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Hello my loves! I am so sorry that it took so long to get this part out! School has been kicking my ass but I hope you enjoy it! Also if you haven't I would read Brutal, 1 Step Forward 3 Steps Back, and Enough For You, but without further ado here is part 4 to my Alex Summers Imagines series! <3
-VoidRanboo
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After I packed my bag and placed it in my car I went to tell Charles that I was leaving but Alex and Juilet were in there with him.
Well good for you, I guess you moved on really easily
“Hello Hadleigh! Feeling better?’’ Charles asked as I walked into his office.
“Yeah, that drive did help me a lot, so much in fact that I realized I can’t stay here anymore. I’ve already packed a bag and put it in my car. I was just coming back to tell you, Raven, and Erik.’’ I said, giving him a smile.
“Well you always have a home here.’’ He said giving me a hug.
“Thank you and I will always remember that, but it doesn’t exactly feel like home now.’’ I said, glancing at Alex and Juilet.
You found a new girl and it only took a couple weeks
“I know the feeling.’’ He said, giving my hand a squeeze.
“Well I am going to find Raven and Erik. Thank you for everything.’’
I walked out of his office, but I could hear another pair of footsteps.
“Hadleigh will you just slow down.’’ I heard Alex say.
You're doing great out there without me, baby
“I have nothing to say to you and you now hold no power over me. Nothing you say is going to make me stay.’’ I said, not even turning around.
He quickly grabbed my hand and pulled me into an empty classroom. I tried to leave, but he stood in front of the door.
“What happened to you?’’ He asked.
“Heartbreak. That’s what happened to me.’’ I snapped.
“Hadleigh, stop being like this.’’ He huffed out.
“Like what? All I did was realize that I need to stop feeling sorry for myself because it was getting me nowhere.’’ I said, rolling my eyes.
“This isn’t the Hadleigh I know.’’ He replied.
Well good for you, I guess you're getting everything you want
“That Hadleigh is long gone. She was gone the second you said you fell in love with someone else.’’ I harshly said. I then used my powers to push him out of the way and then made my way outside of the mansion where surprise, surprise Juilet was.
“Look Hadleigh I know what happened between you and Alex, but you need to back off. Look I love him and you are stunning and could take him back if you really wanted to and I can’t go through that heartbreak.’’ She said.
“Oh Honey? You think I care? You can have my sloppy seconds, I couldn’t care less.” I said with a sigh before pushing her out the way and going to my car. I didn’t bother looking back. I simply floored it and I was off.
Well good for you, I guess you moved on really easily
Welcome my loves to part 3 of my 11 part Alex Summer imagines series! If you haven't read parts 1 and 2 I will link them here but if for some reason the link isn't working they will be linked on my pinned post on my account!
I hope you enjoy xx
-VoidRanboo
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It had been a week since Alex and I had broken up and it went around the entire mansion and no one liked being in a room with Alex and I. I had stopped drinking after Charles talked to me about how bad I had gotten. I knew that it was getting bad, but without it I was a mess. I tried to look okay in front of everyone else, but even that was getting hard.
Today I knew that I had to help Alex teach a class since our powers worked well with each other. I had gotten out of bed and decided to actually look good for once. I put on my favorite pair of black skinny jeans and my favorite band shirt. I decided to not put on makeup though.
I wore make-up when we dated 'Cause I thought you'd like me more
I never really wore these kind of things when Alex and I dated, sure I knew he wouldn’t care, but I always tried to be someone I’m not and maybe that’s where everything went wrong. Before I knew it I had started crying and I just couldn’t stop.
Tried so hard to be everything that you like
After I had cried for a few more minutes I made my way to the bunker where we were teaching students with powers like Alex and I have. When I made it down there I saw that I had gotten there before Alex or the kids so I walked into the bunker and was just messing around with my powers until I heard a female laugh and she didn’t sound like a kid so I walked out of the bunker to see Alex and someone I had never met. I guess this is the new girl.
You found someone more exciting
“Oh hey Y/N.’’ Alex said, trying to give me a small smile.
“Hey.’’ I said, trying to smile as well.
“Hi, I’m Juliet.’’ She said, giving me a sickly sweet smile.
I knew that she knew who I was and I could play that game too. I would rather cry when people aren’t there.
“Hi.’’ I gave her a sarcastic smile back.
“Juliet has powers too that are a good mix of both of ours so I thought she could help us teach this class.” Alex explained.
“Well, if she has powers like mine why don’t I just leave you too it.’’ I somewhat snapped. I can’t believe he thought this was a good idea. I guess he really wanted to replace me in all ways.
And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong
I made it out of the bunker and walked right to Charles' office where I got a shocked and surprised look.
“He thought it would best if his girlfriend helped us teach the class and I wasn’t going to stick around for that.’’ I said before he could say something.
“It’s okay Y/N, you have the day off.’’ He said, giving me a smile.
“Thank you.’’ I said before walking out of his office.
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
I made it back to my room and grabbed my jacket and the keys to my car before I left the mansion. I didn’t exactly want to stay there right now and I thought it would be best to go on a drive and get all of the negative thoughts out of my mind.
But don't tell me you're sorry, boy feel sorry for yourself
After driving around for a few hours I realized that it’s not my fault that Alex couldn’t see how much I loved him. I wasn’t going to sabotage his relationship, but I wasn’t going to stick around to watch it. I pulled back into the mansion and walked right to my room and started packing my bags.
No, nothing's enough for you
Hello my loves! As promised here is part 2 to the 11 part imagine series I am doing for Alex Summers. If you haven't read part 1 yet I will link it on this post so you can pop over and read it and without further-ado let's get into this
I hope you enjoy xx
-VoidRanboo
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The next morning wasn’t that much better, I woke up, walked to the kitchen to get another drink, and then walked back to my room. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone today. I need to wallow in this heartbreak right now. I didn’t hear someone knock on my door, I only felt the presence of someone else and that’s when I turned around to see Alex standing there. I could see the hurt in his eyes and I scoffed at that, but before I could tell him to leave the alcohol started speaking for me.
“Why did you hurt me like this?’’ I slurred out.
“Y/N….” Alex said slowly.
“No, I want to know.’’ I asked, looking him in the eyes for the first time since we had our breakup….just the thought of it left a sour taste in my mouth.
You got me fucked up in the head, boy
“I never wanted to hurt you like this, but I couldn’t keep doing this to myself either.’’ Alex said.
Never doubted myself so much
“You were going to hurt me no matter what and I just want the pain to stop.’’ I said as my eyes started watering.
I hate that I gave you power over that kind of stuff
“I can’t take the pain away...I still want to be your friend and be in your life though.’’ He said.
“It’s always going to be one step forward and three steps back with you though. You want that, but I don’t want that. It will destroy me to see you love someone who isn’t me.’’ I sobbed.
Do you love me, want me, hate me, boy? I don't understand
“I..I don’t know what you want me to say.’’ He said looking down.
“I don’t know what I want you to say either. I wanted you to be in my life. What happened to all the times you said you wanted to marry me. I Ignored everyone who said this wouldn’t work, but I guess I should’ve listened to them.’’ I replied.
“I don’t know what I can do to help you.’’ He said walking closer to me, but I held my hand up to stop him.
“I don’t want your help and I think it would be best if you would just leave.’’ I said turning away from him. I couldn’t look into his eyes any longer.
No, it's back and forth, did I say something wrong?
Once I heard the door closed I took the glass that was in my hand and threw it against the wall in sadness or anger, I wasn’t sure.
It's back and forth, going over everything I said
I kept on going over everything and wondering what I could’ve done to change what happened. Did I love him too much? Did I not love him enough? Was I clingy? Was I too distant? What did I do wrong?
It's one step forward and three steps back
Hi before we start I wanted to let anyone who reads this know that this is going to be a 11 part imagine series. I took the songs off of Olivia Rodrigo's SOUR album, I put them in my own order and I wrote Alex Summers Imagines that all correlate with each other and each imagine is based off a song. The next one should be posted tomorrow xx
I hope you enjoy xx
-VoidRanboo
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“Hey Alex.’’ I said smiling while I walked into our shared room.
I had just gotten back from training with Charles. While I had a handle on my powers I tried to always make sure to train to strengthen them. I went to our closet and took a change of clothes since the ones I was wearing were covered in sweat.
“Y/N we need to talk.’’ Alex said sitting down on the bed
“About what?” I asked after I got changed, I sat down with him.
“Us.’’ He stated. I was starting to get nervous. Alex was never like this around me.
I want it to be like messy
“What about us?’’ I shakingly asked.
“I don’t feel that spark anymore….I think I am in love with someone else.’’ Alex said slowly.
I didn’t know what to say. My entire world has just fallen in front of my eyes. I tried my hardest to keep calm and to not cry but my emotions got the best of me.
“Are you fucking kidding me?’’ I choked out.
“I gave this relationship my everything Alex. We have been together for almost three years and you want to call it quits because you think you love someone else.’’ I exclaimed.
“I’m sorry Y/N, I really am, but-” Alex started but I cut him off.
“No, don’t say your sorry.’’ I snapped getting up and making my way to the door.
“Where are you going?’’ He asked.
“I don’t know and I don’t care. I just can’t be here right now.” I said without even turning around and before he could say anything else I walked out.
I had made it all the way outside and I didn’t know where my feet would take me, but I needed to clear my head. I gave Alex everything, I told him I loved when I didn’t even fully know what the word really meant, we moved into our own room because HE wanted to be closer to me. He said he loved me and that he wanted to marry me one day, but I guess that was all a lie. I know I was young and I was still getting the grasp of everything. I at least thought I had the grasp of love and what it meant, but if this is what love is supposed to feel like I don’t want to ever experience it ever again. I ignored the age gap, I ignored the people that said to be careful, I ignored everything because I believed myself to be that in love with Alex.
I’m so sick of 17, where’s my fucking teenage dream
I came upon an open field and I made my way to it and I sat down and just let out everything. I screamed until I couldn’t anymore, I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore, my powers were going haywire, but I didn’t care. My throat was raw and my face was red and puffy. I looked like a mess and anyone who was just looking at me would think that someone may have died, but it was just me going through my first heartbreak.
All I did was try my best. This the kinda thanks I get?
It was dark by the time I got back to the mansion and as soon as I walked through the door I was pulled into a hug by Raven. I didn’t have any reaction. I felt numb.
“Y/N, where have you been?’’ She rushed out.
“I had to clear my head.’’ I replied.
“What happened?’’ She asked as we were walking our way to Charles' office.
“I don’t even know.’’ I gloomily replied.
Once we made it to Charles office and walked in I saw Alex, Hank, Charles, and Erik.
‘’Y/N, are you okay? You just left without saying anything.’’ Hank asked.
“Yeah, like I told Raven, I had to clear my head.” I replied.
“Is everything okay?’’ Charles asked.
“I don’t know.’’ I snapped.
“You need to talk to us.’’ Erik said.
“I don’t feel like talking and I won’t tell you what’s going on because what’s going on with Alex, and it is our business even if I wish I was dreaming. Just leave me alone.” I exclaimed before walking out. I caught the way they all turned to Alex for an explanation, but I didn’t stay long enough to hear what he would say.
I wish I could disappear
I just needed to be numb. I made it to Alex and I’s room and I quickly gathered the things I would need and proceeded to go to my old room that thankfully hadn’t been taken by anyone. I closed and locked the door and fell onto my bed.
I waited until everyone went to bed and then I walked to the kitchen to get a drink. I didn’t want to feel anything and I knew that drinking could help me with that. I don’t remember how many drinks I had in me, but I couldn’t see straight anymore and I clumsily made my way back to my old room.
I quickly fell asleep thanks to the alcohol taking effect. I didn’t sleep well that night even with the drinks in my system. I just wish I could wake up from this nightmare.
God, it's brutal out here
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