Hi there... Kind of shy about asking this so sorry if my question seems a bit all over the place. I kind of lost myself a few years back and stopped working with the goddess I was before. I've tried recently to slowly get back into my shadow work and loving myself again. Fortuna made herself known in ways I didn't expect. I think she wants to work with me but I don't think I should be working with anyone because what happened last time. How do you get over such self doubt and forgive yourself?
Hi!
please don’t worry about being shy and I apologize for taking so long to reply, my school is often very demanding of my time and my summer SADs make it hard to work in the summer. .
It is not uncommon for someone to lose a connection with gods.
I myself have experienced this on so many occasions, and it was even the reason why it took Aphrodite so long to convince me to start working with Greek Gods in the first place after I lost touch with a different pantheon.
Losing a connection with the gods is a lot more common than most followers will have you believe.
It teaches us about ourselves, our limits and the need for spiritual boundaries and clearer communication, not so much for the gods but for ourselves and how we approach the gods and expect the gods to communicate with us because everyone is different with different limits and needs.
According to the ancient Greeks, everything came from Chaos which birthed the first primordial gods: (LINK)
This is the reason why chaos tends to be a lot easier to reach, while order takes more effort.
This is also why intention is important when addressing the gods. Between the social noise of the media, personal expectations, social pressure, capitalism, surviving etc, it's easy for our thoughts to get muddled, so it's important for us to be clear about our plans with the gods so we create order within ourselves instead of letting life get a hold of us and lead us back to Chaos.
This applies to everyone but it is especially important for people who are disabled (physically, neurodivergent, a spoony with energetic limits, people that are prone to depression or anxiety which latch on to negative self talk and thus add confusion to life, etc.)
One of the main reasons why acknowledging and honoring your own limits and conditions when working with the gods is important is because not acknowledging them might affect how you view your relationship with the gods and might lead to feelings of guilt.
As someone that finds it hard to focus, I assumed I was unfit to follow a god I couldn’t even focus on and the pinching I received for having ADHD incorrectly taught me that "my disability was bad and unfit for gods."
I didn't deconstruct my christian expectations, and accidently carried those same expectations with me when I started working with pagan gods and assumed I was never going to be able to work with pagan gods for the same reason.
It took me a while and a lot of self reflection to accept that paying attention to gods was going to be a lot more difficult for me, versus someone who was neurotypical.
One of my personal boundaries with the gods is asking them to patiently repeat something I forgot they said or gently guide me back to something I forgot to do.
The gods are a lot more patient than I'll ever be able to explain.
It's also possible that any guilt you experience could have potentially come from personal expectations that were not met. These kinds of expectations are common and have the potential to lead followers into developing imposter syndrome:
Imposter syndrome manipulates one into assuming they are not good enough to work with the gods, or have them wonder why the gods are bothering with them in the first place. Or have them worry that they might be bothering the gods.
It also encourages them to assume they are not doing enough to keep the gods happy and forces them to go beyond their limits.
Failure becomes inevitable and the devotee suffering from imposter syndrome comes to the conclusion that they are a terrible follower and shouldn't ever work with gods without ever realizing that they were going beyond their limits until they finally reach a breaking point.
Breaking points look different to different people but it often leads to a disconnection between the person and their gods.
The gods understand humans have limits and they also know the shadow self influences a lot of how we see them and how we expect ourselves to behave around them including the consequences we give ourselves for not abiding by that, or negative experiences from not having others respect our boundaries.
You are not a terrible follower because it's very common to fall out of relationships with gods, please don't let anyone guilt you into thinking this is a rare and personal problem.
May Fortuna help re-establish and enrich your relationship with the gods and help you find your voice within your own spiritual journey.
I have a two names, one in english and one in chinese. I’m mixed so my names are combinations of names from different languages too. I’m sure no one else in the world has the exact combination of both. I mean how many people have a mix of chinese and Indonesian?
I’m curious.
My name is unique. I can confidently say that not only am I pretty sure there is no one else with my given name/family name combo on the planet, I’m pretty sure there never has been. I am the only [name] that has ever lived.
So tell me in the tags please, how common your full name is, whether you’ve ever encountered someone with the same name, and (if applicable) what it’s like seeing celebrities or people in the news or whatever who have your name.
Fog is often a forgotten aspect of weather that seems to get passed over when it comes to witchcraft despite it having some powerful and noble uses as well as a history in the craft. Though not all areas get fog commonly, many do, almost every morning depending on the time of year. Allow this small post to perhaps be some help to those who have interest in harnessing fog into their craft.
As stated above, in many literary sources witches of both historical senses and fiction harness fog as a powerful towel. In popular lore, witches were said to summon fogs to roll across the lands to protect fleeing mothers and children during wars to hide from invading soldiers, though this lore is hard to pin point down, it is often said to come from Celtic and Gaelic origins.
In other tales witches would summon fog to protect traveling royalty or heroes who are on a quest to reach lands that may be unfriendly to their arrival. At some other times fog was related to almost like the “witching hour” it meant it was a time that the supernatural were out and witches were casting their spells.
What is a liminal space? To put it simply it means a “transforming space” or a place that the Veil or energies are thinner and overcross one another. Often they are associated with spirit work, energy work, astral work and over all witchcraft. Some call these places or areas “places where one area and time stop and another begins”.
In many cases, places that are covered by fog often are said to be liminal spaces during this time, due to the surrealism and energy fog brings with it. It turns something mundane looking to mysterious, confusing and even to some creepy. Its concealing nature brings the feeling of the unknown and the unseen.
Traditionally and theatrically fog is often used to represent the Veil between worlds and afterlife, often used in settings of literature and movies by covering graveyards before something supernatural happens or by filling the streets at night when magick is about to begin. Often when many people who don’t practice the craft think of supernatural energies and the Veil they imagine a foggy night or a wall of fog, this imagery is for a reason.
Often, fog is seen as an important tool for spirit work both fictionally and modernly due to its relations of being a liminal space and therefore seen as easier to contact spirits with the barriers weaker when it arrives.
Generally Fog Corresponds with - The Veil, Spirits/Spirit Work, The Hidden, The Unseen, Invisibility, Protection, Obstruction, Curses/Hexes, Warding, Meditation, Astral Work, Fear, Patience, Calmness, Serenity, Peace and Travel
Often times, fog is useful to one when they wish to cast or enchant items for invisibility and protection during travel, often necklaces or items enchanted while out in the fog. Others will take the opportunity of using fog for spiritual communication, past life work and astral projection, taking advantage of the weakened barriers and Veil for these purposes.
Crystals - Clear Quartz, Smokey Quartz, Thunder Egg
Herbs/Plants - Cotton, Broom, Saffron, Thistle/Thicket, Wheat, Pansy
Colors - Gray, Silver, Black, Blue
Other Tools - Steam, Incense/Smoke, Wands, Besoms, Branches, Storm Water/Rain Water, Ash, Dust, Mirrors and Gray Candles
There are many ways said to summon fog. A few of those ways will be listed below
Method 1: Using storm water boiling it until it has thick amounts of steam rising from it, carefully move it outside or to a window (if one is not already outside) and offer it to the sky. Many will chant or call to the weather or winds to bring them fog much like the steam of the pot.
Method 2: In water on a burner add storm or sea salt and a sigil on paper for fog. Close the lid to it and wait until it is boiling. Remove the lid and allow the steam to rise. Here chant if desired for fog or let the water boil until it is nearly gone.
Method 3: With a besom go outside if it is a private space and much like wind summoning call to the fog to come to you, using your tool as an extension of yourself and your energy. Remember to ask it to come rather than demand for it.
Method 4: Using storm water or rain water, ash and a jar fill it with these ingredients and shake it thoroughly to summon fog. Be sure to center yourself and focus on your energy to put into this fog summoning jar. Leave it outside or in a window afterwards for further effects.
Fog water is a tool that can be used for witchcraft when fog is not rightfully available or in place of rain water/storm water in fog summoning. To capture fog water is pretty easy though you must be able to accept small amounts.
First you will need either very fine fabric or mesh or screen similar to what can be found in windows or for fishing nets. Tight it taunt onto something to hold it up like rods or sticks. Make sure it is held up at least a couple feet above the ground and somewhere the fog will roll through it. Base it off of how high the fog in your area tends to be, if you have low rolling fogs it may work better lower to the ground. After or during a time of fog you should be able to see droplets of water forming on it, you may use a jar tied below a corner of it to capture these drops or you can collect it yourself during/after they have formed. You can build much larger versions of this for potable water gathering and tutorials on this can be found easily online if that may interest you.
Store your fog water in glass containers and in the fridge, be sure to date and label to ensure you are using fresh water. Do not drink this water unless you set up the proper potable filtration systems.
Often witches will find themselves tasked with fog being a hindrance rather than helpful. Its a dangerous weather condition especially for those on the road or at sea.
Historically, sea witches would be asked to disperse fog for the safe return and port of sea vessels and the men upon them. Though it is difficult to find exact spells from these times, often broom or heather is used by facing the sea with it in hand and waving at the fog, putting energy into it and telling the fog to disperse. Other times it is said using a broom/besom to summon winds to remove the fog was a preferred way.
Other options for witches is to sing a fog removal song and often dance accompanied with it and with either a besom or wand in hand, direct the fog to travel away from you and somewhere else. Other witches have found success in praying and working with weather deities to move the fog back to the sky or to lead it away.
In omens it is said fog represents blindness. It blocks our ability to see clearly and makes normal directions seem impossible to follow. It can go hand in hand with confusion and the feelings of anxiety. When fog appears in visions it is to be seen often as a warning that things are about to get just that - foggy.
Though it is also related to shrouding oneself, it may be a sign that it is time for you to create a fog about yourself and to build up those wards.
Superstition wise it was believed fog would steal people, often due to people getting lost in it and vanishing, because of this fog is seen as a warning of loss to come. Some cultures even associate it directly with death.
In dreams fog holds many meanings. If the fog is throughout the whole dream then it is a warning of deception. Someone is deceiving you and deep down you know it to be true. If you dream of being wrapped in fog and it is too thick to see through or escape it is often related to feeling that someone has stolen something from you. Dreaming of wandering in a foggy environment is a warning of dangers to come, keep on your toes. If you escape fog it means you are avoiding danger or theft.
If one dreams of fog just being around their head, eyes or following above them like a halo/hat, then it is an indication that you are lying to yourself. You are refusing to let yourself see the truth. It can also be a play of the saying “its all in your head” meaning you are overthinking a problem.
If you dream of fog and snow together, it is often said to be a dream related to sickness soon to come. Others say its a sign that illness of the mind and emotions is going to creep its way in.
If one dreams of their home, bedroom or apartment being filled with fog it is often taken as a bad omen and sign that a large family drama is soon to come.
Seeing a figure in fog in dreams can have different meanings. If it is someone that you know it means they may be hiding things from you or that you are going to have a fight with them in the near future. It can also indicate if you are in the fog and you see them outside of the fog, that you are guilty about something you did to them. Seeing a stranger in the fog or a shadow you do not recognize is often due to anxiety or fear in one’s waking life. They represent the unknown and the future to come, which you are currently stressed over. Animals in the fog can represent both anxieties and fears looming about you but also can represent that you a repressing your own desires and natural wants.
If you see fog rolling in from the distance of a dream it means something is looming in your waking life. If fog starts descending down on you in a dream from the sky to the ground, many take this as a bad omen for travel especially by air or sea. Historically it is said a foggy sea in your dreams means a shipwreck in your future. Though fog over a lake or river means dream-like wonder and is said that young women who dream of this can expect a mysterious stranger in their future.
Sea Witchcraft - Fog is often seen as more of a hindrance in ocean magick, especially historically when fog at sea or port could be rather hazardous and bring tragedy to many. Due to this, fog in sea magick is often used for more negative tasks like cursing.
Storm Magick - Fog is often seen more in the light of a less harsh type of weather compared to storms or rain but still one that can be used to harness energy. The energy of foggy weather is much more mysterious, calm and hazy than that of storm or wind. It can be used for such purposes.
Death Magick - Fog is often related to the barriers of the other-side as some may say, so many death witches will take advantage of fog to use it to communicate and commune with the dead. Many report that it can make using tools of communication like Ouija boards and pendulums easier.
Divination - Often fog can be seen as a hindrance for divination though it is often deeply routed with self discovery and past life work. Many will take the opportunity of foggy weather to explore their past lives and the history of themselves and others.
❁ why does money worship me so much?
❁ money is always chasing me left and right
❁ money is completely and utterly obsessed with me
❁ where did all this money come from??
❁ everyday i get richer and richer
❁ i always have more than enough money
❁ i am able to go to a multiple shopping spree’s every single day and still have trillions in my bank account
❁ why do i get paid money just to be me?
❁ ive always had tons of money
❁my bank account is tremendously overflowing with an enormous and overwhelming amount of money
❁ i love walking around with millions of pounds in my wallet
❁ every pound i spend comes back to me 100x
❁ money is my stalker, it always find a way to me
❁ everywhere i go i find money lying around everywhere
❁ every time i think about money, i get richer
❁ money has always had a soft spot for me
❁ i am the literal embodiment of a ‘money magnet’
❁ got so much money, i’m literally swimming in it
❁ everyone loves to drown me with gifts and money
❁ i get richer just by existing
❁ money loves to find me in mysterious ways
❁ i love the feeling of being a trillionaire
❁ everyone can’t wait to give me money, it’s the highlight of their day
❁ why am i always attracting millions of pounds just by doing nothing?
So about Sans narrating Night Vale,,, I’d listen to that
(VOTE FOR SANS if u want him to dudududu in your ears)
Finally someone gets me
A common attitude that I find absolutely insufferable is whenever people insist, "It's just the way things are."
"You just feel old when you're in your 30's."
"Some people are just assholes like that."
"Kids are just difficult at that age."
Like...buddy. Given all the horrors we've seen the past few years I think it's time we call a spade a spade. The only purpose these answers serve is to justify your feelings. They don't actually explain anything.
Why do we feel old in our 30's? Have we meaningfully differentiated "aging" from things like "fatigue from adult responsibilities catching up to us" or "sleep debt" or "fatigue from chronic pain"?
Why are some people assholes? Is it because they enjoy pushing others around, or is it a byproduct of something like insecurity, anger due to feeling powerless, mental health issues, stress, rebellion, trauma, fear, conditioning on how they ought to behave, etc? Have we asked people why they act like assholes sometimes?
Why are kids difficult at that age? Is it nature or nurture? Are they trying to communicate something they can't put into words? Are they bored and need enrichment? Is their behavior a symptom of a health problem? Have you asked them what's up? Do you have a history of respecting their answers, enough for them to confide you with the truth?
Sure, you don't always have to be interested in investigating the reason behind something, but that's a choice that says you're content with not knowing, rather than the reason truly being "it's just the way things are, are who are we to question it?"
Questioning things is why we have smartphones, ibuprophen, and elections, Greg. If we were fine with the way things were we wouldn't have bothered leaving the trees.
Me. I get custody of megalovaina
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Lighting Storms: power, manifestation, cursing, protection Rainstorms: purification, cleansing, healing, compassion, release Snowstorms: balance, stillness, purification, transformation, letting go Dense Fog: Invisibility, stasis, mysticism, shielding. (NOTE: the veil between the living and dead is thinner when there is fog so don’t forget spirit work and divination!) Heavy Wind: travel, study, intellect, breaking bad habits Searing Hot Days: courage, protection, strength, energy Meteor Showers: power, magickal boost, wishes
1am: Wholeness of self and banishing of shadows. 2am: Ridding relationships of negativity. 3am: Determination when held back. 4am: Improving luck towards an on-edge situation. 5am: Growth of the psychic self. 6am: Motivation towards something you’ve been putting off. 7am: Improved insight and hope. 8am: Personal growth within the conscious mind. 9am: Focus on concrete matters and assistance towards others. 10am: Working on personal conclusions and resolutions. 11am: Energy directed towards transformations which may have seemed impossible. 1pm: Self image and personal security. 2pm: Building relationships and encouraging understanding/love between people. 3pm: Balancing matters of the mind, body and spirit. 4pm: Harmony of elements, sticking to schedules and working to achieve goals. 5pm: Improved intuition and spiritual communication. 6pm: Matters of safety, protection and completion. 7pm: Gentle care towards others, working through differences and coming to agreeable conclusions. 8pm: Leadership, command and guidance. 9pm: Comprehension of universal truth. 10pm: Improving the rational mind, sensibility and clear mindedness. 11pm: Coping with drastic change in a positive manner.
Midnight/Noon: Positive modifications in your life and endings/beginnings. Morning: Daylight hours are best for matters of the conscious mind; including magick for leadership, intelligence and all cognitive functions. Renewal magick and detoxing is also good to do at this time to start your day fresh. Night: The intuitive, emotional self, maternal nature, healing, fertility and moon magick categories are all great for these hours. You can make wishes with stars, interpret dreams, or meditate to bring peace to the end of a stressful day. Dusk & Dawn: These times specifically perfect for new beginnings and ending cycles.
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Monday- Ruling Planet: Moon Associated Colors: Silver, Blue & White Intent: Femineity, illusion, sleep, peace, beauty, prophesy, dreams, emotions, travel, fertility, insight & wisdom
Tuesday- Ruling Planet: Mars Associated Colors: Red, Black & Orange Intent: Courage, victory, success, strength, conviction, rebellion, defense, wards & protection
Wednesday- Ruling Planet: Mercury Associated Colors: Purple & Orange Intent: Communication, creativity, transformation, change, luck, fortune & chance
Thursday- Ruling Planet: Jupiter Associated Colors: Blue, Purple & Green Intent: Abundance, protection, prosperity, strength, wealth & healing
Friday- Ruling Planet: Venus Associated Colors: Pink & Aqua Intent: Love, fertility, romance, gentleness, friendship & passion
Saturday- Ruling Planet: Saturn Associated Colors: Black & Purple Intent: Banishing, protection, wisdom, spirituality & cleansing