Latest Posts by chaoticnightmarekitty - Page 2

needy streamer overload

I bought the game because it was on sale so I don't regret buying it.

and it reminded me of an app called virtual and how you can be a vt-uber and shit. so i said fuck it why not im bored and lonely and might as well be a cute anime girl too.

i redownloaded it

but for fuck sakes its camera is awful at tracking

and im so goddam awful at socializing and i fucking wished it had an app on the pc BUT EVEN IF IT DID MY SHIT INTERNET IS SO GODDAM SLOW AND I CANT DO SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE

so im stuck here in my room doing nothing but be on my phone and laptop. seeing other people do things i want to do. why cant that be me also. If i can't do shit how am i going to earn money. my anxiety holds me back i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.

the only friend i have are online but even that is a pain in the ass BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY ASS WIFI THE FUCKING PING IS SO DAMN HIGH SO IM JUST WATCHING THEM HANGOUT WITH EACHOTHER WHILE I JUST STAND BY AND WATCH I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD FUCKING VALORANT WITHOUT IT TAKING THE WHOLE DAY BITCH ASS CUNT KYS

The whole “jirai = get worse, menhera = get better” is kind of annoying. It’s not wrongbut there’s a lot more to menhera than that.

Tbh the menhera tag has been dead for a while maybe all of us “poser jirais who want to recover” 🙄 should just jump the jirai ship and use that tag. But I’m nervous to say that bc I know that means there will be an influx of people posting triggering stuff & jirai coords in the menhera tags again 😪 Recovery is hard on this website, almost every pro-recovery tag is filled with triggering shit because this website rewards clinging onto sadness & unhealthy coping mechanisms and everyone uses trigger warnings like “TW 4n0r3x!@“ or “tw sl3f h4rn” like…… how is that a trigger warning I literally can’t even read it 😭

Being an adult in jiraiblr is so funny bcs I'm seeing these teens act jus like how I did and it's like "huh. That's why no one liked me - i was really annoying"

jirai blogs

Ppl who had time for romance in high school we are so different. i was busy fighting for my life in my head

I FEAR I WILL NEVER KNOW HAHAHAHAHAHA

ugh i don’t want to open up to people..that’s too scary…

*proceeds to post my every thought on tumblr for anyone to see*

it's kinda annoying being asked by everyone "what do you wanna do for a living?" like girl i don't even know if i wanna be living at all

I feel like I never see other jirai that are over 18. It's always 14-16 year old kids, and it's just... so awkward. I shouldn't be considered old yet, but even then whenever I'm in a space for something I like there are always so many children! and it makes me feel like a Total Creep!!! and all while I'm just here to see that other people struggle like me and love the same things as me!

I love being ignored when I know someone's online it's great!!!/sar

ngl i feel like a fraud because i cant wear girly kei because of sensory issues, im sorry but the fabric is so sjbfkamrid /neg

i really wish more of the community was able to act normally about plus size jirais. I want to be able to talk about not being able to find any girly kei outfits in sizes above M without a swarm of skinny jirais acting condescending and being fatphobic.

Confession: i dont want to be popular, i don’t care about clout i just don’t

I just want money to buy coords and merch of my oshi, i’ll do anything for money.

How idolising jirai blogs looks like

All hail the angel bat (I am going to make an angel bat oc just you wait)

"Who want me " I say as if I'm not extremely picky with who I obsess over

ex friends actin like im actively trying to seek their downfall smh I LEFT YOU FOR A REASON STOP TRYING TO BEEF WITH ME

Lmaoo i did that and lost a friend yippieeee

reblog to give the person you reblogged it from a little heart lollipop

Mood!

Hot girl problems

I just want to be someone's favorite.. I don't care if it's in a friendship or a relationship I just want someone to love me like how I love them..

*me after not showering a week* "Why do I feel so gross?"

Lost another friendship. Feeling superb.

I feel like throwing up.

Why is it so hard to maintain friends? Am I doing something wrong? Im tired..

I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

bpd is romanticized until u cut off everyone who loves u and ur banging ur head against a wall, begging for god to make everything stop

Nobody is afraid to lose me. I never mean that much.