Small Rant - Blog Posts

I remember a time when I was in 8th grade, my mom had to bring me period medication and by the time she got there, I asked to be brought home because the cramps were too much. I could’ve stayed in school but nooooooo! “I’m sorry, we can’t give you medication for your cramps that are so painful you feel like you are going to throw up! I can give you an ice pack though.” BITCH DO YOU THINK AN ICE PACK IS GOING TO ACTUALLY HELP ME?!

To everyone who puts up fanfic only for it to not get a lot of likes.

IMAGINE THIS: You are sitting somewhere public, writing your story. Someone random walks up to you, asks to read what you are writing, they read it, then they say they like it.

Imagine that feeling every time you put a new chapter up, only for it to get 3 likes. JUST IMAGINE 3 RANDOM PEOPLE TELLING YOU THAT THEY LIKE YOUR STORY!

People have so much pressure to go viral, or to make something and for it to get MILLIONS of likes.

But most people don't get that. The majority of the population will never get that. And that's a cold hard fact.

But hang onto the feeling I mentioned earlier. Every time you get a new like, you brighten up someone's day with your writing. Your work was so amazing that someone took the time to read it, keep reading it, and tell you that they liked it.

My point is, (I know, this was very long lol) every like or comment counts, no matter how many or how little you get.

hhhhhhhhh

Aaaaaah!!! I have so much homework due on Wednesday. Most of it was assigned today so I got lots to do. AAaaaaaaaah!!!! I’m going to have to start it right now cuz like I’m wasting my time right now! Also I have some friend issues rn and I feel sad so like uh yeah hope I won’t be too gloomy by next week!

Reimu isn’t in smash. A sad day for me. ;(

Rant no. 2

I FUCKING LOVE ERASABLE PENS AAAAAAAAAAAAH😻‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

I know valentines day is over but can we stop with the "im single and quirky" thing every single year? it feels like a day for people to whine because they're single.

This is about the "Diavolo isn't a himbo" post @midnightsunnyday He feels to me like he has no consistency, everyone reads him differently -

(More than the other characters, yes including Lucifer, ppl who hate Lucifer are usually aware of his “softer” character traits but choose to dislike his core personality, like me lol-). He's hyper intelligent, but he's a big dumby, but he's ~sexily seductive~ but he's a baby/manchild that is wildly incapable of taking care of himself without his malewife of a butler, but he's so “thoughtful” and """sees everything""". Barbatos sees him like a god apparently but he's such a dumbass-. All of these are true and contradictory traits that Dia shows throughout the events and main story (Events more so). He's a walking paradox, sometimes its jarring how he switches it up, so consistently. Do we remember how smooth he acted in the VR capture the flag event? (The one where Mc is the flag) all his “my dear” and smooth talking it came out of nowhere, I was pleasantly surprised but the way no other character was like "hey wait wtf?" No, they just act as if he's always acted like that, at least while he was being a menace they reacted even slightly naturally, but when he's just out of character they're just like, "ya there he is"

My theory is, Diavolo is a strangely multifaceted character in an anime dating game with 11 other characters. These other characters require their own characterization, you can't choose routes, so all of them have to be featured in every event. Speaking of- the events are short and to make this character fit in with these (surprisingly) equally multifaceted characters they pick out one of his character traits and flanderized it to hell and back for one event and pick another the next. But anyways ya I love him, what do you guys think?

! Reblogs >>> Likes !

This is about the "Diavolo isn't a himbo" post @midnightsunnyday He feels to me like he has no consistency, everyone reads him differently -

(More than the other characters, yes including Lucifer, ppl who hate Lucifer are usually aware of his “softer” character traits but choose to dislike his core personality, like me lol-). He's hyper intelligent, but he's a big dumby, but he's ~sexily seductive~ but he's a baby/manchild that is wildly incapable of taking care of himself without his malewife of a butler, but he's so “thoughtful” and """sees everything""". Barbatos sees him like a god apparently but he's such a dumbass-. All of these are true and contradictory traits that Dia shows throughout the events and main story (Events more so). He's a walking paradox, sometimes its jarring how he switches it up, so consistently. Do we remember how smooth he acted in the VR capture the flag event? (The one where Mc is the flag) all his “my dear” and smooth talking it came out of nowhere, I was pleasantly surprised but the way no other character was like "hey wait wtf?" No, they just act as if he's always acted like that, at least while he was being a menace they reacted even slightly naturally, but when he's just out of character they're just like, "ya there he is"

My theory is, Diavolo is a strangely multifaceted character in an anime dating game with 11 other characters. These other characters require their own characterization, you can't choose routes, so all of them have to be featured in every event. Speaking of- the events are short and to make this character fit in with these (surprisingly) equally multifaceted characters they pick out one of his character traits and flanderized it to hell and back for one event and pick another the next. But anyways ya I love him, what do you guys think?

! Reblogs >>> Likes !

Sorry, random, but I just want to say I really hate when I click on a link and it turns out to be a google doc or a google file. Like, sometimes you can just view the google file without actually opening it in your drive, but oftentimes it just immediately redirects you to it opened in your drive. I don’t want the people on PDB to be able to see my personal email when I’m just trying to read about the subtypes of ennatype 3. Also when I’m on mobile I can’t pick and choose which account it opens up on when I click on the link so it just automatically opens it with whatever account I’m currently using on google. And, you know, that’s even more annoying when I have my work email up on google and not my personal one.

hello wuestion about shifting!

whats the method you found to work the most for you?

𝐈 𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐚 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫...

it wouldn't be right if I didn't (obvs lol), but unfortunately,,, none of them💀. I know, depressing, right?

but, in all seriousness, this isn't me saying that I've literally tried every single last method there is out there, but again, I like to be very transparent about these sorts of things,,,

they have all equally not worked lmfaooo😹💔.

I've tried/done a lot of methods over time (I've been shifting for about 4-5 years now, but haven't shifted yet), and none of them have done anything for me whatsoever. I mean, to this day, I haven't even gotten any of what people call "symptoms" - which, I personally think are just signs your body is falling asleep, not actually shifting💀✋🏽. I feel like shifting doesn't feel like anything, it kinda just,,, happens, yk? - so I can't really offer up anything that I would say is the "best" or what "works".

although (because again, I know this is kinda depressing and I don't want to, like, crush your hopes lmao), I feel like what's best for me is to try and stick to methods that revolve around sleeping, nighttime, no outside distractions or needs type of vibe. unfortunately, I live in an environment where there's a lot of negativity a lot of the time (mentally, emotionally, and physically) and I have no clear path or way out, it feels like, and my AuDHD does not at all help in the focus department💀🥲✋🏽 (I've never been able to mediate, lucid dream, none of that stuff, and I've accepted that), and the most I often experience is highly vivid dreams.

so, with that, I feel like my best attempts and my best interests lie in sleep methods, especially the ones where it's like "that point between awake and asleep" and "sleep paralysis",,, I slip into those states rather occasionally and have throughout my whole life, and I know how to trigger them, so rn, my intention has been set on mastering getting into and staying focused in those states so that I can then move onto shifting from those states, you know what I mean?

but hey, if anyone else has any advice for me or the asker here, (or any readings hehehe, I am currently practicing tarot myself, and I'm sure others are, too, so you're welcome to practice on me because I'd sure love some guidance right about now lmfao), definitely lay it on me, I'm open and happy to hear it.

and to you, my lovely person who dropped this question that I'm answering in my inbox, I apologize that I can't be of more assistance. I wish I had more of a straight-forward and profound answer, or that I could help you out in someway, but I'm pretty much in the same boat here when it comes to the whole "wtf should I do and wtf am I doing😭??" part of it all lol.

toodles, and take care to all /ᐠ^˕^マ~ !!

It’s been a month already… 😭 well another check up! How have you been? 😊

𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨...!! (tw: may be some touchy subjects/words in this for readers, so caution is advised. ig this doubles as a small rant/vent)

I'm gonna take this as an opportunity to fully apologize for my unexpected/unannounced hiatus. it's actually been a very rough set of months, and I really am trying to get past it. in short, I've lost some family, have been trying to set up a stable (and not mentally/emotionally draining💀✋🏽) environment for me to stay in and/or find a job, and possibly aim for a chance at getting back in school or learning to hone in on some skills that could up my advantages in getting myself ... unstuck, I guess you could say?

all in all,,, it's looking grim fr ngl💀.

but, it's not in my best interest to dwell on it. I can only take/deal with so much before I realize I need an escape or a recluse, and honestly, this account allows me to do that. with or without an audience, I continue to post/write because it's something I genuinely enjoy. I love being able to focus my attention on my special interests and while a lot of the times, my mental state or my outside struggles gets in the way of that, I still persist because without this one joy, this one thing no one can take from me,,, idk I might as well not be here lmao.

I don't mean to rant/vent any further, but for those asking (ty, lovely anon, for checking in♡), I'd thought I'd shed a little light on my situation, and I truly encourage everyone who sees this to be kind when give the opportunity.

you never know what someone else is going through, what's actually going through their heads, what they're contemplating, and what they're dealing with. if you can't do it because you just want to be a decent human being and want to make someone's day, at least do it because you don't want to be the cause of something tragic that's undoable :/.

with that being said, if you feel there's no one on this earth who doesn't love you, it must mean I've died because I love you. as long as I'm here, you will always have someone you can chat/vent/rant to, make friends with, and search for whatever support you need :). I am here for you, even as just one person♡.

~ lyssa💞

*ahem* anyways back to my fanfic author fangirl shifter autism adhd induced bullshit😻‼️... (which reminds me, I really am going to try to repost stuff more often and post other things than just writing, idk why I'm so bad at that💀).

I just read all your summary’s(?) for what/who you write for they’re all so funny I giggled at everyone 🤭

ALSO I have totes been thinking about requesting but I’m always so nervy requesting things but trust, in time I will send smth💀

𝐨𝐦𝐠, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐈'𝐦 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲🤭?

I'm being so serious when I say that's one of my fave compliments. so extra, entirely serious when I say I only live to clown🤡. so thank you, @1lellykins, for the compliment, I'm literally giggling as I type😻✨️.

and then also, thank you for taking the time to even read those lil notes/summaries, I only put them cuz they needed to be said💅🏽.

and one last thing, please don't be nervous to ask/request me literally anything !! this goes for anyone, but I will always have an answer, and I love-love-love reading y'all's ideas/prompts/requests. they make my day and get me inspired, and even if they might not get done right away (I'm trying, tho😔🙏🏽), trust, I'm reading them over n' over cuz they're so cool !

I encourage y'all not to be nervous, tho, I don't bite, and I love to hear thoughts/run my mouth with peeps lmaoo😭✨️.

𝐡𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐡𝐚😆 !! *𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐛𝐚𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞*

is this immature? (I don't care).

no, but thanks for everyone involved who made this achievement possible, all dirty jokes aside. I feel like I've hardly posted anything showcasing my actual skills/work worth even just ten followers, let alone almost seventy, but it's just nice knowing I alr have so many ppl willing to tune in and see what's to come and watch me grow. It's a really nice sentiment, so all I have to do is fulfill it :).

wish me luck😻🙏🏽 !

Take this little lady I made during lunch.

Had a The Great Gatsby party today. I was a bartender. No one really wanted a mint julep though, so it was an easy job.

(I want to work on Pantheon band au I swear. It's just school is keeping me from doing so. Wait for spring break for Pantheon band au stuff.)