Regulus X Remus - Blog Posts

Walburga: you are not good enough for my son.

Remus: you’re not good enough for your son.

Walburga: pardon.

Remus: you heard me.

I see that there are few drawings with them or am I looking badly?

Moonwater always pretending and denying that Barty isn't their third, like they don't dominate the hell out of him in bed every other night, like Barty doesn't sit between them in the great hall, like Barty isn't asleep between them while Regulus and Remus read late into the night, like half the time Barty isn't sat in Regulus' lap during their classes.

It's a soft, toxic relationship because they never deny Barty affection (have kissed him in front of multiple people) they just deny that they are in a relationship with him.

I don't make the rules, but Barty gets spitroasted by Evan and Regulus in their dorm using their cock as a silencing charm.

And later in a Moonwater scenario, Evan gives them permission for Remus and Regulus to spitroast Barty while he watches.

And also Evan and Barty having sex in Evan’s bed with Regulus and Remus having sex in Regulus' bed, both of them leaving the curtains open for the other to watch.

Moonwater + Sirius

I don't know, but when Walburga finds out that Regulus is queer she's livid, but doesn't disown him thinking she can get him to settle with a nice pureblood girl and start working on some heirs.

When Walburga finds out that Regulus is dating a half blood, half breed, she's livid but doesn't disown Regulus because she brought the Black family heirs into this world and Merlin help her someone was going to continue it.

Already knowing that Sirius is a lost cause, she clings onto the fact that she's certain she can get Regulus away from the disgusting half blood. And makes anyone who will listen aware of just what she thought, all their pureist relatives agree readily with her.

Walburga hates Remus with a passion. She hasn't been this passionate about something in a long while. Walburga hasn't even met Remus, probably never will, but she hates him for the fact he is steering Regulus away from the goal at hand. A pure wizarding society.

She was going to kill Remus. If that's what it took to have her grip on Regulus once more, she would do it without a second thought. And she was going to do it too, almost had even, but then word got out that they were expecting child.

She was livid and, for the first time, unsure what to do to get her own way. She hated Remus but became a little bit more tolerant of him, though you'd never be able to tell because she still spoke the same ill of him, but that was a Black heir he was going to be producing, so she was conflicted.

It took Walburga a while but decided she couldn't have a person of Remus' status tainting the bloodline. So him and their now 4 children would have to go, Regulus could always rebuild his family with a pureblood woman.

Regulus was only the tiniest bit ashamed that the first spell that came from his lips when his bitch of a mother tried to attack his family, his beautiful babies, was the killing curse. But he doesn't regret it. He needed his family to be safe.

Remus wouldn't have been able to get his wand in time anyway, with a 4 year old and a 2 almost 3 year old tucked into his sides, a 2 year old in his lap and a new born in his arms while reading them all a story. He hadn't realised that Walburga was even there until Regulus had shouted, and she had dropped dead, too engrossed in their children.

Had a funeral on Tuesday had dance practice on Wednesday, which made me feel like shit since my dance partner was real vocal about not wanting to dance with me and had work Thursday and Friday. So big week.

But on a different note

I'm over 3000 words and 7 pages into a google doc of the first chapter of the 10 bllu children, and here is a tiny fluffy snippet of what I wrote tonight before I go to sleep.

‘How far along are you?’ Regulus questioned, tilting his head to look up at his lover, big grey eyes full of adoring love for his significant other. ‘Umm, three weeks but technically almost two months.’ That managed to get Regulus to pull himself away from his task of giving Remus’ belly as many kisses as possible, sitting up and giving Remus a strange confused look before speaking. ‘What do you mean by that?’

‘Well, I’m a werewolf, so my pregnancy is a little shorter than humans.’

‘How much shorter are we talking?’

‘Anywhere between 2 to 5 months.’

Regulus could have passed out there and then, his mind is instantly swarmed with all they would have to prepare in such little time. And three weeks had already been wasted on thinking that Remus had a bad stomach bug when in reality he had started carrying their little baby. And wow, wasn’t that a thought, they were going to have a baby, a real living breathing human being that was theirs. He couldn’t stop himself from just staring, mouth hanging open. The only way to describe what he was feeling was pure awe, already so insanely proud of Remus for even making it this far.

‘We’re having a baby darling.’ Regulus whispered into Remus’ curls, holding him close to his chest, bringing a hand down between them to rub at Remus’ baby bump. Remus himself had tears in his eyes again, wrapping his arms around his neck and snuggling close.

You can not tell me that the James look alike wasn't the shortest pregnancy out of them all. They were ready to be apart of the world yesterday. Definitely a premature baby even by Remus' wack pregnancy schedule like only a month and a half and caused Remus the most trouble out of any of them other than the Sirius look alike. He almost swore off getting pregnant again if it wasn't for the fact that he fell pregnant with the Peter look alike and it was the smoothest pregnancy he'd had.

Idk if this has been round tumblr yet, but how do we think Regulus would react to finding out about the "prank" that Sirius pulled on Remus in fifth year.

Already dating moonwater.

Remus is going to Regulus as soon as he can walk again, sobbing the hardest he ever has, inconsolable really. He has to get talked down from multiple panic attacks before he can even get a rough explanation out of what James had told him had happened, who at the time was shaking so badly from poorly concealed rage at Sirius.

But Sirius better count his days. If he isn't already disowned by now, he will be shortly because Regulus will stop at nothing to make his life a living hell until Remus and Sirius have made up on their own terms. He is beyond livid and manages to turn most of the school against Sirius when they don't even know what happened (like Harry's 4th year but worse)

To make up for the angst that @read-reblog-repeat just posted that broke my heart, here is some smut that will be in the 10 bllu children book because the first chapter isn't finished but I really want to give you guys a peek.

Warning smut from here on out with trans Remus (Don't want or like, don't read simple)

Words: 412

Moans full of pleasure filled the bedroom, getting higher in pitch and volume as Regulus reached down to rub Remus’ clit, continuing to thrust inside him as deep as he could go, his grip on Remus’ thighs the only reason he wasn't sliding up the bed.

Regulus couldn’t stop from groaning as Remus scratched his nails down his back, creating gorgeous pleasure pain to course through his body. Regulus bit and sucked at all the skin he could reach, paying extra attention to the spots that made Remus most vocal. He soon found himself getting closer and closer to his orgasm, groaning through harsh breaths he forced himself to pull out, so he wouldn’t cum inside. Immediately scooting down the bed, wrapping an arm around his thigh, to keep Remus in place, and starting to lick and suck at Remus’ clit, before he could whine about no stimulation, every now and then pushing his tongue inside, as he jacked himself off with his other hand.

Remus was crying with pleasure, his werewolf senses making everything all the more sensitive. He suddenly felt Regulus tense and felt more than heard the loud moan he let out as he found himself climaxing. Unintentionally edging Remus as he stopped to catch his bearings, leaving Remus to cry in frustration because of how close he had been. Regulus was quick to shush him by using his now free hand to enter two fingers, instantly finding and rubbing at his g spot. Remus was so close, so impossibly close, with Regulus sucking, licking and fingering him, but just as he was about to cum, he stopped all his movements again.

Remus was about to yell at Regulus that he wasn't in the mood for edging kind of sex today, when his ears and mind started to cooperate. The sound of tapping at the window drowned out their heavy panting. Remus looked over at the window and saw an owl, looking a little frazzled, holding a letter in its beak. ‘I swear to Merlin if you get up to get that letter and don't get me off right now. I will slap you.’ Remus gritted out, hating how desperate he was feeling, when the moment had clearly been ruined. ‘What if it’s important?’ Regulus questioned as he rubbed his hands up and down Remus’ thighs. ‘Since when has anyone, ever, sent us anything important?’ Remus panted, squirming as Regulus’ hands got extremely close to where he wanted them.

Ok, I'm writing the 10 Bllu children, and I need names and as many plot points and sub plot points and personality traits as you can gather. They don't even have to be for the kids can be how the characters will react.

The story is going through all the pregnancies

Baby 1#: Sirius look alike

Baby 2#: James look alike

Baby 3#: Peter look alike

Baby 4#: Barty look alike

Baby 5# & 6#: Lily look alikes

Baby 7#,8#,9# & 10#: Remus look alikes

Also, characters that will be appearing are Remus, Regulus, Lily, James, Sirius, Peter, Marlene, Mary, Dorcas, Barty, Evan, and Pandora with Minerva and Poppy.

Please leave them attached to this so I can find them or tag #the 10 bllu children

I'm genuinely thinking about making a 10k, multific on moonwater, and their 10 children look alikes. Going through all the pregnancies. And potentially, time during the kids' time at hogwarts. Is it something people would want. (Honestly, I might do it either way)

Thinking about how Regulus would be obsessed with eating a trans remus out. If he was aloud too, he would spend hours between his thighs, and he's pretty sure he'd just have to ask, and Remus would let him spend hours down their.

Shout out to @read-reblog-repeat and @indigostation for collectively putting me onto the moonwater brain rot. I'm loving it here, and I can't stop thinking about the huge ass family of 10 look alikes that's been created.

Ok but what if they did end up having more kids than the Weasley's, but it was purely on accident, but not at the same time.

Baby 1# Mini Sirius (the tall version)

Baby 2# Mini James 2.0 (the short version)

Baby 3# Mini Peter (the prettier version)

Baby 4# to everyone's horror looks a little too much like Barty and got Regulus' stubbornness and most of Remus' batshit and self destructive personality traits.

Baby 5# and 6# twin girls, and Remus apparently has quite a few generational traits that he wasn't aware he could pass down because they essentially are carbon copies of Lily in appearance, but 5# personality is Regulus and 6# is Remus personality wise.

Sirius is upset because both Lily and James got two mini versions of themselves, and he's only got one. Peter is happy with his one mini him and doesn't understand what Sirius is on about.

Regulus and Remus decided to have one more kid to tie up with the Weasley's and because both Regulus and James, along with Marlene and Sirius, insisted that they should create a family quidditch team.

Baby 7#, 8#, 9#, 10# quadruplets, Remus doesn't think he'd ever been more mad at Regulus for knocking him up than when he found out he was going to be having quadruplets. He honestly didn't think he could do it, though, and frankly, he was scared. Before his mum passed, he'd hear the story about how her own mum couldn't handle giving birth and passed along with the 4 babies.

They are identical, and they look like Remus with Regulus' grey eyes and lip shape, Poppy lucked out. The quadruplets also ended up in different houses and are constantly switching places. They spent too much of their childhood with James.

moonwater's bad karma results in them birthing prongsfoot lmao

#1 is fucking Sirius, but that was to be expected, the black brothers look like twins, Reg's looks and Remus' mischief, natural

#2 gets Remus' pretty curly brown hair, quickly develops Reg's love for quidditch, and it's not until they're walking in Diagon Alley and someone asks if they're babysitting harry that they realize POTTER CLONED HIMSELF AGAIN, IN THEIR OWN CHILD

Peter is forever sad that he doesn't get his own twin, keeps begging moonwater to try for another but they're too scared (actual reason he became a traitor)

The way I internally screamed at how much I loved this HC

Regulus would leave the most insane brusies and bites on Remus' waist, and he'd make sure they were in a spot where when the sweater did ride up, they were visible to all.

This would also make Remus really sensitive in this area, and he would have to force himself not to shudder and melt into a puddle every time Regulus grabbed and held his waist, another thing he was obsessed with doing.

Regulus seeing Remus' slutty waist, V line and light brown hair peaking above his pants while he tries to reach for something and his grandpa sweater lifts up and jerking off to memory for days until he can't take it anymore and pins Remus into a wall.

You can't give people these ideas like omg this actually killed me

big brown eyes, big brown eyes asking for permission near his crotch

Regulus Black you're so strong I would've made the Weasleys jealous of the amount of times Remus Lupin got BRED

We all know the trope of Remus being everyones gay awakening, so I propose the following:

Regulus and Sirius compete for his affection, and the competition is HARD.

They both approach it in their own ways.

Regulus with (book) shopping and calm dates in a tea shop, where they talk until the shop closes. If Remus looks at one single thing for too long, Regulus will buy it for him and ignore all protests. He spoils his little (tall) werewolf.

Sirius is more adventurous, showing Remus (mostly magical, sometimes just pretty) spots in the wild while making sure the hike isn't too exhausting or difficult, trying to coax Remus out of his shell when they go out to different public places ("I feel like everyone is staring at me." - "As they should, you are gorgeous and hot and if I didn't like this place so much, I would fuck you right here.")

But the tension between the brothers is rising, often hissing and spitting poison at each other.

And at one point Remus has enough, because he loves likes both of them too much.

"If you can't learn to share, none of you will have me."

It was a bit weird at first, but at the same time it helped the Blacks become close again, bonding over their love for Remus and finding back to the close bond they had as children.

They even agreed that Remus should marry Regulus, so if something should happen to the brothers he would be taken care of, as Sirius has almost nothing to his name and nobody would dare to mess with the husband of Lord Black.

It might be a weird constellation, but it works for them.

I love love LOVE “Call Me By Your Name” jegulus, dont get me wrong. Especially if you want to stay with how the movie/book ends, with Oliver/James leaving and getting married in the spring, but….. what about cmbyn moonwater au? I mean, it would be absolutely perfect! Academic rivals to lovers, with Regulus getting jealous that his father is never giving him attention and only focusing on Remus, the attractive, mysterious mentee his father is letting stay at their house. While Remus is annoyed because his mentors son is infuriatingly attractive and smart who plays the guitar and the piano. Could end either with cannon or happy ending, but i give you CMBYN Moonwater au!!!!

I NEED moonwater/ jegulily fic recommendations because i am going feral without them!!!

Remus and Regulus would celebrate the ides of march together and start handing out knives to everyone in Hogwarts until McGonagall made them stop. The week of detention was totally worth it.

No one knows where they got the knives, and they refuse to tell anyone, but the students always seem a little more scared of the two of them after that.

Harry or Ron (Harry's already a li'l shit in my AU.) // Hedwig or Pigwidgeon (She has this puppy quality towards her human, y'know?) // Gryffindor or Slytherin (What? They're the house most crapped on by Rowling and Harry, galdammit!) // Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw (I'm more of a Lisa than a Ned Flanders, thanks.) // Fred or George (I made them perverted shitheads who gets a taste of their own meds in the end in my AU, mmmkay?) // Death Eaters or Order of the the Phoenix (The 99.9% of these cults are dickheads, for Merlin's sake!) // James Potter or Severus Snape (He suffered more shit than Potter did, even after his death.) // Dumbledore or McGonagall (She makes more sense.) // Chaser or Seeker (What's the point of scoring 150 more points if your points are unredeemably lower than the other team's?) // Keeper or Beater (You don't have to cause other people injuries - a more ethical position.) // Bill or Charlie (He's all I ever wanna be so bad - except with dragons instead of cats.) // Hermione or Ginny (Smarts are more important than bravado and beauty in my personal opinion.) // Tonks or Fleur (Her tomboy looks and persona is So. Damn. Cool.) // Cho or Lavender (What can I say? Asian fellowship.) // Remadora or Wolfstar (I'm a Fujoshi, duh.)// Hinny or Romione (It's Cedrarry - Drarry plus Cedric - Blairon, Pansmione and Chinny - basically Cho & Ginny - for me. N-O-N-E. OF. THESE. SHIPS. FOR. ME, thank you vawy munchies.) // the books or the movies (Alec Hopkins looked so f***ing sweet, I based my Snape reincarnation OC on him.) // Bellatrix or Narcissa (Lesser of two evils, amirite?) // Sirius or Remus (I blacklisted them both in my AU due to their jerky qualities, so sorry.) // Draco or Dudley (At least Harry's dating him with their schoolyard idol.) // Hippogriff or Unicorn (They look more primal and animal-like.) // Crookshanks or Scabbers (I prefer Grumpy Cats over traitor rats.) // Nimbus or Firebolt (Enh, they're none of my thing.) // Dobby or Kreacher (Dobby's so much sweeter.) // the Black family or the Malfoy family (God, how I love filling the Blacks with nutjob nymphomaniacs with a signature nuttiness that ended up with two Black men, a werewolf and a peacock-ish man having an orgy with two Simpsonological dads and their OWN. DAMN. OFFSPRINGS**. Of course, Bellatrix Evans* and her whole family are excluded.) // Potions or DADA (It's the combo of my favourite things; cooking, biology and chemistry.) // Fluffy or Norbert (Personally, dogs are more pettable than dragons...even though I have a phobia of dogs with scary barks.) // Fang or Padfoot (Sorry, but due to the reason in Remus-involved ships as seen above, I'm more likely to poison Sirius in any form.) // Werewolf or Half giant (All the werewolves I've known are a-holes at some points in their lives; Hagrid, on the other hand has been nothing but a Ned Flanders for his whole wondrous life.) // Moody or Kingsley (It's Obama, but he's British and ethically repaired.) // Lockhart or Quirrell (Poor bald ude's just politically dumb - Lockhart has been a con man for all of his adult life.) // Dean or Seamus (He reminded me of a nutty professor.) // Neville or Luna (I wish there's a charm that make all the creatures she spotted real.) // Owl or Cat (No secrets - I've been a sucker for them since I was a kid.) // Percy or McLaggen (He's less of glorified Gary Stu - plus he unabashedly crash gender norms into dust!) // Umbridge or Voldemort (At least he has a shitty childhood, unlike that pink toad.)

*If you wanna know why Bella (or Rikzo as she prefers) has this last name, be patient. I'll post it later, I swear to my ancestors.

*I mean Tom, Harry, and Draco. None of the younger Potter kids or any other Black spawns are included in these cuddle piles.

Harry Potter this or that

going to start my own tag game that probably won't get any attention

Rules: Pretty straightforward but answer the following this or that's by changing one of the options to colourful text, then tag some others to do the same :)

Harry or Ron // Hedwig or Pigwidgeon // Gryffindor or Slytherin // Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw // Fred or George // Death Eaters or Order of the the Pheonix // James Potter or Severus Snape // Dumbledore or McGonagall // Chaser or Seeker // Keeper or Beater // Bill or Charlie // Hermione or Ginny // Tonks or Fleur // Cho or Lavender // Remadora or Wolfstar // Hinny or Romione // the books or the movies // Bellatrix or Narcissa // Sirius or Remus // Draco or Dudley // Hippogriff or Unicorn // Crookshanks or Scabbers // Nimbus or Firebolt // Dobby or Kreacher // the Black family or the Malfoy family // Potions or DADA // Fluffy or Norbert // Fang or Padfoot // Werewolf or Half giant // Moody or Kingsley // Lockhart or Quirrell // Dean or Seamus // Neville or Luna // Owl or Cat // Percy or McLaggen // Umbridge or Voldemort

Tagging: @acciorxses @nymphadorathebubba @jamespotterinskirts @siriusblackinskirts @remuslupininskirts @regulusblackinskirts @i-is-a-fangurl-weeb @couldibeanymorechaotic @kember-writes @cwossiants @marauders-lupin @depressed-barnes @ghost-spidey-deactivated-1013666 @toomanynotifications

strangers

regulus black and remus lupin engage in some polite banter

1976, 2:45 AM

astronomy tower

as the end of the school year started approaching, regulus black began noticing the many changes happening at hogwarts.

for starters, the days lasted much longer than he liked, the sky only starting to darken around 6:30 PM.

the air became very wet as well- not warm, but not cold either. the clouds seemed to trap the warmth of the sun, composing the constantly humid weather that graced the school grounds.

finally, the people that he surrounded himself with began getting restless. constantly giddy and overexcited for summer, every conversation turned into plans to hang out over the school holidays.

“reg! you should come visit me and my family paris!” said rosier, who was sitting comfortably on a dark green couch in the slytherin common room. his limbs were lazily dangling off the side as his head rested on the worn down cushions.

regulus looked up from his textbook, meeting evan’s excited gaze.

“i’ll have to ask my mother,”

“why are you reading a potions textbook? let alone one from last year?” dorcas asked, her dress shoes tapping on the hardwood floor as she enters the room. she wore a dark red blouse with long, flowing sleeves and denim pants that flared out by her ankles.

regulus looked her up and down, one brow raised higher than the other as he leaned back in his chair.

“and why are you dressed like that?” he retorted. dorcas smiled, moving her arms rhythmically as her sleeves flowed around her.

“pandora and i are going to see a band,” dorcas shrugged, sitting down next to evan. he tilted his head backwards to meet dorcas’s eyes.

“why wasn’t i invited?” evan pouted, sitting up defensively. dorcas rolled her eyes, crossing one leg over the other.

“girls only.” she replied bluntly, ruffling evan’s bleach blonde hair.

by 12:00 pm, all of regulus’s friends had gone off to attend to their lousy attempts at rebellion or recreation. barty crouch jr was fooling around with a quirky little hufflepuff, evan rosier was getting stoned with a strange selection of people- all different ages and houses, and dorcas had taken pandora to a bar to watch a fleetwood mac cover band.

regulus would’ve rather taken a stroll over to the whomping willow than join in on any of their little endeavours (especially barty’s, obviously), so he decided to spend the afternoon alone again.

regulus black had began spending his nights in the astronomy tower at the beginning of his third year. he barley had any real friends, nor did he make any effort to gain some. despite his lack of initiative to form relationships, it seemed like one had whimsically fallen into his hands.

little 14-year-old regulus was annoyed at first when his older brother’s friend began coming up to the astronomy tower to chainsmoke and read shitty classic novels. remus lupin had the type of quiet energy that demanded solitude. he didn’t tell regulus to ‘go away’ but he sure heard it.

after 2 more nights of remus disturbing his peace, regulus spoke up.

“are there no other places on campus you can loiter around in?”

those few words turned into a few hundred, which turned into a 2-hour long conversation about the ethics of hogwarts as an institution. the conversation turned into a discussion, which turned into yawning and parting ways for the night, only to continue the very next day at the same time and place.

after a few weeks, remus stopped coming. regulus wondered why, but they had never talked about anything personal with one another. regulus didn’t know if he wanted to talk about personal matters with someone seemingly so close to his brother.

a month later, remus returned. this time, regulus didn’t hesitate to ask why he was back. why he wasn’t running around with those clowns he called friends. and remus answered.

“do you ever feel like there’s a weird distance between you and everyone else? and like, you don’t actually want it to be there, but you keep on like… making that distance?” remus asked, his voice tired, but his words fast.

regulus paused. “yeah.”

regulus was now 15 years old. the people that called him a friend were out partying, sleeping around, enjoying themselves- and here he was. back up in the astronomy tower for the first time in months.

he was sitting in a quiet corner, smoking on a cigarette he had stolen from the pocket of evan’s discarded puffer jacket. he flipped through the pages of his old potions textbook as the sound of footsteps echoed from the staircase.

“why are you reading a potions textbook from third year?” asked a husky voice, seemingly coming from the other side of the room.

regulus looked up, only to find a taller version of the boy he once knew. he walked over slowly, a newly formed limp stunting his pace. he was somehow even skinnier and much more pale despite the warmth of the early summer sun.

“just revising.” regulus replied bluntly. remus sat down next to him, leaning against the wall sloppily.

a few moments of silence passed, before regulus decided to speak up.

“we haven’t talked since april.” he stated. his voice was cold, but somewhat inquisitive. remus nodded, offering an affirmative smile.

“i’ve had less trouble sleeping, i suppose,”

remus pulled out a small metal box from his pant pocket. the act of opening it released a soft stench of tobacco and weed. he took out two cigarettes, before closing the tin and setting it down next to him.

regulus put out his first cigarette, taking the one remus had just offered him. after lighting both with his wand, remus took a inhale.

“your brother is a dickhead.” remus stated, letting the smoke exit his lungs.

“yeah, no shit,”

“i’m serious. he’s a full cunt.”

regulus looked at remus, his eyes curious, but his mouth too stubborn to give into his desire to know more.

remus turned around to face regulus as he noticed the look of intrigue in the younger boy’s eyes.

“did i ever tell you what happened on my birthday?” remus asked. regulus shook his head, letting copious amounts of smoke exit his mouth as he debated his response.

“no, you didn’t.”

remus looked down, smiling softly to himself. it wasn’t a smile full of fondness, but a smile that seemed to lovingly scold his past actions and feelings.

“i’m gay.” he said, slowly bringing his head up to look at regulus again. he rested the left side of his body against the wall as he waited for regulus to say something.

regulus’s voice was monotone, as if he didn’t really care rather than mind. it was apathetic, yet understanding. “okay,” he started.

“what does that have to do with your 16th birthday?”

remus took one last hit of his cigarette before putting it out on the wall.

“your brother kissed me.” he said bluntly. regulus nodded, urging him to continue.

“i had a thing for him, i guess. still do. but after that kiss, it all went back to normal, except it didn’t?”

remus rolled his eyes. “he was still constantly fooling around with random girls, but at the end of the day, he would come back to me.”

regulus was confused to say the least.

“for months we’ve been fucking around, pretending like everything’s normal- but i can’t help but feel so fucking angry at him.” remus said, his voice mellow.

“he’s very easy to be angry at.” regulus let out a dry laugh, putting out his cigarette and stuffing the bud in the corner of the wall.

“sirius- my brother, i mean…” regulus corrected himself. refusing to say sirius or james’ names seemed to be a strange expression of respect to each other- a promise of secrecy.

“my brother has a nasty habit of ignoring people like that. we would play card games with each other after he took beatings from my mother. you know, to get our minds off it.” regulus explained, looking to the side of the room as he spoke.

“but as we grew up, he got much colder. i’ve talked to him maybe three times this year. he acts like he doesn’t know who i am.”

remus listened intently, nodding in understanding.

“it’s funny- at family gatherings we still stick together. joke about our cousins while we hide in his room. but as soon as we come back to school, he sees me as nothing. another black family member to watch out for.”

regulus scoffed quietly, turning back to remus.

“i wish he knew you the way i do” remus said casually, lighting up another cigarette. “this would be much easier for the both of you.”

‘i wish he knew you the way i do’

those words lingered in regulus’ mind for a while. did remus know him? of course he did- but he didn’t see him- not the way sirius once did. he didn’t experience regulus- he didn’t talk to him outside of the astronomy tower.

but nonetheless, they were much closer than either of them had liked.

remus paused.

“you know he still loves you, right?” remus asked, looking into his eyes, only to meet an unnerving stare. unwavering in its coldness; its refusal to blink.

“of course he loves me. he’s my brother. but i don’t like it’s the type of love most people are familiar with,” regulus said.

remus tilted his head to the side. “how so?” he asked.

“you know how you love someone because you have to? like, you have to love your parents, even if they’re terrible.”

remus shook his head. “don’t have ‘em” he laughed pitifully. regulus smiled- a rare occurrence. “okay, okay- like… your caregiver?” he asked.

only then did remus nod in understanding. he thought of the coordinator at his boys home. she was an arse, but he still would visit her in the hospital if she got hit by a bus.

“i don’t love my brother like that. i don’t love him because he’s my brother and i have to. but, i also don’t love him as a person? like how you love the red head and her two little friends.”

remus pursed his lips. “so you just love him? not out of obligation or fondness, just cause?” he asked.

“not ‘just cause’. it’s involuntary, yet careful.”

regulus looked at remus, trying to gouge a sense of understanding from the other boy. a sense of understanding in which he received.

“i know exactly what you mean.”

two weeks passed and hogwarts was now empty. remus was couch surfing around wales with a few drug addicts and university burnouts, sneaking into bars and reading in messy rooms while his friends light up in front of him. he didn’t care though, as long as he wasn’t in the boy’s home.

regulus was wasting away his summer at his family home. his spare time was spent in front of his bedroom mirror, practicing polite smiles and agreeable gestures for the endless amount of dinner parties he was forced to attend.

regulus would hear yelling from down the hall as he stared at the mirror, forcing eye contact with himself.

he imagined himself as the voice from the hall, proud and stubborn. and as he looked in the mirror, he saw it.

he saw her.

when his brother knocked on his door in the middle of the night he was half asleep. he got up slowly and carefully. but when regulus finally mustered up the courage to open the door, there was nobody there.

regulus wondered if remus would understand what it was like to live so carefully. he sure didn’t act like it- running a muck around the school and such. but he would know better than to get up for a ghost, wouldn’t he?

or at least, he hoped he would.

it wasn’t until around october of that year that regulus talked to remus again. when regulus came to the astronomy tower for the first time since that night before summer break, remus had changed.

remus now knew what it was like to be more than ignored by sirius. he had been destroyed by him.

a/n: LOL i got like 4 reposts and a comment on that moonwater post and i felt like i JUST HAD to write u guys sumn. i haven’t proofread it bc i can’t be bothered, but i’m sure it’s somewhat comprehensible lol.

anyways!! i really hope i did the characters justice!! i might do another 2 parts for their talk abt the prank and christmas 1976 and for their first few meetings in regulus’s third year ^_^

also sorry if the timeline is messed up, i’m on the beginning of my third re-read and the last time i finished it was in march lol

have a merry christmas !!!