Latest Posts by trueemotions91 - Page 4

Lost Balloons

(Pic is mine. Reproduce however you want)

when i look at the sky

i dont

see clouds

at least not as often as

i see feathers

from missing wings

i dont see myself

next to the stars

im in the middle

where lost balloons are found

i let one go once

it explored the sky

while i swore

it would come back

© @parasomnambulist December 15, 2020

A father ,

Is a important role

I promise you that

As a girl

I promise

I know .

To teach us right or wrong

Like our father

To teach us to be strong

Like our father

Now I’m not saying a mother is no less

But nor is a father

He is a huge impact upon

Your child’s mental state

And latter

You may not see eye to eye

But I promise you I don’t lie

To seek for love

When all was forgotten

A empty shadow

Of a man

That

I called dad

Was hidden

By a man in disguise

I craved for his love

I honestly did

But not for my good

Nor his

I realised years later

When all was gone

That all along

I just wanted my dad

To teach me how

A man was supposed to treat me

In a ideal world

I should of learnt all this from the man

I called my dad

@trueemotions91

Crossroads lay ahead

The paths are clear now:

Continue or change

Alcohol, antidepressants and rage

Sobriety, healthy lifestyle and peace

Exhausted from protecting myself

And pretending to be strong

A tree

Fantasises me

The way it stands so strong

It’s branches reaching out

Curling and twisting

In the cool summer wind

Grabbing the air as it passes

What is it reaching for ?

I often adore

The winter time

When it’s branches are bare

The sky

The air

behide each finger

It shadows off

To another ,

Is remarkable and beautiful

How something so plain & tall

Can be so outstanding

Yet missed by all.

@trueemotions91

A child

So innocent

So pure

Handed to me

From heavens door

This mind is empty

He warned me

So what you do

Is down to you

I looked at him

Ever so confused

Didn’t understand

Or even have a clue

Baby blue

Precious eyes

Looking so unfilled

Yet pure & beautiful

This tiny persons eyes

Looked so empty

Is this what he ment

When he said

Watch what I do

I watch each day

As she grows

And I can see

Her eyes becoming alive

Isn’t that mad

A empty shell I swear at first

But as she grew

So did the life, Within her eyes

Full of love , life & laughter

This little person

Is growing into my imagantion .

So I believed

But I swear she is real

She was giving to me

To raise , to fulfill

With all the love I could ever give

And she will be my long life gift

To this crazy world we belong in

I just pray I’ve made her strong

Coz this world is scary &

I’m scared they will break

My innocent child’s eyes

From the pure beauty

Built deep with inside.

@trueemotions91

He Called me ,

While in my darkest storm

To teach me

The power of my mind

To follow your heart

Is a fools journey.

As the heart bleeds for lust

Yet The mind survivors alone

It nourishes in silence

In screams in anger

But it forever heals and moves on

The memories remain

But the heart will always play games.

@trueemotions91

Wow , I needed to read this as I could never put this into words as perfect as this person but is spot on & worded so perfectly x

Am I responsible for the damage in me Am I responsible for the damage in you Am I responsible for all of the things I couldn’t see Am I responsible for all of the missed things …when you couldn’t be When you couldn’t be I couldn’t rise from my own I needed you Just like you needed me Doomed to everything in between Doomed by the things we couldn’t see Doomed by the things we let be

I hate, me.

- {GK VIV}

A empty book

When I was just 4

Full of pure white pages

But nothing more

Asked her what it was for

She smiled at me

As she stood by the door

This is your life

Was her simple words

A book put upon my floor

Ready for me to fill.

@trueemotions91

Crazy

Their named me

Because I like to listen to my thoughts

Talk to my self in a middle of the store

A imagantion I adore

Ain’t no one stopping my thoughts

Thought a pill could shut it down

But don’t realise they just make

It roar.

Cant never beat the score

the bars set to high

For any medical score

Iq higher then they imagantion

I shoot for the heart

Their will never understand .

Ain’t nothing crazy about me ,

I’m just a soul

With a mission

To listen to

What my head feels

Coz I know that’s real

And is my goal

To try and bring peace to my inner soul.

@trueemotions91

My mind is my haven

Yet I have no where to hide

Crazy thoughts

Constantly running in my mind

Wired feelings

I’ve never felt

Makes me giddy

Makes me wanna shout .

Feeling of something

Deep within me

Trying it’s best to reach out

With all my might

I struggle to keep it locked in

I’m fuckin petrified

If I declined

What would this thing do to my insides

It creeps in my throat

I promise you not

I feel it real tight

Makes me want to choke .

To keep it down

Is a strength I hold

Coz this fucker really wants to take hold

But I’m scared how my future will unfold .

@trueemotions91

“Be very, very careful what you put into your head, because you’ll never, ever get it out.”

— homas Cardinal Wolsey (via thoughtkick)

Love is so fucking hard ,

To give till you die ,

I think Their ment

Till your soul,

Is killed off

And nothing is left

But the clear blue sky .

@trueemotions91

Don’t lose yourself like me

Just sat staring at the tress

Admiring the beauty

Beyond your own little lies

Believing all you see .

Don’t let the pretty things in life

Fool you

Remember a face is a blessing in a disguise

And the fool will always turn out to be you

If you truly loose your soul .

@trueemotions91

emotions make me feel physically sick

Yet I fight that feeling everyday

Just because I’m used to feeling that way

It’s not normal

I know that now

It is my soul

Breaking inside

It’s only escape

Since I lock it deep

I’ve ignored every instinct

To fight what I know

Coz the truth be told

I just don’t care no more .

Bottled for far to long

It’s only aim is to remind me every day

What makes me feel vile

But I allready know

He will never complete my soul

Yet forever under his control .

@trueemotions91

Crazy world

Crazy life

My brain just ain’t right

All my life

Is a fight

For my right to be classed as normal.

What is normal

I hear them scream

Take one of these pills

And you run to the hills

The wind will give you the chills

The sun will over heat you

The trees will underestimate you

The ground will run with you

The birds follow me

With a tweet tweet,

And then all becomes a silly retreat.

Into my own

I hear them

But my brain ain’t ready for the final call

Because if being normal is you or me

I would rather pick to talk to that tree.

@trueemotions91

I hear you,

I can feel you

I can’t see you.

Sickness

Weakness

You make me do all these things.

Love

Hate

Twisted emotions

You control all these .

My movement

My touch

My taste

Are all crazy things

It scares me

To know your the most powerful thing.

@trueemotions91

She said

He said

Is a game of war .

The unbeatable,

Game of saw.

Against your self

Will do just harm

To play a game

With no possible outcome .

@trueemotions91

My mind is my master

A slave to all

The only thing

That is out of my control.

@trueemotions91

Love is a powerful word

Yet slightly absurd

To give someone your all

Yet not got the strength

To put what you have

Into yourself

Its extraordinary

How we work like that

Is that human error

Or just a self flaw.

@trueemotions91

Gosh your poetry is so nice and you express yourself so lyrically!

Thank you , I’m glad you enjoy 😁 x

14 months & counting ,

Crammed into 4 tiny walls,

No fresh air ,

For me to breathe ,

No one else to reach,

Covid they said,

Don’t catch a cold,

Keep your self to your self ,

14 months you know ,

Not even a glimpse of sun,

Or 2 minutes of fun,

My brains starting to go into over drive ,

With no end to the wave,

I’m losing my sanity & all hope,

That my soul will ever feel the same .

@trueemotions91

My mind is a jumble of words

Yet my heart sings the sweetest lullaby .

My eyes are as blue as the sky

Yet as cold as the ocean sea.

My lips are that of a angel

Yet it speaks from the devil.

My hands are strong

Yet lethal.

My brain whispers

Yet the voice inside roars.

The energy ignites me

Then all is a uproar .

@trueemotions91

Don’t put out the light out on me

I asked

Ever so silently .

He turned ever so slightly

With a grin upon upon his cheek

Blew the light

And I was gone within a blink .

@trueemotions91

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

— Maya Angelou

Anger is lethal,

As dangerous as a blade,

It only takes a second ,

To lose all self control,

A darkness covers your eyes,

To blind you from the rage,

Takes you away from the pain,

The day awakes ,

And reality is real,

Thats all it takes ,

Just one second ,

So own yourself ,

Don’t let the darkness take over,

Remember the sunlight ,

It never fades ,

Just fight the demon ,

Before it’s to late ,

Always sunshine the other side ,

Don’t let the darkness make your fate,

Half blinded by hate .

@trueemotions91

Damaged goods ,

I was once told,

Made my world ever so cold ,

Till one day,

I understood ,

And I was proud to be called,

My downs ,

My weakness’s ,

My failures ,

My emotions,

But

Because they

Made me strong

Made me independent

Made me rebuild

I become damage goods.

Nah I just learnt not to trust a fool no more .

@trueemotions91

She cries a million tears every year,

She rips up the earth,

She sends voltage through our grounds to help us recharge ,

She shines the brightest light in the sky,

She can whisper ,

She can roar ,

She heals,

She grows,

She loves ,

Who is she ?

And how come we don’t answer her calls.

@trueemotions91

I looked up to the midnight sky,

With bright lights ,

Illuminating my eyes,

I wished upon a thousand stars,

Have chased a million dreams,

,

I’m still chasing the same dream,

It clear when I stare,

My dream will always be a dream ,

As life ain’t fair,

I don’t dream of riches,

Just for my soul to be complete ,

Which I’ve now come to realise ,

I Could never compete,

Till my journey on earth is fully complete .

@trueemotions91

Love ,

or is it destruction ,

We crave for love ,

For that special touch,

Even if it means our souls get broke along the way,

But why do we allow someone to crush us,

For the sake of that hug,

Or tender touch ,

Is it love we are craving ,

Or the feeling of need ,

Like a baby seed,

Being nourished until it reaches full growth,

Is that growth ,

when we finally realise ,

We no longer need to be loved ,

Coz the only love we need,

Is self love,

To grow from the arms that wrapped us so tight,

Is it time for me to final breath,

Is it suffocation of our soul,

And we only crave because we lost the touch,

To Mother Earth.

@trueemotions91

I want you to close your eyes,

And draw me a image with your mind,

The sun ,

The Brightest Light On This Planet,

The Wind,

A Force No One Wants To Reckon With,

The Rain,

Gentle But So Fierce,

Lighting,

To Recharge Our Earths Soul,

The Flowers In The Background,

So Beautiful And Small,

Lost In The BackGround ,

Of A Crazy Storm.

@trueemotions91