There Are So Many Good Episodes Of The Magic Schoolbus But The One I Remember Most Vividly Is The One

Me: [about fictional characters]

rereading books is self care

“Those poor boys”

“She deserves to be punished too.”

“I’m not saying I support rape, but-”

“Sorry to say - she deserved it.”

“She put herself in harm’s way”

“But if she was fingered, then that’s not rape.”

“She ruined their lives.”

Just ADHD things

Huh?

Foot wiggle foot wiggle foot wiggle

Where did I put the- oh got it.

Clenching your jaw

There's 23 songs, 12 vines/tiktoks, a television line, and a dial-up noise all in my head at the same time

D I S S O C I A T E

Are you going somewhere?

What was I doing?

Ooop bad noise don't like that noise

Simultaneously recite Shakespeare and stare blankly at the wall

Stare blankly at the wall

COLLECT THE THINGS

I've repeated the same movement twelve times because it somehow brings me comfort

Blankets blankets blankets BlAnKeTs

I'm sorry, could you repeat that? I'm sorry could you repeat that? I'm sorry could you-

Nod and smile

Cry at the sight of a stack of papers

I don't see it, it no longer exists

I'm looking right at it, it somehow STILL doesn't exist

WATCHED IN 2021  ─  TO ALL THE BOYS: ALWAYS AND FOREVER (2021) dir. Michael Fimognari

My whole life, I’ve wanted the kind of love you see in the movies. Boombox over the head, hand in the back pocket of your jeans kind of love. Boy meets girl, they break up and make up, and they live happily ever after. But, in real life, that’s not where the story ends, it’s where it begins. Because life is beautiful, and messy, and never goes according to plan. And the truth is, I have no idea what it has in store for me. But, I do know that love, real love, is choosing each other through all of it, every single day. Beginning and middle and end.

Reputation Album Booklet Redesigned Part I; Her Reputation’s Never Been Worse 
…ready for it | end game | i did something bad | don’t blame me | delicate | look what you made me do | so it goes…
Part II; She’s Doing Better Than She Ever Was
gorgeous | getaway car | king of my heart | dancing with our hands tied | dress | this is why we can’t have nice things | call it what you want | new years day

adhd gothic

- your alarm rings but you are too tired. you set an alarm for five minutes later and go back to sleep. when you wake again, it is light outside and the alarm never went off. it was set for five hours later. you could have sworn you set it to five minutes later.

- your clothes are organized in piles on the bedroom floor. occasionally a shirt moves from one pile to another. you do not remember moving it.

- your desk at work is organized but not. “i have a system” you tell yourself. you are worried someone will discover the truth. you must not let others know you are struggling. your desk at work is organized but not.

- you did not take your meds. your brain is static. you did take your meds. your brain is accelerated static. last week your meds worked well. are they working well today? did you remember to take them? did you even refill your prescription last month?

- your assignment is due in november. it is september. your assignment is not due soon. it is end of october, but your assignment is not due until november. it is november 15th. where is your assignment? you go to bed, it is now november 27th. why do you turn in work late?

- you go to work to make money. you know you make money because you are told you do. your bank account doesn’t change much. you spend more because you are told you make money. you haven’t looked at your bank account for a few weeks now. it makes you anxious.

- there was something you were supposed to do. you didn’t do it, and you disappointed someone. you do not know who. it will come to you eventually, perhaps.

- you trip over a half-knit scarf. one of the needles is missing. you tried to learn knitting a year ago and forgot about the scarf. how long has this been on the floor? where is the other needle? you do not remember how to knit.

- you find yourself growing bored and unconsciousness slips into your periphery. you throw yourself into your work. if you are busy you will not sleep. if you are bored you will sleep. fight the sleep as long as you can. you cannot sleep at night.

- you do not eat and you eat too much. 

- your friends ask why you do not reply to their messages. it is overwhelming and you are so tired. you send too many messages at once and are filled with guilt. your friends keep texting you and you do not know why.

- your eyes blur when you read. you skim the words and do not retain. you skimmed this post and did not retain. you do not remember what the first bullet on this post was. you might not have read this last bullet, either. you will still tag the post as though you read it. you understand its essence, and that is okay.

Morrigan, shortened to Mor by her friends, is a member of Rhysand’s Inner Circle and the Third-in-Command of the Night Court. She is the court overseer and looks after the dynamics between the Court of Nightmares and the Court of Dreams, running both Velaris and the Hewn City.