell him sooner or later!" Pandora had said earlier. She's the only person that knows about him and James.

"I choose later," Regulus said, "I'm sure he knows anyways."

He wasn't sure. But Dora doesn't have to know that, does she? James is James. Even if he knew, he wouldn't treat Regulus any differently anyways.

"Tell him... later tonight, then? I just don't want you getting hurt, Reg."

This, Regulus sure of. If there was one true friend in the world whom he can trust, it would be Pandora. He doesn't want to make her worry too much. "I'll try" Regulus had replied with a soft smile, hoping that that was enough. He hates lying to Dora, but James was waiting. And if anything was going to end that conversation, it was him agreeing with her.

Now Regulus was on top of the Astronomy Tower, using the telescope that was placed near the window to look at the constellations above the roof. It always reminded him of home, without too many painful memories.

He hadn't realized the footsteps that were slowly coming closer to him until he felt a peck on his forehead.

"Hey, beautiful," James grinned.

Merlin, this boy. Reg felt his knees go weak. This always seems to happen whenever James is around. He didn't say anything. He didn't even take his face off of the telescope. James would just know that he's listening.

James began talking about his day, while Regulus slowly stepped back from the telescope to look at his boyfriend's face. How his eyes are almost black with just a hint of brown when the sun hits it just right. How his summer freckles disappear during the winter. How his glasses are always crooked and his hair is always messy, no matter how much hair gel he puts on. How he's still sweating after Quidditch and still Regulus would kill to hug him, knowing that all he had to do was ask. After all, that's what boyfriends do right? They cuddle together, cry together, occasionally do it, and they love each other during it all, right?

Reg had thought of what Pandora said during dinner. Tonight. He hated the thought of interrupting this seemingly perfect night to say that. Still he knew that if he didn't tell him tonight, he'll never tell James. He had to do it now.

"You should've seen Sirius then. He was shaking in his boots knowing that the chocolate he ate was Moony's, he couldn't even-"

"Love, can I ask you a question?" Reg hasn't said a word before. He's interrupted James before, sure, but that was to laugh at one of his stupid jokes or kiss him to erase that stupid grin off his face, stupid.

"Yeah, sorry I've been talking too much, again, haven't I?" James had sunken in his seat, his hand reaching up to scratch the back of his hair.

"No, no! Not at all." Reg doesn't want James to think that. Honestly, he'd be glad if James just interrupted him and started to continue talking about his day. But it seems that Regulus has caught James' attention. "It's just that, you remember how I cut my hair short? And... and that I'm not Rosalia anymore, just Regulus. You've also probably noticed that Dora and the others don't refer to me by 'she' anymore."

Surely, James had noticed. Surely, he knew.

"Mhm, Regulus fits you so much better actually."

"Yeah, thanks, well, I was wondering if you knew that, you know." He can't say it. The words just won't come out. James tilted his head to one side. "What is it, jaanu?" He looks like a lost puppy.

"I'm a boy. Maybe I wasn't technically one before but I am now." There it is. What's James going to say? He's James, Regulus told himself. He'll do what James does best. He'll be there for you.

"Oh." Oh? What does that mean?

James straightened his back. He lowered his eyes and started fidgeting with his fingers, picking the skin off of his thumb.

Regulus knew this was going to happen. His worst nightmare is coming true. Just when he thought James was his, he just had to come and ruin it all. Why can't he just push the feelings down anyways?

"I mean, this doesn't have to change anything! You don't have to treat me differently just because I'm a boy now, James." He has to fix this somehow, but how? James won't just forget that Regulus is a boy now. What if he's straight? What if Regulus was the guy that made James Fleamont Potter realize that he's straight? Merlin. no. No.

After a good, long second, James' eyes met his again. "Really?"

He had hope. "Yes, really. We can still hang out and be friends and all that."

"Friends." James echoed.

Friends. "Yeah, we don't have to stop being friends just because I'm a boy." Were they really friends? James kissed Reg's forehead just 5 minutes ago. Do friends do that?

Their meet-up didn't last as long as the other ones that night. James had to leave early for detention with McGonagall for setting off dungbombs in the girls' bathroom. It was Regulus' idea. He told James about it a week ago when they were talking about the Marauders' next prank.

Will that stop now that James knows he's a boy? Hopefully not.

Regulus couldn't sleep that night. He tossed and turned in his bed, finding himself stuck on the way James behavior quickly changed the moment he realized Reg is a boy. He would tell Sirius about this, but Sirius doesn't even know about his relationship with James. Or what once was. In the end, Reg found himself back in the Astronomy Tower, charting stars that he found in the night sky.

A week later, he was on his way up to the tower after dinner. He went there every night, hoping James would be there waiting for him. He always hoped that he just came early and that James would soon join him, but he never did.

When Regulus reached the top of the stairs, he found himself staring at an empty room. Until James took the Invisibility Cloak off.

"Reggie." He'd missed the sound of his name on the boy's lips. He wants to keep a recording of it and hide it from the world, only to play it when no one else was listening. James wasn't his, but at least his name was. It's the only piece of James he's gotten to keep all this time.

His feet started walking almost instantly into James' embrace, luckily, his senses came back to him. He's not yours, he had to remind himself. "Why're you here, James?"

He could see that James was taken aback. He's never really referred to James as 'James'. But what was he expecting?

"Look, I know that you're upset by what I said last week. But let me explain." James had pulled his hands back, now twiddling with his fingers again. "Just give me 5 minutes. Please?"

How could Regulus say no?

"Okay" He took a seat across from James. He didn't want to sit next to him. He's too scared of his hand accidentally touching James' and whatnot.

James took a deep breath. "What I said last week, I didn't mean it. I was just a bit shocked when you told me you were a boy. I don't mean that in a bad way, I should've figured it out before, but you know me. Anyways, I don't wanna be friends. I wanna be whatever we were before last week. I wanna be your boyfriend again, Reggie. May I?"

Regulus wasn't expecting this. He was hoping that James would say this, but that seemed so far away and now it's here right in front of him. Reg was too shy to say it, he just took James' chin and pulled him in, letting their lips touch.

Some time later, Reg found himself laying down on James' lap. He stayed still while James ran his hands through his hair, occasionally making the tiniest braids. He wanted to stay like this forever. Just a moment frozen in time where he was perfectly happy to just exist. He could've been asleep. James probably thought he was.

It was silent for a while, until James broke the silence.

"I wish you were a girl."

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this was inspired by that one audio on tiktok from the movie 'as you are'. i plan on watching this movie this december, hopefully before the new years. as always, this is just a small thing that i've wanted to make for a while, but i've just found the motivation now. excuse the grammar mistakes, english isn't my first language. hope you enjoyed this one <3 oh, and i wanted to make james hindi, so i did a quick google search on terms of endearment in hindi and i found the word "jaanu" that was said to mean "my life" (source: language drops). if it's wrong please excuse it and just think of it as james trying to refer to regulus sweetly.

have a good day/evening/night, loves <3

“Lovesick james” this, “smitten james” that.

Give me feral regulus. I want a man that is so down bad he falls to his knees and starts complaining about how hot james was that day. I want regulus to literally be stumbling and swooning. I want regulus to be like when your 12 and following your crush around school like its an undercover mission Give my man some recognition for his animal side

Yearning Gay and Chaotic bisexual might just be my favourite trope

What is it with Slytherin’s and falling for the most obvious people ever?

EXACTLY, this is not reason why I’m kinda hesitant about Jegulus. I love them sm but this aspect of the ship really makes me question it

“Where the regulus black to my James potter” yall I kin James potter sm it’s painful but he is sm stronger than me. I’m so fr I would CRUMBLED if I was in love with someone and they acted like Reggie did (I love my boy sm tho) but like I couldn’t handle it. Like in the beginning when he acts like he hates James, I would cry myself to sleep. Y’all r stronger than me bc my low ass self esteem could NEVER (even tho Reggie is so worth it)

Walburga: you do not deserve my son.

James: you don’t deserve your son.

Walburga: excuse me.

James: you heard me.

As much as I love Jegulus.., I feel like James realistically wouldn’t be able to be in that state of “I really really love him” and Regulus only being in “I mean he’s alright, I like his company” stage.

James is a simp but he also has standards, he loves love but he also knows that sometimes love is better left alone (Effie helped he come to the conclusion).

“I don’t think I love him anymore.” James spoke, he sounded terrified.

~

“I’ve never loved anyone more than him.” Regulus spoke, he sounded terrified.

~

Sirius looked at James and sighed,”I feel like I should be scolding you but it’s your heart and he was lucky to have you.”

~

Evan looked at Regulus and sighed, “I feel like I should be scolding you but it’s your heart and he is lucky to have you.”

~

“I know”

~

“I know”

Don’t get me wrong I LOVE simp Gryffindor x nonchalant Slytherin, but.

But, like, it’s kinda overdone, and I think it would add more complexity and depth into ships (aswell as tension) if we did;

simp (who’s never been a simp before) Slytherin X nonchalant and oblivious (who’s never been loved back)) Gryffindor

Regulus “I can’t love you, anymore” Black.

James “I can’t love you any more” Potter.

James and Regulus were too busy trying to act not inlove, to realise they were.

Remus and Sirius were too busy being inlove, to realise they were.

Regulus: does she make you laugh?

James: she doesn’t make me cry.

My opinions on Marauders era ship names (my opinions no hate)

— Wolfstar - 7.5/10, I really like it it’s like a wolf howling to the moon but expect to a star, which is strange but beautiful. I’ve heard it sm it’s kinda normal for me idk, it doesn’t strike me that much. ~ Moonstar - 8.5/10, I love this also, I prefer this one tho. This one feels right and just seems more like engaging ig?

— Jily - 8/10, very cute name. Jily is the og name and I love it but.. ~ Flowerpot - 9.5/10 i love this name SM better, it sounds more iconic and rare idk, Flowerpot does different stuff to me. Gives me more love and home-y vides which fit them sm

— Pandalily - 9/10, it’s reminds me of a sunny day with rain: the perfect mix of warm and cooling down. It’s so cute ‘panda’ and ‘lily’ is such a cute mix and I love it

— Marylily - 5.5/10, very cutey I love lesbians friends to lovers. It’s such a beautiful fun name and I think the ship dynamic changes my opinion but I still love it

— Marlily - 6.5/10, sound smooth, I get kinda confuse this with Marylily cause they look similar but they’re still both very cute, I still like this name.

— Dorlene - 5/10, love this ship sm but this name is so weird, it doesn’t spell, sound or look nice. Just gives me weird vibes idk. The ship >>> the name

— Jegulus - 3/10, sick ship, the most known name even though I very much dislike the name. This name doesn’t sound or look that nice, it’s just weird to me but.. ~ Sunseeker/Starchaser - 8/10, much better, more iconic, more unique, more interesting. I like this sm better. It’s also real cause James be down bad for his lovers and is definitely chasing them. I think I like Sunseeker better tho, like Regulus seeking out James and making him fall inlove with him, makes me feels thing

— Rosekiller - 8.5/10, very luck fits their vides it’s just so perfect and I love it. I think it is kinda basic because it’s been around so long, but I don’t think anything else can fit their relationship so well into a name

— Bartylus - 2/10, I don’t really like this shop but the name just makes it worse, it’s just sounds dirty and messy and idk how to describe it idk ~ Starkiller - 8/10, that’s such a better name and is savage asf. I don’t really like this ship but this name is amazing, I don’t why but this name reminds me of flames for no reason and I think it’s real fitting

— Sunkiller - 6/10, sick name, sounds like something that would be a bad guy name like deadpool or smth. Like damnn, this ship is growing my and I think this name is helping. It’s a sick name and it kinda fits their vides, Barty’s part of his ship names being ‘killer’ always fits, and this is another one that shows it so well

~ Darksun - 5.5/10, savage, reminds me of an ellipse or like an apocalypse movie idk why but I ain’t complaining

— Moonwater - 8/10, I don’t like this ship cause I prefer them to be platonic but it sounds good. It’s such a great and smooth name and it’s calming and I just like it. Reminds me of the moon reflecting on water and it look so pretty and I like it

— Rosewater - 4.5/10, it sounds smooth and reminds me of rose petals in a bath with candles and stuff, but I don’t like the ship

— Rily - 0/10, so bad, sounds like that annoying boy that was in your class called Riley and ew ~ Moonlily - 3.5/10, sm better, reminds me of a waterlily and it’s so pretty. I don’t like them together but their friendship >>>

— Jeverus/Princechaser - 1/10, ew, that doesn’t look, sound or spell nice. It looks like it would be like green mold for no reason, I do like Princechaser a lot better than Jeverus tho, but.. ~ Stagposion - 8/10, like something that a person would drink and die from. Like a poisonous drink that you’d find in a bottle with the skull on it. Don’t like the ship, love the name

— Rames/Jamus — 0/10, also ew, I don’t like it at all. It doesn’t look appealing at all, it makes me feel gross. Just looks uncomfortable ~ Moonchaser - 9/10, 10x better, I love friends to best friends and lovers sm and they would be so cute together, I don’t really ship them tho. This name is very cute tho icl

— Jeter — 1/10, reminds me of that saying some white people say after something dramatic happens “jeepers!” Idk why but I think the J is throwing me off. It’s just a funky name ~ Prongsfoot - 5/10, much better, just give me a hella tall person with a tiny person for idk why. I don’t like this that much but it’s sm better

{idea from @jiangyanlissidepiece )

“Even when we fade eventually to nothing, You will always be my favorite form of loving” but its Regulus to James

Regulus with lyrics from “Heaven knows I’m miserable now” by The Smiths;



“I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour. But heaven knows I'm miserable now”Regulus when he was with James, and after

“I was looking for a job, and then I found a job. And heaven knows I'm miserable now” Regulus getting his jobs with mr no nose

“In my life, Why do I give valuable time to people who don't care if I live or die?” Being around the death eaters and the shady lord

“Two lovers entwined pass me by. And heaven knows I'm miserable now” Regulus when Jily got together

“I was looking for a job, and then I found a job. And heaven knows I'm miserable now” Regulus working with the death eaters and realising why they’re feared

“In my life, Oh, why do I give valuable time, to people who don't care if I live or die?” Regulus still caring about Sirius, even after Sirius cut all contact with him and their “family”

“What (s)he asked of me at the end of the day, Caligula would have blushed” James spoke to Regulus again, and Regulus was still in love with him

" “Oh, you've been in the house too long” she said, and I naturally fled” Pandora said she was worried about Regulus being in that house, the same time, which he was planning with the Horcruxes

“In my life, Why do I smile at people who I'd much rather kick in the eye?” Regulus to his “family”

“I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour. But heaven knows I'm miserable now” Regulus happy with his friends, and after knowing he was going to the cave

" “Oh, you've been in the house too long” she said. And I naturally fled” Regulus reciting what Pandora said to him months prior, and him finally leaving to go to the cave

“In my life, Oh, why do I give valuable time. To people who don't care if I live or die?”Regulus trying to trick himself into thinking no one cares about him, so he doesn’t feel so bad about leaving everyone

“Talking with my mother: She said, "Where'd you find this guy?" Said, "Some people fall in love, with the wrong people sometimes" But it’s James Potter talking with his mother about Regulus

“So, I don't blame you, if you want to bury me in your memory. I'm not the girl I ought to be, but maybe when you tell your friends, you can tell them what you saw in me. And not how I turned out to be” But it’s Regulus Black to James Potter.

Writing a new fanfic on ao3,

This feels cannon

Like Moonwater definitely adopted Percy at some point

Prongsfoot having the twins, Minerva would wait until the last second to send them their Hogwarts letters because she is not ready for the extra chaos they would be if they were raised by them.

I love the thought of Wolfbuck having Oliver like yes he was definitely raised by someone who is willing to fuel the level of insane obsession that he has for Quiditch and the amont of passion he has for the sport. But also someone who can give him everything else about his personality.

Wait, but what if Bill actually was a werewolf instead of just being scratched by one 🤔

Assigning golden trio and cursed child era characters marauders era ship parents based entirely on soul reading

Wolfstar: Ron and Bill Weasley (and Teddy obvs)

Jegulus: Albus Severus and James Sirius Potter

Bartylus: Victor Krum and Theodore Knott

Rosekiller: Pansy Parkinson

Moonwater: Colin Creevey and Percy and Charlie Weasley

Prongsfoot: Fred and George Weasley

Wolfbucks: Oliver Wood

Marylily: Hermione Granger and Ginny Weasley

Pandalily: Scorpious Malfoy (and Luna obvs)

Dorlene: Cho Chang and Blaise Zabini

Marylene: Cedric Diggory and Lavender Brown

Pybill: Neville Longbottom

Lockemouse: Seamus Finnegan

Im going to be rereading crimson rivers…. Thoughts and prayers would be helpful, thank you

Literally Regulus Black to James Potter

*Gryffindor party*

Peter: Never have I ever kissed one of the Black brothers

Remus : *takes a shot*

James :

James : *takes a shot*

Sirius : Prongs? Wdym? We've never kissed

Regulus:

Sirius, looking between James and Reg : You brotherfucke-

Regulus : manslaughter

James : mans laughter

lowkey me too, james

"youre hesitating, love" but its James to regulus as he walks down the aisle

"You attract what you fear"

AH a 100k+ word slowburn enemies to lovers jegulus fic with background rosekiller, wolfstar, dorlene, pandalily, emmary, and xenopeter TERRIFYING

Jegu "like the stars miss the morning sky" lus

Regulus' favorite type of flowers are dried ones

Regulus black and James potter

Nobody fucks with the quiet autistic x yapper autistic duo like I do