Doubt Doubt Of Envy - Blog Posts

Gulp

He want that cookie so effin bad

They are so dear to me im gonna FREAK

Guys. I need help. So can someone do the math on how much money i need to save to buy all servamp manga, the drama cds, art books- in general most of the pins+standee things

Like how much money would i need to buy like every official servamp item.

I need to start saving😣

MY BROTHER WHO HAS BEEN STUDYING JAPANESE FOR 2 YEARS AND HAS BEEN TRANSLATING BOOKS LITERALLY SAID THAT JEJE WAS TALKING ABOUT DATING TO MIKUNI

IM SCREAMING IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY

Um

You cant convince me otherwise that this isnt saying “Till death do us part”

They are MARRIED I SWEAR

Pastenaga im BEGGING you to come back

I miss your jekuni content plsss

Servamp last chapter spoilers kinda

I will pay someone 10 dollars on cash app if they can make me a jekuni fanfic related to the last chapter thats full of angst and fluff and preferably at minimum 700 words long. I need my babies. Im so delusional this chapter is 100% them being canon im (in)sane

I NEED A GUT WRENCHING ANGST FIC 😭 hurt comfort please chat hmu im begging you if you can make me it

Since servamps ending is pretty much here i would like to make a post about it.

(This will have the slightest bit of venting😣)

I got into servamp 2 years and about 4-6 months ago and since then my life has gotten better throughout. There has been bad times but in general everything was better. I met so many new friends and one who i talk to every single day. I grew an extreme hyperfixation to servamp and couldn’t stop talking and thinking about it(still cant) i found servamp through a youtube short with some random background and a twitter post with a clip of the start of the first episode, i opened the comments to find the title and immediately went to watch it. I got obsessed immediately. When i got into it my first favourite ship was Lawlicht, i was obsessed with them. It took me a few months to finally read the manga but when i did my website only went up to 119 but that didnt stop me from anything. I sadly dont know exactly when my love for jekuni started but i know i was a fan late august early September 2022.

God, jekuni and i have gone so far. Just recently i found out what they are to me. They are my fathers /srs

They are my coping mechanism, my doctor said i have D.I.D, a very mild D.I.D but D.I.D, its where my mind uses fictional characters i have a hyperfixation on and use them as a coping mechanism. In my case, Jekuni is my Dad’s, They have their own minds in my own mind and can talk and comfort me whenever. I owe them my life. But it has a downside of being characters that arent too popular. It also has a downside of me wanting to gatekeep them and wanting everyone to know that i’m their number one fan. But.. i love them.

I owe my life to servamp in general. This series is so good and i’m so glad it was made, as a mikuni and jeje obsessed fan a lot of chapters hurt me. But its my top favourite series ever. Thank you to Tanaka for this stunning series and I hope when i become an adult with money to travel this series will still be popular.

Thank you

Who hurt me(tanaka)

Small(its not small um) depressing “fic” to go with this

(Ps mikuni being dead is just for this cause i’m pretty sure misono saved mikuni, also um his room being there is like a theory of the um antique shop being his side house, and jeje being alive is also a um.. ): anywayd its me the fiv will have the ittiest bit of jekuni <3)

The phone rings, a painful and eternal sound that harms Misono. He sobs quietly in the room of his deceased brother. It’s been 10 years since that fateful day. 10 years since Mikuni accepted everything. A dark figure stands in front of him, the serv- .. past servamp of his brother. “Jeje..” a painful feeling of deja vu washed over him, deja vu from 19 years ago when he formed his contract. Doubt Doubt looks away for a second. The words sounding like a past life in the form of a hum. He sits down next to Misono and closes his eyes. “This room…” Doubt Doubt starts- “Brings me back…. To a past that is very dear to me.” Misono looks up to the man. “Memories of him. That stupid… but charming man.” He looks down “When i’m in here… i can see him again. As if.. he hasn’t left.” “I come here often. Just to be in peace again.” .. tears. Very subtle tears fall down the man’s face. Emotion he’s hid from everyone. “Jeje..” The young man moves to the servamp’s side and leans on him. “You…” The man speaks. “You’re still a young boy to me Misono. A child who grew up to fast. You didn’t deserve…. Any of this pain.” Misono looks to the side. “Mikuni.. did he ever say anything.. about me?” … “He’s always wanted to protect you. He would say that he wanted to be the best big brother, some you’d look up to. But to him, that life wouldn’t be the correct way.” .. “.. Can… can you just tell me memories you have about him. I don’t want to leave just yet.” Doubt Doubt looks down again before he speaks. “.. I suppose..”

I actually cried writing this fic

How i’m feeling about this recent servamp chpater

(Im actually on the ground sobbing still no words can explain how fucking upset im feeling rn chat)

Servamp phase coming back!!! 😿😿😿

(SPOILERS)

I need to show this cause im so proud of it