So True!!! Also Sort Them Into A Billion Million Folders On Your Phone Because Printing A Ton Does Cost

Long post time!

I once was on a medication that worked rather well for what I needed but unfortunately gave me unusual vivid dreams every night. For your amusement (and because this vent is long-awaited), I am compiling a list of the types of dreams I had and their ratings!:

Dreams where I drive: 4/10. Not the usual car crash dreams, which tbh are about a 6/10 because they're kind of terror-inducing in a rollercoaster way. These driving dreams, however, are normal driving stints, which means I often forget in my waking hours which memory of parking the car was the actual place I parked my car and which ones were dreams. >:(

Dreams with my significant other: 6.5/10. Easy to tell they're not real, yet still enjoyable, and usually involving other people s/o hasn't interacted with, so I get to see some new character interactions.

Dreams that are wholly focused on dream!me trying and failing to fall asleep: 2.5/10. Those suck. It kind of just makes my waking hours of falling asleep even worse, and leaves me pretty frustrated the next day.

Dreams where I am inexplicably in random, mundane places: 3.5/10. The problem with these is that they're fairly unsettling, and they stay with me a while, leading to some weird deja vu of "I've been here" when it was in fact a very clear dream I had weeks ago.

Dreams that splice in weird bits of trauma: 1/10. Shut up. This literally isn't relevant anymore and you have no reason to be bringing this up and dragging other innocent parties (random people in my dreams) into this.

Dreams that take a week or longer in a single night: 5/10. You get trapped in there and watch days pass, but usually if I'm having one of those dreams the location ain't bad. Brain has to sustain something for a week, after all. It very often gets overwhelming toward the end of the week, which might push it to a lower rating, but the locations generally being optimistic push it up a rating, so it balances out. The curse here is that I remember a week that never happened.

Dreams that are educational: 5.5/10. Pretty random, but not usually haunting, so that's a bonus. I could probably write an encyclopedia of absolute gibberish from the things I've learned from my dreams. They make sense, in a weird way, but some of the diagrams feel AI-generated? Even though it's in my head? And some of the concepts, too. Legit I have read textbook chapters in my head of knowledge that either I didn't know or isn't real, or both. (Usually the latter.)

Dreams that just tell me stuff that happened recently in real life: 4/10. There's almost always a negative tint and it's like, bro, why are you telling me this, I was there, I lived it this afternoon. And then my concept of what actually happened is messed up the following days, weeks, whatever.

I might come back to this and update it if I remember more types of dreams I've had. Or if I look in my notes app tbh. But anyway, having vivid dreams every night that haunt your waking life are not normal, so if you were wondering about yourself, you might want to check on that with a medical person, especially if it's impacting your memory or how rested you are each day. I had a long time being hesitant/resistant to call them "nightmares," because most of the time it wasn't scary monster or hopeless scenarios where I end up dying or worse, but the definition of nightmares isn't as rigid and black-and-white as we thought as kids. Bad dreams? Unsettling dreams? Dreams that bother you at all? Those are nightmares. It's not childish, and it is not something you need to live with.

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he was also Abu in all three Aladdin movies and probably every Aladdin spinoff series or video game to ever exist

posts that make you go "wait why was Abu in Hercules"

Well those are allllmost done

I know running away doesn't solve my problems, and I know I have to face it tomorrow but still. I see that message and I'm gone.

guy i vaguely know in class impromptu invited me to join the conga line of Feliz Navidad and like. as people we are quite different. as for worldviews, again, quite different. but in that moment, my rainbow ring standing out against his white shirt as I joined the line behind him, we were the same. just two people excited to sing Feliz Navidad and march around an auditorium with a bunch of Spanish speakers

Merry Christmas y'all. Feliz Navidad. We're all people in the end.

oh yeah what I meant by this! watched Interstellar with my brothers last night. two of them are science nerds! so well one has seen it and one hadn't before

so afterward I sat at a table with the one that hadn't priorly seen it and asked scale of 1 to 10 how realistic he felt it was. he got immediately hung up on the mathematics of the time as portrayed on screen, we jabbered about that for a while

... and second brother comes in. "Okay what you NEED to know," he says, and he's apparently talked this over with the fandom several times over, and he just takes off in this conversation and here I am sitting between two brothers who are going off about the science of well everything practically

inwardly I'm kinda making this face :D because I miss these sorts of arguments (and also I get to be a part of it)

and bro

okay yeah I could go into the whole wormholes and black hole/white hole and time shift and that sort of thing, it was a good conversation, but I'll save that for another time

and there was the whole me bringing up The Martian as more realistic and then us picking it apart too (tbh it's very good tho) but again not the point of tonight's tale

the point being

loved ones are so precious

loved ones are so precious when they're engaging in the thing they love

love languages can be arguing over science technicalities in science fiction and cinema

I love these people so much and I love that I get to be theirs.

bringing back the interstellar fandom one cranky science nerd at a time

ahhhh my brother just informed me that he's been converting our dad to his taste in music and apparently one of his favorite songs now is sail by AWOLNATION

Unrealistic

the introvert urge to say “no worries either way” when you’re actually worrying both ways plus a secret third way