I Don't Think Anyone Understands😪

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There’s a new boy, he’s really nice and smart and I don’t like him at all. I call him when I need to talk to someone but you’re the one I think about when I can’t sleep. And it’s your voice I hear in my head when I feel lost. I know you’re not good enough for me and I know you don’t deserve my time and I know you don’t think about me at all and I shouldn’t be thinking about you either. But I go out with him and I wonder what you’d be saying if you were sitting across from me instead. And I hate that I let you still have that power.

Worst feeling ever😦😭😭

For real.. but u know what? It made me free

Biko why???

“When you try rescuing someone and discover they can’t be reached, why would you ever throw that back in their face?”

— Jay Asher, Thirteen Reasons Why (via books-n-quotes)

The Garden of Eden😇

“I’m with you. No matter what else you have in your head I’m with you and I love you.”

— Ernest Hemingway, The Garden of Eden (via books-n-quotes)

Hey, unpopular opinion, apparently. But people don’t just “have pain for no reason” doctors say this all the time (especially to women and chronically ill people) and the truth is, Thats literally not possible. Even if your pains are psychosomatic (a word I hesitate to even use because of the way its used so often) there is a reason you are having those pains whether its mental illness, abuse, etc. If your doctor consistently tells you that “well some people just have pain for no reason” get a new doctor. That’s a doctor who is not going to give a shit what your actual symptoms or experiences are.

I almost stopped it😓

Look at me, hold on to me.

We started out as friends

We remained friends for a while

And then something else

Something extra, something happy.

The whispers started then

Knowing looks thrown out way

Disapproving frowns shot from behind books

The strain set in.

You didn't care

You decided that the whole world could wag their tongues

You weren't going to leave your dear friend because of their ideas

You said, "it's not true so what's the use"

I did care

Because, you see, what they said was true

I stopped seeing you as just a friend a while ago.

I'm forced to realize that I felt that magic alone

I told you how I felt

And how I hated feeling that way

And how I wanted to disappear from your life

You assured me that all will be well

And now, when we've grown apart

And I can no longer meet your eyes across the hall

I wish you would hold me, draw me to your side, stop me from slowly and surely disappearing

I wish you would say the words I long to hear

And during the long lonely nights

I have a lot of regrets

I shouldn't have expressed my feelings, I shouldn't have had feelings

I shouldn't have destroyed what relationship was there between us.

I swear😩

Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation. - D. Elton Trueblood