Being Autistic As A Kid Without Knowing It Be Like: *taps Foot On The Floor* *gets Told To Stop Because

I really relate to the eating quickly thing. I don’t understand social meals. I eat fast and then eating time is over and it’s time to go. Humans make eating into a social event instead and spend long portions of time talking instead of accomplishing the task at hand as I see it. I think some other animals have social meals as well. I doubt it’s an exclusively human thing, but it’s not something my species does and so I find it very odd.

I also have to remember to chew my food since I forget I’m not supposed to swallow food whole.

I tend to forget to eat until food is actually in front of me at which point I must eat it all. Which I assume is due to me being an opportunistic feeder that doesn’t have to eat very often.

This might be one of my "weirder" rants but I think I came to a realization that the way I eat has been a pretty big sign my therianthropy.

Ever since I was little, adults in my life have been nagging me that I "eat improperly."

The biggest thing I got told off for (and still get told off for) is that I eat too fast, or a I take too big of bites when I eat. I never have understood why people thought this was such a big deal. I'm eating the way that is most comfortable for me and somehow that's the "wrong way."

I am eating like I should .

To me, this has been part of my disconnect from "the human experince." I don't eat like a human, I've always been eating like an animal; even without realizing it. Subconsciously eating as fast as I need so that my competitors don't take my food. Big bites, like a bear would. Sometimes even large portion sizes, like a bear would.

I would like to know other alterhuman's experience with food and/or eating habits. Does anyone else feel like they were eating a certain way or only eating a certain type of food and not realizing they were doing it?

(I don’t know if this is just me or if other neurodivergent people experience this but) growing up I was bullied/shamed for having any interests whatsoever so now I’ve just learned to internalize any impulses to infodump. like I really want to talk about all these really interesting things, but like even thinking about telling another person just feels so wrong? and dirty? I don’t really know if this makes sense, but it’s basically unstoppable force (the need to share my hyperfixations) vs immovable object (paralyzing anxiety)

shoutouts to fellow nonhumans whose nonhumanity orginates from or is caused by mental illness, delusions, or past/current trauma

we are as valid as any other nonhuman and i am proud of y'all for having the courage to share your experiences. it makes me feel a lot less alone to know that others feel the same as me.

keep being awesome and stay safe 🐾

- from an autistic and mentally ill coyote 🌵

(i apologize if this isn't worded right, very bad brain fog day but this has been on my mind so I wanted to say it)

being physically nonhuman explains why I don’t really experience mental shifts. I am always mentally me. My brain is not human, and so I never shift from a more human brain to a more nonhuman brain. I just am.

The appearance outwardly of my physical body is an illusion. I wish the fur, wings, fangs and whatnot could actually be seen. It's there, but the illusion, the veil, the glamour..

It is actually completely valid to feel saddened and frustrated by how nonhumanity and therianthropy have been reduced to masks, quadrobics, and tails. It’s an extremely personal experience, and now all we get is this same type of content over and over again that feels like roleplaying and dress up. It feels so synthetic and strictly made for others, and it’s fine if you’re mad at the lack of actual experiences and talk of actual nonhuman feelings that aren’t just “I wanna go home to the forest” “look at my mask/paws/tail” “managed to do this quads jump today”. I don’t believe that that’s the only time you feel shifty. I don’t. And I want to hear more about your daily experiences about your nonhumanity, how it affects you, what makes you euphoric. I want back originality and actually talking about your experiences that aren’t conventional and the same with everyone (as much as they might be similar in the general nonhumanity aspect).

i am a:

○ male

○ female

◉ sad autistic enby

looking for a:

○ boyfriend/husband

○ girlfriend/wife

◉ for someone who won't judge me for being autistic and will accept the fact that i get hyperfixated onto certain things, putting all my time and energy into it, and so i would want to share it with them- without fearing they'll judge me or make fun of me.

If I created a discord server for alterhumans, one that is very inclusive of transspecies identities, IRLs, clinical zoanthropes, physical identifying nonhumans, etc etc; would anyone be interested? I've noticed a severe lack of alterhuman/nonhuman spaces on discord that tends to exclude the aforementioned beings - they tend to only focus on therianopathy (which isnt a bad thing) it'd also be 15+

Hiya :) you're valid if you still partially identify as human. You can like drinking a perfect coffee while also like running free through an open field. Human things are enjoyable just as animal things are enjoyable! :)