Taikonaut-kaskara - Afrofuturist Grim Reaper 我在学汉语

damn dysphoria fucking sucks

Heard some US army dude say something about propaganda; that often as not the point is to produce absurd propaganda, so that it calls reporting on both sides into question.

If your side makes some absurd claim about the enemy killing their own civilians for not clapping or whatever, and the enemy points out your real war crimes, then, while your fanatics might believe you anyway, the response of the Educated Moderate would be: ‘Well, there’s a lot of misinformation going around, so it’s not really possible to know the facts for sure’ - tacitly going along with your goal of muddying the waters, and feeling like they’ve outsmarted you for it.

Funnily enough, very applicable to Radio Free Whatever and its absurd reporting with, say, the DPRK.

Yo Kagurabachi is tight as fuck man this is real meathead battle shounen

I'm not entirely sure how to describe my mental state as things are now. From a rational point I've internalized that hope is a fundamental need for survival, that life is never truly over until you've breathed your last no matter how suffocating or excruciating your current life situation is. That life is what you make of it, and each individual has the freedom to determine their own purposre. Yet, I still cant help but feel just so hopeless and depressed all the time. Beyond a shadow of a doubt I know a future where seeing the body I was born with doesn't make me want to cry is one I can achieve. That a life outside of my current overbearing loneliness and isolation can be mine, and that living a lie to preserve my few existing close relationships is a temporary situation I can be freed of eventually. Yet I cant escape perpetual hopelessness and irrational anxiety. I simultaneously feel confident in my potential yet disgusted in my reality, never wanting to end my life yet hating to live.

There's no real point to this rambling, im not gonna bother proofreading for errors or any of that. I'm venting to the void for myself more than anything. I still lack a healthy means to process my emotions relying on endlessly drowning thoughts out with distractions. Books, comics, games, martial arts, anything that can suppress the misery with momentary pockets of happiness. Maybe all of us need escapes to survive, or maybe I'm projecting to feel less alone.

seeing those transition timelines make me happy like damn there might be hope for me yet some day

Testament art pile I have so far  🥰🥰 🥰🥰

ohh that's how u pronounce it okay I been callin this poor girl a slur

Im like 13 eps into Gundam IBO so far and have hella conflicting feelings about this series. Orga is possibly my favorite character in this franchise outright, and I'm a sucker for well done found family (doomed as it may be) so I've really enjoyed Tekkadan so far. On paper its straight up my fav Gundam, not to mention Barbatos' design is raw as hell. That being said, the writing is just not good a lot of the time and the more Gundam series I watch the more I feel that G Witch might be the only one in the history of this franchise with romance that DOESNT make me wanna turn my skin inside out. (Mikazuki kissing Kudelia made me sigh so loud dawg) I've got quite a few grievances but I'll save my full thoughts for when I've finished the series.

the US war of independence was more about the worldwide conflict between the french and british colonial empires than it was about Freedom or Liberty. the US civil war was more about the competition of northern merchant-industrial capital and southern landed-agricultural capital than it was about Rights or Equality. wars aren't fought over ideology. of course those sentiments were real and existed, and of course no troops were actually charging into the battlefield out of personal love for one or the other segment of the bourgeoisie, but the sentiments supposedly behind these wars had existed long before the wars themselves came about. it was only when the actual centres of power wanted these wars that those sentiments and ideologies were able to come to the forefront. ideologies do not start wars, they are used to justify them. any benefit towards those ideologies is only coincidental insofar as it aligns with the real, material factors that create and maintain war. the US did not care about slaves, that much is clear from their antebellum treatment of black americans - they cared about slavery's economic effects, they cared about slaveowners