Hyperfixation - Blog Posts

I want to read about characters I've created but the source material doesn't exist because of the lack of a proper story for the characters but I also don't want to write it but also want to write it so it exists and I can read about and it just repeats over and over.

I have become obsessed with characters that don't truely exists yet outside of my brain and have no way to remedy it.

~●~●About me●~●~

My name is Elijah. I'm 20, I'm Bi, and I'm from Italy.

I speak Italian, English and can pretty much understand but not speak French and Spanish.

I have many passions and interests so this blog will be a little all over the place as time goes on.

My favourites:

Colour: Castleton Green

Movie: Venom, The Crow, The Dark Knight, The Empire Strikes Back

Show: Dexter, Supernatural

Singer: Michael Jackson, Adam Lambert

Rapper: Eminem, Dr Dre

Band/Group: Black Veil Brides

City: London

Main Passions:

Drawing (mostly redrawing already existing pieces of art to practice but occasionally I create my own)

Reading (from the classics to the most explicit fanfiction you can immagine)

Crocheting (probably won't post much about that but felt like letting y'all know)

DIY, Arts and Crafts

Fandoms I'm in:

Some of these are old hence I don't interact with them as much but, since it happened before, I might come back to them and set the obsession alight again.

P.S. They're in order from current hyperfixation to oldest one.

Dexter (Brian, Dexter)

Star Wars (Anakin, Luke)

One Piece (Ace, Law, Corazon)

See (Tamacti)

Supernatural (Sam)

The Vampire Diaries (Elijah, Klaus)

Peaky Blinders (Alfie)

Lucifer

Forever (2014)

Sherlock

Gotham (Jerome)

Shameless

MCU (Bucky, Logan, Wade)

DCEU

Info you may wanna know:

If you wanna RP I'd be very happy to do so with you, ask and I'll let you know. (Especially for fandoms I haven't interacted with in a while or simply if I'm not in the right headspace) Next to the shows are the names of the characters I'm comfortable roleplaying. If there aren't any it means I don't want to roleplay and/or don't feel comfortable trying to portray any character from that show.

I may randomly (like once a year) try to write something if my hyperfixation takes over.

Disclaimers and warnings:

This is meant to be a safe space for all people.

I am aware of the political issues currently ongoing in the world right now but this blog is not about politics so don't expect that. I won't reblog anything political related. I'm not about to take sides on that, and I don't feel comfortable being asked about it.

I do not condone any behaviour I enjoy reading about in real life.

I won't tolerate any hate or discrimination towards real people nor what ships they like in their fandom. If you're here to hate, don't bother.

I can and will ship problematic, incestuous, toxic, and/or illogical ships because they're fictional characters and they shall remain so. If you have a problem with that, please block me rather than leaving comments and all.

This blog is mainly focused on Brian and Dexter with some random author/writer miscellaneous in it. For spn, specifically wincest, I have another sideblog.

MK1 Incorrect quotes pt.3:

Kenshi, in the dark during a big storm that cut the Wu Shi Academy’s power, searching for candles: Kung Lao I’m starting to think that this is a really bad idea.

Raiden: Oh I’m not Lao, I’m Raiden. I though you were Lao.

Kenshi: No, I’m Kenshi.

Kung Lao: You’re Kenshi? Where’s Johnny?

Kenshi: Who are you?

Kung Lao: I’m Kung Lao!

Liu Kang, eyes flashing like a pair of white flashlight: Guess who I am, you guys!

Mk1 AU where everything is the same but Liu Kangs eyes work like two mini flashlights

So as a adhder(a person with ADHD) I tend to have alot of hyper fixations, mostly consisting of queer coded shows, books and video games, I realized that I have milked these of most of the content that I can find so I need a new hyper fixation. So if you k ow any books, shows, or video games that are queer coded then please tell me I really need a new hyper fixation thx :3.

Hyper fixating is all fun and games when you're working on a project or cleaning your house or consuming media or completing a task.

but have you ever hyper fixated on a person? You ever thought about someone night and day. Daydreamed about them. Had conversations in your head with them. Let them consume your every moment until they were the first thing you thought of in the morning and the last thing you thought of at night?

This isn't a cheesy love song this is real life and that shit will make you sick. Make you forget yourself. Make you change yourself. Make you neglect yourself.

They're never gonna be like the version you've cooked up in your head and you deserve to move on.

I find it sad..that there are so many people so many lifes and realities I'll never get to experince, so many people I won't be able to be freinds with, so many people who i want to be but am defiant off, I look around and see an ocean of stories and hobbies and names and peraonalities but just like the real one the whole ocean is unatainable, maybe its my fault for not being content with the people around me on but when I get a new hyper fixations on a person I start to realise all the people around me, the people laughing and talking to their freinds people watching as their freinds play games or paying for someone elses food, all the lives I'll never get to know..all the life I'm missing out on, perhaps I'm just trying to fill my ever lasting hole of lonliness or perhaps I'm trying to fill my heart with somthing ive pushed away, but ill always hate knowing theres a life out there..I'll never know.[Not my art]

America ya!!! :3 /ref

Hello cool people of tumblr 😦 !! Are you 🫵 cool ? And do you like roblox!?

Well Basil here has just the thing for u !!

JOIN MY SERVER ON DISCORD PLS PLS PLS !! It’s for Regretevator mainly but other roblox games can be played too!! Just dm me for a link!!

(PLEASE DM ME AAAAAAAA)

Hyperfixation got to me so I made a Starlight express oc.

(Little update her name has been decided as Ruby)

Soul eater hyper fixation is stealing all my brain power so gonna have to put NNSG aside for a while… it will return, it always does

Anyways, I can say Death the Kid will be drawn the most as well as Maka and Crona !!

Hehe just started reading the manga too so I’m REALLY REALLYYYY getting into it now X3

Good news

I’m back on a higher dose of adhd meds

My mind is quiet again and I can focus

Bad news

I have new hyperfixations that are neither my day job nor cleaning my goddamn apartment

Directly copy pasted from where I just sent it in a discord group chat:

MY AUDHD KICKED IN AND I HYPERFIXATED ON SORTING ALL OF MY ART SUPPLIES FOR THE PAST 4 HOURS

I PUT OFF EATING UNTIL I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN I COULDNT FOCUS

THEN I INSTANTLY WENT BACK AT IT

IM TRYING TO CONVINCE MY BRAIN THAT IM DONE FOR NOW BUT IT WANTS IT ALL DONE WITHOUT ANY MORE INTERRUPTIONS

HALP

im hyperfixating on the scp foundation again and im trying to read every scp on the main list

i have also found a browser extension that lets me track the ones ive read in a list instead of relying on the visited link colours and its sitting at 346 read scps now (i have definitely read more though, i just have to find them again)

in total there is ~7877 scps as of now so that means i have now read at least 4.3% of them - yippee

UPDATE - 1 day after above, im at 5.6747 percent now with 447 read articles

Hyperfixation so bad I'm starting to annoy people

*im so fucki normal about him IM SO FLNORMAL YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME PLEASE

*omg i just realized my stegosaurus plushie has the starlo colors this is starlo the stegosaurus now (no idea why the lighting is so shitty in the 2nd pic but ok)

just finished undertale yellow currently crying my eyes out (and yes i did cheat for the last two bosses and only feel slightly scummy)

i love starlo, he is my pride and joy, i will kill for him he is my blorbo and deserves teh world i would draw him but im too emotionally unstable to do much and wanted to post this to get my thoughts out later gang

mom said it’s my turn to hyperfixate

i just realized i have like at least 10 pmd universes i feel like that’s an unhealthy amount

I love dropping off the face of the earth and posting every once in a while when a new hyperfixation pops up.

when the hyperfixation is so bad I wrote an entire essay of theories after watching a 39 second clip

This is me with Epic the musical

My ADHD meds have been out of stock for like 2 weeks now and I’m at the stage of being unmedicated where I start getting the urge to undertake new, slightly dangerous hobbies. I have 4 wood carving tutorials open on my phone and there’s a whittling knife in my amazon cart RIGHT NOW. It’s only a matter of time before my resolve crumbles.

Being ADHD means changing your Lock Screen every week

i wonder if anyone else goes through a time where they’re kinda sad and low energy and don’t really feel like connecting with their hyperfixations, but then some old, long abandoned, (and very cursed) interest suddenly resurfaces and it’s just like !!!!

today’s thoughts : is escapism or just a hyperfixation

(I don’t know if this is just me or if other neurodivergent people experience this but) growing up I was bullied/shamed for having any interests whatsoever so now I’ve just learned to internalize any impulses to infodump. like I really want to talk about all these really interesting things, but like even thinking about telling another person just feels so wrong? and dirty? I don’t really know if this makes sense, but it’s basically unstoppable force (the need to share my hyperfixations) vs immovable object (paralyzing anxiety)

hfjsgdjshkfks idk what worse-

having lots of hyperfixations at once or not having any hyperfixations

when i have lots of them i get rly overwhelmed cus i just,, wanna do all of them at once and its like a constant need to be doing something related to all of my hyperfixations but u just CANT watch five shows at once or listen to music, watch a video, research, and do crafts all at the same time i just physically cant do that

but when i dont have any hyperfixations i feel so empty. my thoughts get kinda mixed up cus i dont know what to think about or focus on and im just constantly understimulated because of boredom and thats just miserable

AHHH

httyd hyper fixation, YIPPIEEEEEE

This, but what about the times when you suddenly don't feel the same joy for your hyper fixations as you did literally the day before. It's like this thing that was the source of most of your happiness and contentment, just suddenly gets switched off in your dopamine centres. You're just sat there like, wtf do I do with my time and self now? its especially awful when you feel all your apathy and depression start to take centre stage again because your hyper fixation isn't there to push it back anymore. So you just end up waiting in limbo for the joy to spark again.

people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.

shoutout to my favorite fictional characters, favorite people, favorite ships, favorite movies, favorite tv shows, fanfics and archive of our own