Find your tribe in a Sea of Creativity
guys u can’t trust ANYONE anymore bro i swear🙏 cough cough k, h, e, m!!!!
“Just remember. None of us have any idea what we’re doing either. No one chooses to exist. You just do. You’re gonna be okay.”
— Halsey
"wanna do something gay to the rock like pee on it?"
―Sun Tzu, The Art of War
My favorite paragraph from my school English textbook, up on my wall ☘️
Wish them healing—after I'm done fucking them up.
“Never wish them pain. That’s not who you are. If they caused you pain they must have pain inside. Wish them healing.”
— Najwa Zebian
You get a piece! You get a piece! Everyone gets a piece of my heart.
Take your time. Take what was mine. See if it fits.
Looking to give away all of it. Not of any use to me anymore.
“Continue to share your heart with people even if it’s broken.”
— Amy Poehler
"Parents can only give good advice or put them on the right paths, but the final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands."
— Anne Frank
(One of the first and best books I ever read. Rip Anne Frank 💐)
The Curse of Creativity and the suffering of artists:
"There are tons of people who are just as good as me." - Seiji Amasawa, Whisper of the heart (1995)
Ghibli movies have always had a huge impact on me. Full of quiet sensibilities and easily understood complex concepts; Ghibli movies made my childhood and the person I am today. And despite the cuteness of Totoro, the innocence of Ponyo, the quirky weirdness of Howl's moving castle (the themes of that movie are so intricate too) or the message about hardwork and burnout in Kiki's delivery service, there is one movie that remains in my heart (no pun intended)
"Whisper of the Heart" has taught me so much about myself and the path I am headed. It is the most beautiful, soul-crushing movie I have ever watched not because it has wars and the death of loved ones but because it is relatable and grounded. I can see myself in Shizuko and Seiji, I understand their struggles and dreams. I smiled with them and I cried for them. I related to Shizuko's struggle to see her writing as anything good and Seiji's belief that despite his achievements he isn't anywhere near as good at his skills as some other people.
This movie made me think about the saying I so often hear "Don't suffer for your dreams". While I scoffed at it when an adult said that to me first, now that I am much older and hopefully wiser, the words struck me not as nagging but as a warning.
Suffering doesn't equal great art, some people think that only those who are depressed and mentally ill can make great art, which is completely false. (Although I don't blame those people as many great artists and writers were actually mentally ill, it's not the only thing that makes one a great artist!) You don't have to suffer to be a great artist, you just have to be creative and work hard, there's nothing more to that.
When I was in my most depressed state during the last two years of high school, I wasn't writing or working hard on my book. I was staring at the wall wishing I would disappear. Overcoming that depression led me to write better, work harder, chase my dreams with passion.
During the times where I am stuck in a chapter I can't get through and my brain goes blank, I think to myself if I am actually a good writer or I have been just treading the waters of talent that I don't have. When people call me talented, it makes me squirm, it takes away my hardwork and effort.
Being a creative person is not easy, it's not all sunshine and rainbows where you are constantly getting new ideas. Sometimes it makes my head hurt. Acting on your ideas is not easy. I can think all I want but when it comes to actually writing that idea, I freeze.
Being an artistic person makes you feel self conscious. If anyone will like what I do? Will someone criticize me? What if no one likes my work? What if they judge me? There's someone who is better than me, why should I even bother?
Creativity isn't just a blessing, it's also a curse. It's a double-edged sword.
You should try to achieve the best but not make it your end goal. Life is so much more than success, fame and material goods. I don't write for any of those things, I write for myself and the people I care for. Even if I don't end up publishing any of my novels, I would still write. Never stop dreaming and become monotonous, you don't have to make sure your hobbies earn you money, they should give you peace and happiness.
There are times when I spend too much time in front of my computer typing out another new story when I stop and think back at those words, I don't feel dispassionate, suffering won't make me happy, writing whatever I want would. So I type ahead for some more minutes and take a break. I indulge in the world that I create in my books and make characters that I love more deeply than human beings, but I don't want it to become my life. I would still do normal everyday things and talk to normal everyday people. Work-life balance is utter bullshit and too idealistic, but making sure your work doesn't consume your life is what matters.
Even if I do end up getting an ordinary job and not making my hobby a career, I would not be disappointed.
I am ready to live a life of rationality and pragmatism but I will never accept monotony.
"The world would be a better place without me, which is exactly why I will keep on living"
"If you had a friend who had no interest in writing, and they try to write and write better than you, a masterpiece. What would you do? If you had read and written and worked insanely hard and they are just so naturally talented that they are able to produce something so incredible. What would you do? Would you accept the difference between heaven and earth, a la prodigy and benchplayer? Would you retreat to the belief it is just luck or chance, that there are no masterpieces argument, or would deny it completely and ignore the difference and trudge onwards"
~YouTube, don't remember which video sorry. Quote is changed from orginal.
"Even when the world ends, even when the artist is the last person alive on earth, even when there is no one else to give their work a recognition, the artist will still be crafting art, because thats what we do"
~from YouTube
In a world full of Serena van der Woodsen's I wanted to be a Blair Waldorf, why? Because Blair Waldorf said THIS:
"I'm not a stop along the way, I am a destination"
"If you really want something, you don't stop for anyone or anything until you get it"
"Destiny is for losers. It's just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen"
"You can't make people love you, but you can make them fear you"
"I look forward to never seeing you again"
"Whoever said money doesn't buy happniess, didn't knew where to shop"
"Fashion is the most powerful art there is. It's movements, design and architecture all in one. It shows the world who we are and who we would like to be"
"People don't write sonnets about being compatible, or novels about shared life goals and stimulating conversation. The great lovers are the crazy ones"
"If you're going to be sad, might as well be sad in Paris"
"Things are never as bad as you think"
"You deserve someone who would move mountains for you if he had to.”
"I know what I want and I’m gonna get it.”
"There aren’t enough curse words in the world to satisfy me right now"
"I’m the best of the best. I’m Blair Waldorf"
See? I believe in a Blair Waldorf supremacy.
I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough can you see the stars. -Martin Luther King
this is really great kaya keep up the good work pookie
My teacher is gonna love this
Made by @sketchbook-gal-xe
Bonus image
exept when it rains and you get to the surface and get killed by people stepping in you
i truly,,,, should be a worm,,, warm in ground,,, safe