Zephiris - Another Transfem Programmer

the hadron collider is like an angel to me

the sin has been committed :3

Happy pride! 🌈

re: that post staff has always been awful to trans women but i’ve been here about over a decade and i’ve never seen this many trans women get banned in such a short period of time. half the posts i see by trans women talking about transmisogyny have deactivated URLs. the banning has been ramped up to an insane fucking degree. stop silencing my sisters

do you think their periods ever synced up

I wrote a poem about my first love about a month into our relationship. Today they broke up with me. Here is that poem:

Light Rays

Light rays filtering in all the way from the sun.

Sometimes after a detour to the moon

Filtering in through leaves or bouncing off the snow or ricocheting off someone‘s iris into my pupil.

So much light entering my soul.

So much distance that ray has traveled

All so that my soul can become enthralled with another’s.

When I look someone in the eyes I feel their soul capturing mine; overwhelming me with awe

I bathe in the depths of another’s pupils. Become absorbed by the ever-expanding darkness. Let everything else fade. The darkness strengthened by the photon ring surrounding their pupils;

flecks of light which absorb and reflect rays, surrounding and contrasting the center.

I know I shouldn’t stare into the sun, for I might go blind from the magnitude of pure white light

But when I peer into the darkest depths of another all other senses fade away, consumed by my captivation.

I often look just shy of someone’s gaze;

Their nose, their eyelid.

Otherwise, I’d always be getting lost exploring the souls of others.

If I truly look you in the eye you’ll watch as I get absorbed by you.

If I look you in the eye it means I want to feel totally embraced by you.

If I look you in the eye, it might even mean I love you.

Otherwise, I hope hanging by the hawking radiation, just out of reach of being absorbed, will suffice.

The first point and the third point are absolutely correct. It’s really crazy to think about how everything we see is just photons bouncing off one another relative to the particles around it which then are relative to us.

Also since each particle can’t be perfectly updated every frame sometimes we don’t have enough other particles around a specific photon in spacetime (3D space plus particles that were recently in the same space it’s currently in) so then that photon has to guess its location for the next frame like you summarized in point 3.

The second point about the speed of light limiting the number of particles is slightly innacurate since I’m assuming at each time step of the universe our in-universe time kinda freezes during the computation and any particle could contact any other particle instantaneously (think shared read-only universal hashmap where each particle can only modify its own entry). Therefore the limitation on checking all of the particles in the universe every frame isn’t based on the speed of light but rather on how each particle just doesn’t have the capacity to check all the billions of particles in a 1 meter radius of it and similarly those billions of particles don’t have the capacity to check that one additional particle so the universe fuzzes with randomness and gets it mostly correct instead. Fun fact: Fuzzing with randomness is actually used in Redis and other caches to have low latency most of the time without having to exactly track how many times each cache has been accessed or when the last access was.

Thank you so much for the distilled summary! I def appreciate the feedback and knowing what you understood from it all. I’m still refining my explanation so thank you!

honestly getting infodumped to is like. dreamy

there's nothing that melts me more than just hearing someone be passionate about something. And if someone has hurt you in the past and makes you reluctant to fuckin completely go off on the expanded canon of the X-Files or whatever, I'm gonna hit them in the head with a big mallet. You're adorable, show it. Please

a wall of motherboards ,,,, she's so beautiful