Missing You

Cortega - The Reason I love you is You

You're so beautiful But that's not why I love you And I'm not sure you know That the reason I love you is you Being you Just you Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through And that's why I love you    - Lyrics: Avril Lavigne - I love you

So I'm sitting here in a world of pain this evening and no matter what I do it wouldn't stop and the only thing that seemed to help was thinking about my boyfriend. He's laughter is more soothing then any tea could be and his smile more powerful then any pain reliever. He's been there for me through a lot of these attacks as of late and this is a little thank you to him. (He doesn't know I'm doing this, in fact he thinks I'm laying down in bed. Shhhhhh! Don't tell him!) Anyways, this image was quick but it really does get my feelings across. Steve doesn't mind being James damsel in distress and I don't mind being Eternal's. We just enjoy our mans arms. <3

Credit: Eternal: For just being you. <3 James: Was extracted and modified by mercy-shepard: but it seems there account doesn't exist anymore and I don't know of there new account IF they have one.

Steve: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Mass-Effect-3-Steve-Cortez-XNALara-326239058 All other modification by Me All characters are property of Bioware and the Mass Effect Team! <3 (Good work guys!)

So Christmas is on its way! I know I should do something Fall/Thanksgiving-ish but I couldn't help myself! >_>You know how it is when inspiration hits! And I have put nothing but Mass Effect up here so why not enjoy some Chris Redfield for a bit! :3 Tis The Season!

Credit: Outfit & Tree: http://carbint.deviantart.com/art/All-My-Old-Models-444150772 Chris: http://adngel.deviantart.com/art/Chris-Redfield-Fan-Mod-Nude-RE6-430378247 Horns & Necklace: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Reindeer-Accessories-423139011 Posing & Modifications: Yours Truly. :3 Programs Used: XNALara & Blender

What its like...

Playing a Dwarf Inquisitor and romancing The Iron Bull

HAPPY N7 DAY, FOLLOWERS! Hope you all enjoy! <3

For credit look at my DA info:

http://kaidanalanko.deviantart.com/art/Happy-N7-Day-493240823

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it. - Confucius This is AGAIN eternalmourns fault! :3 He and I agree that there really does need to be more James Vega in the world! So here he is! Sexy and beautiful as ever! <3 And you tumblr people get the nice NSFW image! Enjoy my wonderful and beautiful followers! <3

<b>Credit:</b> James: http://mralenko.tumblr.com/credit AGAIN my pose was inspired by this AMAZING person: man (Theirs is still WWWWAAAYYYY BETTTEERR! <3) All modification by Me All characters are property of Bioware and the Mass Effect Team! <3 (Good work guys!)

Human at Heart

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. - e. e. cummings I am in love with this image. It's simple but has power to me. I loved this game and Adam deserves more love! <3 Credit: Adam: Deus Ex Human Revolution Adam Jensen Glass by me. All modification by Me All characters are property of Bioware and the Mass Effect Team! <3 (Good work guys!)

Is this a trace of moonlight That shimmers through the darkness That covers my sleep tonight? Here all alone Drowned in nightmares And agony Be my guide Silverish light Touch my eyes Wake me With your kiss Dry away All these tears In my... ...Heart, oh moonlight Chase away all the fears in my mind Oh moonlight, cover me! Only your kiss will set me free Steve's heart was pounding out of his chest as he ran for Robert's turned back. He could see the Collector's moving closer to him. "ROBERT! OVER HERE!" Robert turned slightly toward him smiling. He spoke but Steve couldn't hear him but he could read his lips. I love you. And like that....he was gone. Steve filled with rage then charged and tackling the closest Collector violently punching it. It's blood was splattering in every direction with each pound of his fist. "GIVE HIM BACK! YOU SON OF A BITCH!" He screamed as he went to throw another punched but stopped dead when he looked down to find Robert under him bloodied by Steve's fists. Steve sucked in a sharp break. "Esteban..." Robert said as blood gushed from his mouth. Robert lifted his arm and touched Steve's shoulders. Tears rolled down Steve's face as he watched Robert struggle to keep his arm up to comfort him. "Esteban." He said again with love in his voice and eyes but suddenly he was ripped away from Robert and he screamed. "N-NO! NO! ROBER-" Steve stopped when he found himself on his back and face to face with James Vega. His face was torn with worry and he had Steve by both shoulders. "There you go, Esteban! It's ok, you're home! With me, guapo! It's ok!" James cupped his cheek and soothingly ran a thumb over the tears and sweat that covered it. He was shaking and couldn't focus. Where the hell was he? Where was Robert? He was glad to see James, maybe he could help him find Robert. James leaned down gently kissing his forehead and it was only then that Steve remember what had happen over 4 years ago. Robert was gone...forever. He brought a shaky hand up to his husbands tattooed chest needing something to ground him. "I-I'm sorry, James...I just-..I'm sorry..." James pulled him up right and into his lap, wrapping his strong arms around his shoulders and guiding Steve's head down to his shoulder. "Shhh, now, lindo. It's ok." James soothed and started rocking him slightly but Steve's mind wasn't letting him relax. He felt horrible. This was the 16th nightmare he had woken James up with this week. His nightmares always got bad when Robert and his anniversary came near. It had been 4 years and still he couldn't stop the self guilt and hate that filled him for losing Robert and James was paying for it. When Steve's nightmares got so bad he could sleep at all James would stay up all night with him even when he was worn out himself from a long day of training the new recruits in the N7 training fields but he never once complained. He would just smile and say 'He wasn't tried at all!'. How long was Steve going to burden James with his issues? How could he be so damn selfish? James never did anything to deserve such a shitty husband! "Esteban, stop." Steve looked up and James cupped his cheek again looking down at him with both love and understanding. The light James had turned on behind him lite him up like he was an angelic figure. His moonlight angel that lite up the night when darkness was all he could see. "Just don't, little Esteban. I'm not going anywhere and you aren't being unfair to me." Steve opened his mouth to protest but James ran a thumb over his mouth. "Look I'm not good with words you know that, I'm more the physical type." James flashed him a crooked smile full of teeth. "But listen to me, Esteban, it wasn't your fault. Dios, I know I sound stupid and shallow for saying that but, no, Esteban it really wasn't your fault. Fate can be a bitch, and there are times in which things are beyond what we can control." James stumbled over the words trying to be as soothing as possible but even with his struggle you could feel the love that they held. James gently rubbed Steve's cheek and whipped at the tears that still fell uncontrollably. James eyes were filled with such warmth, kindness, and care. It was impossible for Steve to take his eyes off his husband. When he tried to speak his throat would clinch shut and the words he tried to speak came out as straggled whimpers. James laid his forehead on Steve's and started rocking them gently while humming a gentle tone never once stopping his comforting strokes on Steve's check with his thumb. The tension in Steve was slowly draining at the low tone of James' song washed over his frayed nerves and suddenly the pain of his nightmares was a distant memory. They would come back to haunt him another night but he wasn't as scared of the thought anymore. Not with his husband, his light in the darkness, by his side. ----- For: Eternal <3 (Oh like you guys didn't see that one coming?! XD He just keeps putting story ideas in my head!) Credit: Steve: www.deviantart.com/art/ME3-Ste… James: www.deviantart.com/art/Mass-Ef… Bed: www.deviantart.com/art/ME3-Apa… Window: andrastesass.deviantart.com/ar… Song: Soulslide -Nightmare All other modification by Me All characters are property of Bioware and the Mass Effect Team! <3 (Good work guys!)

Larger version:

http://kaidanalanko.deviantart.com/art/My-Moonlight-in-the-darkest-hours-538450517

When the Lion wants to play....

...the Lamb plays along. <3

So I told Tovarasnightroad that I was blaming them for any renders that came of Dorian! Soooooo its their fault for inspiring me to play around with Dorian's model! (I still love the hell out of ya though! <3333) I'm also blaming the wonderful cynellis.tumblr.com/ for Dorian in Heels! <3 Model are from the wonderful and absolutely amazing and Me4fan and Padme4000 Editing by me. <3 BG: img2.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20… All Characters are property of Bioware! Way to go guys! <3

xkatheyx ....you made my day! <3 This is beautiful! Amazing work! :3

Mshenko - No Seafood or Mushrooms, Please...

Kaidan looked over at his boyfriend on a stool that sat on the other side of the kitchen island with a raised eyebrow. "You're joking right?" John swallowed down the water he was drinking while shaking his head. "No. I don't joke when it comes to Seafood and Mushrooms." Kaidan let out a small laugh of disbelief as he continued to stir the tortellini in the pan. "Why? Seafood is great. Like smoked Salmon, I love smoked Salmon and mushrooms are great in a lot of thi-" Kaidan was cut off by his boyfriends rough grunt. "What?" "I just don't get you people! How can you willing digest a fungus?" Kaidan almost started laughing at his boyfriends horrified yet thoroughly disgusted face. "K, mushrooms ARE fungus! Why would you eat them!? And Seafood...well after having fish it just makes me feel like a murderer. Plus I have put so much time and money into keeping those little bastards alive I'm sure as hell not going to eat them!" Shepard shook his head vigorously like he was trying to shake the thought out of his head. Kaidan turned back to the cooking hoping to suppress the laughter that was threatening to burst out of him at Shepard's passion on the subject and his cute crinkled up nose but he couldn't hide the shaking of his shoulders. "Are you laughing at me?" Shepard asked with a tone of mock hurt. Kaidan lost it and started cracking up. By the end of his laughing fit he had to wipe away tears. He turned back to his boyfriend who was giving him a look that said 'Really?' but was smiling. "Well I'm glad my pain is so funny!" "I'm sorry, Shep but your face was just...hysterical! But I promise no Seafood and Mushrooms for you." Shepard smiled and got off his stool making his way over to his boyfriend who quickly turned back to the pasta to make sure he hadn't burnt it. He wrap his arms around Kaidan's waist and kissed his temple. "Well that's good I won't need the Hazmat suit then." Kaidan crinkled his brow in question. "Hazmat suit? Why would you need one of those?" Shepard kissed his cheek. "I really hate Seafood and Mushrooms, K. And if you intended to bring there evil into our home I would need a Hazmat suit." Kaidan had never had the sudden urge to buy Seafood and Mushrooms so bad in his life. This little piece was inspired by a conversation the boyfriend and I had! He is a wonderful cook so the subject of food came up. He discovered I can't cook, like at all, and that I hate Seafood and Mushrooms with an undying passion! We ended up having a very in-depth conversation about what I would do if he decided he wanted Tune Pie, one of his favorite foods, and my reply was I would have to wear a Hazmat Suit! The things I do for you, babe.... <3 Credit: For being the most loving and understand boyfriend there is and for being my consent inspiration: Eternalmourns Shepard: http://padme4000.deviantart.com/art/Default-Mshep-Hoodies-484709053 Kaidan: http://deexie.deviantart.com/art/Kaidan-Alenko-Summer-Fashion-471836347?q=gallery%3AMassEffectXPS%2F52192183&qo=19 Everything else is from http://archive3d.net/ All other modification by Me All characters are property of Bioware and the Mass Effect Team! <3 (Good work guys!)