Maybe I Should Kill Myself.

Studying

Today I decided to study for my driving license.

Turns out that it’s not different from studying for school and after 2 question I suddenly had a clean room, showered and even changed my bedsheets. What a surprise, right?

“Me too…I love you…”

im crying

First Time

This moment when you start having sex for the first time, but you are so afraid and scared and don’t know what to do and feel bad about the boy who is trying to loosen you up and calm you down.

And then you fall asleep and later be afraid of showing that you are awake in the middle of the night.

And then you suddenly realize you’re probably really gay and demisexual (like you have been questioning) and now you just want to run out of his house and disappear but cant because his parents are awake and he is a light sleeper and he is actually one of your best friends and you would feel bad about just running away but also feel guilty for leaving him with blue balls.

I hate myself rn for this so much. Where is my confidence gone? Ah yeah right it always has been a fake mask, I forgot.

Tú.

Honestly same, but sometimes its my own mind telling me how ungrateful I am.  And then i start questioning social structures.

Please tell me I’m not the only one who sees how absolutely fucked up the world and our lives are. Like, we spend our entire life studying or working our asses off and then we die. But every time I bring this up to someone, they make me feel like the most ungrateful and awful person in the world just for thinking it.

Cinnamon roll

Ray Toro: Looks like a cinnamon roll and is actually a cinnamon roll

Mikey Way: Looks like he could kill you but  could actually kill you

Frank Iero: Looks like he could kill you, is actually a cinnamon roll

Gerard Way: Sinnamon roll or cinnamon roll there is nothing between