#creating

#creating

I remember watching this interview of Hajime Isayama where he said that, when he presented the story of Attack on Titan to its current publishers, he was at the lowest possible point of self-esteem in his life, about himself and about his work, so much so that he was on the brink of giving it all up. It marked me so much because… I was watching this interview precisely because I deeply admired this man’s artistic work. I could not fathom that he would have ever doubted it himself.

It reminded me that you can only trust the work. It really doesn’t matter what your opinion of yourself or your abilities as a creator is. It is entirely irrelevant, even. Worse: it gets in the way of creation. When you focus too much on it, you stop trying and doing. And if there is one thing that cannot be doubted, it is that nothing is achieved without trying and doing. Nothing bad and nothing good.

So really, as long as the desire to create burns your insides and keeps you awake at night and makes your fingers shiver from the need to grab a pen or a brush, there is only one option: keep making. Doubt won’t ever disappear. Creating shall remain this uneasy, vertiginous activity, keeping you on the brink of the abyss.

Follow your guts and have faith in the process. Trust that the work needs to be done, no matter the whims of self-confidence. At the end of the day, your creation may have sprung out of your mind and your knowledge, your experiences and your emotions, your time and your dedication, but it is not you. It may be better; it may be worse; but it is a thing of its own that needs to be done and that only you can do.

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4 years ago

Why is this so disconcerting....give me back ugly dokja im begging you

Why Is This So Disconcerting....give Me Back Ugly Dokja Im Begging You
Why Is This So Disconcerting....give Me Back Ugly Dokja Im Begging You
Why Is This So Disconcerting....give Me Back Ugly Dokja Im Begging You
Why Is This So Disconcerting....give Me Back Ugly Dokja Im Begging You
Why Is This So Disconcerting....give Me Back Ugly Dokja Im Begging You
Why Is This So Disconcerting....give Me Back Ugly Dokja Im Begging You


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4 years ago

Omg I shall read this! I love jjk and my country and this combination is just <333

I wrote a jujutsu kaisen fanfic that’s set in the Philippines


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4 years ago

land spirits

in cities and towns, you won’t really have to worry about this but it’s important to be careful and respectful of the land you plan to cross, especially if it’s your first time visiting and especially if it’s in a forest. land spirits like duwende live in trees, rocks, dirt mounds, caves, and pretty much everywhere else. duwende can be playful but will get angry if you destroy/disrespect their home, so always ask permission before you pass through and don’t spit, urinate, or even run around ((be really careful not to crush mounds))

3 years ago

Trese Official Trailer (in english)

For your nerdy consideration...

This upcoming Netflix animated series is based on the Trese comics by Budjette Tan and Kajo Baldisimo — the story is set in Metro Manila and centered on Alexandra Trese, a detective that deals with supernatural beings from Filipino myth and folklore.

The show is headed by Jay Oliva, developed by BASE Entertainment, and stars Shay Mitchell and Liza Soberano as the titular Alexandra Trese (English and Filipino dub respectively).

It comes on June 11 on Netflix.


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4 years ago

this is awesome omg? ive read some of the fics cloversdreams made (mostly abt stanxeno and tsukasui!) i haven't read saccharine yet but let me guess, it's fluff isn't it? since saccharine means sweet right? hopefully i got it correct!!

the song is so pretty and it has the tooth-rotting fluff vibes yk? ahhh i love stanxeno so much, i really love that part in the middle (?) where it goes a lil quiet and theres more emphasis on drums (?) im so soo sorry if i got the instruments wrong and if i sucked at describing what i heard, I listened to this without earphones and w a rlly low volume bc im at my parents room and they're asleep D:

this is soo cute, u r so talented!! i love the drawing too! aHHH stanxeno <33

So fun fact, I compose. I made a song for a ship I like- title is based from a fic that @/cloversdreams made. Though hit isn’t a song for the fic itself, it was inspired from it

So Fun Fact, I Compose. I Made A Song For A Ship I Like- Title Is Based From A Fic That @/cloversdreams

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3 years ago

Hope this isnt too heavy to type about but where do you get online sources of precolonial filipino stuff? I've been wanting to learn about those too since I only have info on during the colonialism.

I'm so sorry I hadn't been checking my blog for a long time :(

Mostly, my sources were books in DLSU library, and I didn't remember the sources because I'm that stupid. Lol.

About the online sources... Well... I went to Wikipedia. As long as I see Damiana Eugenio and some credible historians in the references, it's okay.

Aswang project... I remember citing them once or twice. Still, remember to look at the references. If the article writer cross-checked at least 3 sources, that's okay.

Google Schoolar and university databases are also the pool of credible research papers about the topic. Unfortunately, they're usually aggregate Phil History books, and they only have 1 chapter for precolonial. I don't usually trust history books that only have a brief info about the precolonial.

AND LASTLY, Tumblr. Many Filipino Tumblr users have sources on the precolonial. Just search tags and you will probably see many. We're mostly mythology crazy, tho. (I will tag them when I gather them all)

Recently, I discovered this website where you can take online sources dedicated to Filipino Culture and learning. It's called Suyomano.

Hope This Isnt Too Heavy To Type About But Where Do You Get Online Sources Of Precolonial Filipino Stuff?
Hope This Isnt Too Heavy To Type About But Where Do You Get Online Sources Of Precolonial Filipino Stuff?
Hope This Isnt Too Heavy To Type About But Where Do You Get Online Sources Of Precolonial Filipino Stuff?
Hope This Isnt Too Heavy To Type About But Where Do You Get Online Sources Of Precolonial Filipino Stuff?
Hope This Isnt Too Heavy To Type About But Where Do You Get Online Sources Of Precolonial Filipino Stuff?

Still navigating this site, and woop, it's not free. There are lessons about filipino sophisticated arts and traditions here, it's just sad that only a handful can have access.

When I get my hands on them, I'll share them to you, lol. Who cares if that's illegal.

I hope these helped.

3 years ago

Okay. If you are doing research - especially history research, here are a couple steps to possibly save your life.

1) Get thee to wikipedia.

Seriously. You can’t site it because it has the academic credibility of some random graffitti, and you can’t quote it because the exact writing and content changes every time it gets edited, BUT:

It will almost certainly be more accurate than printed encyclopedias, which are updated every ten years or so, and only require a few eyes compared to wikipedia, where any trolling will probably get you banned or suspended in hours. Not to mention it’s getting a LOT more peer reviews. So you can’t quote it, but it’s probably fairly accurate.

And the best part? After just about every tidbit of information, there’s going to be a little citation number. If you click it, it’ll take you down to the references section (and even highlight the relevant one). You can then go to the original source - which will be much more credible. What’s more is you’ll have specific page numbers (if it’s a book), and you’ll know exactly what kind of information you’re looking for.

2) If it’s a book, Internet Archive is your best friend

The search function isn’t great if you’re looking up questions like you would into your google (or ecosia - if you want to do a good thing for the earth) search bar, but if you know the author and year the book was published, it’s great. You’ll have this information already on hand from step one, if that’s how you found the book in the first place.

There are about 30 million books on Internet Archive and counting, so there’s a good chance they’re going to have what you’re looking for. However, about half of them are check-out only. Checking out is actually easy. You need to set up a free account, and make sure to give them a valid email address because they will send you a verification email. After that, you can check out any book you want for an hour. (excelent for focus!)

If you are only looking at specific pages, you should be fine, but there’s also other longer options for checking stuff out for some books. (I think?)

Also, in many books, you can search for specific keywords within the book, and there’s a little slider at the bottom to find pages.

3) watch Overly Sarcastic Production’s “How to do research”

Seriously. It’s amazing. My first point is confirmed in the video which is just more proof that I’m right /hj

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4 years ago

First Moves (SakuAtsu)

Atsumu had always been the one to make the first move, may it be through messages or asking Kyoomi out for dates. Kiyoomi got so accustomed to it that he panics when Atsumu doesn't message him for an entire day. He goes back to their messages and rereads them.

Everything's fine. Atsumu used emojis, sent him some memes and even some selfies. So, he evaluates his responses to make sure he didn't sound uninterested or check if he could've said something that might've offended Atsumu or put him in a bad mood. But in the end, he found nothing out of the usual.

"Stop overthinking it. He tells you things he doesn't like, so there's no need to panic," Kiyoomi whispers to himself, but he still finds himself pressing the call button.

Kiyoomi hears the ringing, and his heart immediately starts beating erratically.

What if he's busy? What if he finds it annoying? What if everything's fine and I look like I'm too clingy? What if he gets mad?

All these questions keep running in Kiyoomi's head, making it difficult to make the first move. He sighs as his thoughts get the better of him, but before he could even turn off the call, Atsumu's voice pulls him out of his head.

"Hey, Omi-kun! What's up?" Atsumu asks on the other side. Kiyoomi gulps and straightens his back as he tries to keep his composure.

"Nothing," Kiyoomi answers, there's silence on the other side of the line, and this makes Kiyoomi panic once again.

"Oh, then why'd you call?" Atsumu asks. His tone's normal, and yet Kiyoomi still feels like something's off.

"I just missed you," Kiyoomi whispers, it was so small that Atsumu almost didn't catch it, "I'm sorry for bothering you so late at night,"

"What? No, don't apologize! I like it, actually," Atsumu says, "it makes my heart really soft hearing you say you miss me,"

Kiyoomi can imagine Atsumu smiling on the other end of the line, and this made him feel silly for panicking over Atsumu not messaging him.

"So, what now?" Kiyoomi asks as he lays on his bed with a calmer heart and a smile on his face.

"I don't know, tell me about your day. I just slept the entire day, so I don't have much," Atsumu answers.

Kiyoomi smiles, "okay,"

Kiyoomi then proceeds to tell Atsumu about his day, and they ended up talking until past nine. Once Atsumu notices, he says, "Omi, we have to go to sleep. We still have Saturday training,"

"Oh," Kiyoomi says and turns to the clock, "I guess this is good night then,"

"Yeah," Atsumu says, "but before you hang up,"

"What is it?"

"I just wanted you to know that it made me really happy that you called," Atsumu says, making Kiyoomi grin wide, "Then I'll call you more often,"

Kiyoomi doesn't hear a response, but he does hear a muffled scream which makes him chuckle, "Okay, I'll call you tomorrow morning,"

"Okay, Omi-kun, good night. I love you," Atsumu says, making Kiyoomi's heart run wild.

"Good night, I love you too, Atsumu," Kiyoomi says and hangs up before turning on his side and sleeping with a smile on his face now that he knows that making the first move won't annoy Atsumu.


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3 years ago

these god-siblings five.

For a brief time - a thousand years, for that is brief for the two of them - the Heat Haze Boy and the Monsoon Girl grew tired of their quarrel.

“Sister, we need a bigger playground,” said the Boy.

The Girl nodded in agreement. “Let us create the world and all its creatures.”

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Although they could have done it by themselves, the Twin Forces wanted help. And so, they created five god-siblings to assist them in their endeavor.

Licalibutan, the eldest, was strong and mighty, with a body made of rock. He rubbed off pieces of his skin and gathered them up into mounds. These became the mountains and land. Pleased with his work, he laughed heartily and left the rest of it to his siblings.

Libulan, the second, was calm and thoughtful, with a body made of copper. He paused for a moment, and reasoned that life could not spring forth without water. He pierced his heart, and from it bled the rivers and seas.

Liadlao, the third, was wild and fiery, with a body made of gold. Impatient for his turn, he fumed that the world was still cold and dark. He then took out one of his eyes and placed it in the heavens, making the sun.

Lisuga, the fourth, was curious and inventive, with a body made of silver. Sighing at her third brother’s impetuousness, she plucked out her teeth and hung them in the heavens as well, making stars.

Libali, the youngest (our stories often forget her) was humble and generous, with a body made of flowers. Marveling at everything that her siblings created, she wept with joy, and her tears became seeds that fell into the earth and grew up to be plants.

Such is how the world came to be.

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This is part of my Five Powers expansion for Swellbloom Kids. If you liked this, you can view more of my work here.

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