Find your tribe in a Sea of Creativity
Feitan: Doll and doll face. (for some reason I feel like he’d call his s/o ‘little flame’ and ‘my little sun’ in his native language. Darling if they’re someplace formal/undercover or more as a snide/sarcastic nickname to show whose in charge. Brat if they’re being a tease or he’s teasing them. I could also see him saying my pretty little play thing 🤣).
Chrollo: Mi amore, love, dear, darling, sweetheart, my queen/muse/heart/treasure/one and only (very formal and classic names. He might also just look at you and call you irreplaceable)
Phinks: Babe and sweet cheeks
Machi: Just uses your name. (Baby once in a blue moon in private).
Killua: cheeks and babe. (My little light and baby only in private or if one of you is hurt, sick or upset).
Feitan: Fei, Killer Queen, hot tamale, love, hunny bun, demon spawn, skull face (honestly I think he gets the worst nicknames given bc his s/o can get away with it). The most common ones they use are love, Fei and Killer Queen.
Chrollo: Lover boy, love and amore. (I feel like Chrollo has a personal hatred for the nickname Babe & Bae because of how casual it sounds. He likes very formal sounding ones but prefers just his name when around others).
Phinks: Babe (sometimes they teasingly call him Mr. Macho).
Machi: Pink cheeks, my little needle, babe (she hates being called baby, it makes her feel less dominant).
Killua: Sparky, sweets, love, babe, baby cakes, kitten, kit kat (if they’re older than Killua I can totally see them calling him hun/honey or baby). The most used ones are definitely Sparky, Kit Kat and Babe.
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Feitan: I think he could go any way. He’d enjoy an older partner due to life experience and a more realistic view on life. However I’m leaning to more of a younger partner because there’s something about the naivety and innocence that brings out his curiosity. How far can he push you? Does he want to break the way you think about the world or protect it? The way their vision isn’t tinted with how cruel the world is just crazy to him. He’ll definitely tease you but he is always thinking about your view and coming up with new things to get your opinion on. It’s intriguing to him.
Chrollo: roughly same age. He wants someone whose curious but not naive or necessarily very experienced in life. He’d rather go through life exploring and discovering new things and ideologies with you. Naivety while it might bring a softer spot in Feitan annoys Chrollo quite a bit. He’s the leader of the spiders. He needs you to be realistic (not cynical or overly naive) about the way the world works.
Killua: as a teen I think roughly the same age or a year or two older. If they’re younger he might end up seeing them more like his younger siblings then he feels like a creep. Once he hits his 20s I don’t think he’d care about age.
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Would Feitan Ever Leave The Troupe?
Overall I think no, but there are always exceptions aren’t there? I think there would be two he definitely would though.
1. If his partner got murdered or he had to murder them (more likely because of the latter). Depending on how it goes down he would stop altogether or go on a more reckless killing spree.
2. Something breaks him. This is what I think it would be (set a few years after the current arc)
Imagine Feitan has a little girl. Cute, quiet, innocent with big eyes. The perfect mix between his s/o and him. Every time he looks at her he feels undeserving to be her parent. He tries to avoid her at times because of the way she always seems to want him. Want his approval, to babble nonsense and talk about how to get away with murder (I mean common, it’s his daughter 😂). She looks at him like he’s her hero but he's a monster. He knows this. She knows what he is. Who he is. Yet that has never changed her opinion if anything making her more fascinated with him. (He’d probably think something along the lines of ‘Just like her mother, terrible taste in people’)
It would be a random mission. It's not supposed to be anything big. They just needed information. Phinks already has them in the room they think Feitan would prefer. He never knows who he has to torture on missions like this. However, when Feitan walked in he didn't expect this. A little girl his daughter's age, same mannerism, same bright eyes, similar appearance. Similar everything. It was as if she was copied and placed in his torture chambers. It was unnerving.
He tried. He truly did. It never bothered him before. Age, gender, power, etc. He hadn't cared before. He could do it all without a second hesitation. He could feel the frustration seeping in. The little girl was insightful, she told him she was dying and her father was a bad man who hurt people too. She smiled sweetly up at him reassuring him she didn’t hate him, that she understood why he had to do this. She always knew this would happen—it wasn’t a big deal.
At that moment Feitan could feel the crack. He recognized this in his daughter too. Her ability to smile through it all. Knowing who he was and that if anyone found out about their ties she would most likely be tortured and murdered in the worst ways. Yet her refusal to hate him, to still want to be around him, running up to him every time he went home asking what he brought her this time while begging him to play swords with her (‘little brat thinks she’s owed a good life ’). Too curious for her good and not afraid to ask him anything, to run to him for protection and safety. That he was home to not just his s/o but his child that couldn’t defend herself just yet but sure as hell had the spitfire to get there.
The way the little girl told him exactly what he wanted to know on the promise he’d read her favorite book to his daughter. That he’d play her favorite game with her and let her die with “Mr. snuggles” ( an ugly little yellow bear) in her arms. Honestly, he’s not positive what broke. Maybe it was his heart. Maybe his inhumanity.
Either way, Feitan wasn’t the same. Maybe he messed up and let her go. Maybe he killed her. It honestly doesn’t matter. Feitan would never be the same. He would never find the same joy once held in torture and killing as he once did. Something just dissatisfied him and made him uninterested in it. He couldn’t put his finger on the exact emotion but he couldn’t do this anymore.
He saw his daughter in his chair, life in his hands and he broke. He flatly laughed, how ridiculous is this twist of fate. From having nothing to having something he never wanted to be taken away in the ways he’s taken so many.
He didn’t have the heart for it anymore, he knew he couldn’t do this job anymore. One little misstep would cause the others their lives and he wasn’t willing to do a job he knew he wasn’t suited for. It was always a tell. One misstep would lead to another one and another, skills slipping, mistakes left and right, tracks left undone, a mess that would only lead to death (the troupe, his s/o, his daughter, maybe all). He hated messy. He hated not doing something right. He hated that in less than a day his whole ideology had fallen apart. Yet that was the path he was forced to face.
Wordlessly he walked back to the spiders.
“Quite”. Was the only word he said dropping his knives in front of Chrollo.
Chrollo confused accepted his resignation without question. An understanding smile creeped on his lips. The others were pissed. Hurt. Confused. Yelling profanities and threats ensued. Spiders demanding an explanation they’d never get.
He turned around walking out. “Where will you go!” Phinks yelled, slamming a fist into the wall.
Stopping slightly Feitan looked back and for once the troupe could see a hint of a smile. A true genuine smile, “home.”
That was the last time they saw Feitan.
Feitan would never be the same but maybe, just maybe, he was ok with that.
Relationship Headcanons: Feitan
Hey!! Here’s a few things I thought of for Feitan regarding a relationship with his s/o! Sorry the headcanons are not in order! Also my spelling is not the best at 2am, I apologize in advance :) Who should I do next?
What he looks for/wants in a partner | Part 1
I don’t think Feitan would not want his partner to be in the troupe, mafia, hunter, etc. I think out of all the troupe members he’d want the most civilian like s/o. A true sliver of light in his dark world. Someone that only he knows about. It doesn’t mean she is a captive, they can live their own life, do their own thing, have their own friends, etc. He trusts them. They’re his home. Some things are just meant for him to know. So he’s not willingly sharing the information with anyone. Even Chrollo.
He’d probably prefer it if they were an ambivert. More talkative than him. He would want someone more bubbly, naive and a little shyer but not afraid to be blunt and honest. Someone who isn’t afraid to ask questions, talk about anything and everything. (example: if he was talking about torture methods he would ask her thoughts, methods, what ways they’d think is the most painful—very “what if x,y and s happened” or “what do you think would be the most gruesome way to draw out death”. Most of the time he’d try out their methods or critique their process/tell them if it would work or not and why.) He’d love it if they wanted to learn all about torture and how someone could break.
Would love someone who’d love mysteries.
Would love it if they were terrified of thrillers and horror so he can laugh at them all while making fun of them. He also secretly loves it when you cling to him.
Totally wants a touchy s/o. Not heavily pda with others around but when they’re alone it’s all on.
If in public he likes to hold your waist, hand or pinky’s.
He prefers cute over sexy.
Loves freckles. He’s not sure why but that added with a bit of innocence and blonde hair, he’s a goner.
Would secretly melt if his s/o could do puppy dog eyes. Wouldn’t change his mind but he’d think it was cute and funny tactic.
Totally tease and prank each other. Sometimes he goes to far or you do. No matter who messed up he will come to you when he’s ready to communicate.
Communication is hard at times. If you really make him mad he will tell you he had a call for a mission or needs some space and will leave for a while before he does something reckless that he’s gonna regret.
I don’t see his s/o being a true fighter. Feitan likes to be dominant to much for that. However, he would teach you basic self defense and would be willing to mess around with you sword fighting.
His s/o would definitely need to be submissive but not afraid to test the waters and be a bit bratty at times as well. ;)
He would never seriously fight you because he knows he most likely would go to far and kill you. He’d rather avoid his chances.
Would love it if you picked a date to celebrate his birthday. He’s never had one and it would be something special and you might even see a tear.
The best present he ever received from his s/o was a homemade cake. It doesn’t matter if it’s good or not, he has never had anyone show that kind of love and care before so it would be so meaningful to him.
He would like it if you learned his native language. He’d also like if you read to him in yours.
He normally only cuddles at night. Prefers to do it in the dark so you can’t see his face.
Would totally make blanket forts with you.
If he had to leave before you were awake he’d leave you coffee the way you like it, and a little silly note next to your nightstand and kiss your forehead before leaving.
Since he has insomnia he normally just likes watching you sleep and contemplating how he got to this point and if he truly deserves happiness. Also, he loves taking pics of you sleeping. Such a sweet sight, they’re all in a hidden folder on his phone. He often looks at pics of you (generally unflattering) when he’s by himself.
Doesn’t text you much when he’s gone but he generally does say morning and night when he can. Or sends you a photo of something from a different trip he went on.
He totally has an album of photos to send you whenever he has a “thinking of you” or a “I’m alive and should text something” kinda moment.
While he’s not totally happy (and probably never be) he is content with your life together and that’s a win.
Not super materialistic so whatever is his, money, jewelry, goods, etc is yours. He doesn’t expect you to share back though.
Would never hurt you intentionally.
He would never let his s/o watch him or listen to him torture someone. It’s one thing talking about it but when you actually witness it, even if you swear it won’t, Feitan knows it will change their opinion of him. He never wants them to see him as the true monster he is. Not totally. He thinks there’s a time and place where naivety and innocence is acceptable and that’s with his partner.
He wouldn’t punish or torture his partner. There’s just something so much more intimate about torture with his s/o. He doesn’t know or understand why but seeing them hurt isn’t something that pleases him as it usually does. He would want to use knives on his partner but only as a reward and would want them to see it that way as well.
He has his own set of personal knives dedicated only to you. He got you your own set as well to teach you how to properly cut. If his s/o was terrible he’d totally make fun of them.
He would eventually let you cut him as practice. He sees it as mastery in the process. A beautiful work of art because it was done by you.
His “I’m sorry” is never vocal. Normally it’s a hug with a kiss on the forehead and their favorite food or beverage.
I think his s/o would work in the art field. Either an artist, illustrator, writer, coder, or baker. These are jobs where Feitan doesn’t need a true knowledge of English/Japanese but instead can trust his sense of sight and emotions to guide the communication. In addition he sees torture as a form of art so he feels like you’d be able to understand the beauty of different artistry in a way most people couldn’t.
He’d love an inquisitive s/o but one who also knows the time and place. He would love one whose more empathetic and in tune with his emotions, someone who could read him since he’s not the best at communicating his needs.
Love language would probably be acts of service, touch and quality time.
He loves you blow drying and playing with his hair. Honestly he likes to be taken care of but it’s hard for him to show that type of vulnerability most of the time. So for now he’ll stick to his hair being fluffed.
Loves getting you any trinkets that he reminds him of you. Jewelry, a book, clothing, sweets, literally anything that he can carry back for you he would. A habit for every trip. He even brought you sand one time both because he thought it’d be funny and because it was the only thing at the destination.
He wouldn’t keep who he was a secret from his partner. He would be upfront and answer any questions they had. If they had gotten to this point he trusts them with his and his troupes life.
He would warn them areas to stay out of if he knew the troupe or mafia would be around to avoid her getting hurt.
I see him having an s/o that’s independent and dependent. Can do their own thing but loves being around him. A best friend kinda s/o. Probably an s/o with a few friends (2-3) that drops off the face of the earth for long periods of time when communicating with them.
Part of the reason he can never tell the troupe about his partner is because they’d be the one thing he couldn’t lose. Couldn’t kill. Even if she betrayed him he still could not bring himself to kill his s/o.
If his s/o died or was murdered. Feitan would never let another person in again. He would be colder, crueler, more disinterested. To be honest if he could he’d probably just disappear from everyone and everything even the troupe and become a hermit somewhere no one would ever find him.
Feitan would have a list of everything you have ever said you’d wanted to do before you’d die and he would do for you by himself. When he’d complete the list is the only time he let himself cry over you. Feeling only more alone, angrier and emptier than before. A true sense of loss. He thought it would make him feel better and near you. It didn’t.
Regardless if his s/o is dead or alive, He’d have a lock of your hair incased in a ring in the shape of a skull on a chain. Similar to a Victorian mourning jewelry.
You dying would be the only time in Feitan’s life that he would pray to any god willing to hear him. He would do anything to keep you with him and will barter his life or anything else to get there.
He would not let go of your body for days after your demise. He’d be silent. Letting his rage out unexpectedly and wildly. Not caring who dies in the crossfires or the damage done. He honestly doesn’t care if he dies too. However, he vows to keep living because that’s what you would’ve wanted so he refuses to end it all knowing you would be disappointed.
You’re the only person he’s ever even let his mind wander about having kids for just because he thinks your mini me would be the cutest. He’d also have fun teaching the ways of torture so be warned, haha!
He doesn’t understand his emotions a lot of times but he knows that there’s something about you that makes him intoxicated, softer, gentler, protective and loving. He’ll never understand if it’s actually love since he never had felt this before but he figures why stop a good thing that he’s curious to see where it goes.
Loves quirky and authentic.
Feitan and His S/O Headcanon 1: A Sweet Gesture
So normally couples do cute things like get matching tattoos. Feitan and his s/o wouldn’t do this but their own version. They would give eachother matching scars.
The location would be somewhere pretty hidden. The scar itself would be something small. Something you both like or agree on. Probably a little skull with a rose for an eye and a dagger through the head. Something that’s kinda twisted, dark but beautiful. It would be a mark that only their other would see and be reminded of their bond.
Feitan would be masterful and delicately cut on the back of his s/o’s shoulder. It would almost have a sketchy but soft and graceful look to it. He’ll take his time, it will be longer than most of his torture sessions for the troupe because he likes the way it feels to graze you, listen to you gasp and watch your body trying not to flinch from the sudden pressure of the blade breaking deeper into your skin. tbh, you’ll probably get a few extra marks around the scar as well. He figures this is both your punishment and pleasure for getting him riled enough to do this ;)
His S/O would cut into his inner thigh. It would be messy and jagged, not nearly as fine and delicate as his. Sometimes they’d cut to deeply, sometimes not deep enough. It won’t end up as beautiful as his scar to you and while he’d never tell you he loves it. He’ll try to memorize your face as you concentrate or look up at him with big eyes asking if you should continue or if you were doing this right. It would take a while due to your inexperience, there would be little talk except small commands on how you should fix your positioning or if you’re going to deep or not deep enough.
Feitan often traces it when he’s alone on troupe business or just away from you. He likes to remember how shaky you were, so nervous about making a wrong cut even when he guided them. He also remembers your smile at the end; proud, excited but also sheepish to see his reaction. He’d never tell you but he loved it. He loves you both have permanent marks of your love. Visible for both to see. It is one of his favorite memories of both of you. And a constant reminder of you when he can’t be with you.
Overall, Feitan might not be vocal about his love and bond for you but he shows it through his own unique ways.
Feitan and Technology Headcanon
So I keep seeing posts saying Feitan hates technology but I don’t think so. Remember this is the man that was really interested and wanted to steal Greed Island. He already did his research on how to be able to bring more people to the Island before anyone even asked. In addition, he wanted to be the first to play the game (granted he was probably excited to kill people but still).
So I think he actually really likes games. Especially multiplayer shooting/RPG games or horrific ones where he can go up against strong people from the comforts of his own space. He can torture those and show power over them in both the digital and physical world and I think he finds a certain type of appeal in this.
(Also could you imagine the cute game night dates he would have with his s/o? Like him sitting his s/o on his lap and playing whatever game they wanted bc they take turns picking out games they want to try. Really getting into competing against eachother to see who would win with the looser having to do something requested by the winner? It would be super cute! Tbh though you probably wouldn’t win but you sure as hell could try)
Chrollo: In all honesty, it depends. It depends on who you are, how long you’ve been together, if your a spider, etc. In most cases I will say no, he probably wouldn’t. He has to prioritize the Spider’s and his mission. Rest assured he will get revenge for you and probably shed a tear or two in the meantime.
Feitan: Without a doubt yes. He would much rather die than see anything, and I mean anything, happen to you. While he does put the Spider’s and the survival of the group first, that rule does not apply to you. The Spider’s, while he is ‘fond’ of certain members, are replaceable. Even him. However, you are the only irreplaceable person in his life. Hell hath no fury like an angry swordsman. The world will burn before he lets anything happen to you. And if by some chance something does happen to you, he will burn the world and then himself until he sees you again.
Songs That Make You Think of Chrollo: Mr. Perfectly Fine by Taylor Swift Sober by Selena Gomez Young God by Halsey Easy on Me by Adele Requiem by Mozart
Songs That Make Chrollo Think of You: Two Feet Love Is A Bitch (Slowed) by JK Beats Beethoven’s 5 Secrets by The Piano Guys Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Ray Lovely by Billie Eilish and Khalid Castle by Halsey
Songs That Make You Think of Feitan: Good For You by Selena Gomez feat A$AP Rocky My Oh My by Camila Cabello ft. DaBaby Queen of Disaster by LULLANAS I Fell in Love With The Devil by Avril Lavigne Arcade by Duncan Laurence All Your Exes by Julia Michaels Heaven by Julia Michaels Broken by Noelle Johnson Be Kind by Halsey
Songs That Make Feitan Think of You: S&M by Rihanna Sweet But Psycho by Ava Max Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Ray Without You by The Kid LAROI Monsters by All Time Low ft Blackbear Love is Madness by Thirty Seconds of Mars and Halsey Graveyard/Without You/Nightmare by Halsey