Pilote Part 2

Reason

Hum I’m not very present here…

I should find a reason to stay…

Well, well, well

If someone have an idea please let me know, I’m very open minded don’t be scared to tell me ! 

( I’m weird … XD)

Geology core for real ! A little retrospective on my September and October! And some sneaky pics of the beginning of November!

The castle and the sea of cloud

To be completely honest this one was the first and I believed at that time it was just a dream and nothing more.

I was sitting under an arch on the side of a long open corridor, at one extremity there was a door, a monumental door, and on the other side it would simply connect with another corridor. I knew that if I went this way I would find a garden with apple trees with golden apples and blueberry bushes. The stone the pillars and the arch were made of was white stone which was lightly pink and golden due to the setting sun. My head was resting on the pillar and next to me was the empty of the sky. It was filled with clouds and I could almost touch them. 

Beyond the roof of the castle the sky was a light blue becoming purple and the moon was bigger and brighter.

I heard laughs echoes on the walls and two teenagers arrived running and laughing, they stopped at the door and tried to calm themselves before knocking on it. They didn’t see my but I was watching them smiling softly.

I turned back to the moon and sight before getting up. I was taller than I normally am, my skin was a deep blue-grey and my jet black hair were tickling my face in the lazy breeze.

Pilot part 5

Hey, long time no see, it's like the hundreds time I try to post this, and I was so close twenty seconds before but it disappeared, I don't have the strength to write down everything again. I was talking about the places I wanted to be instead of my current location : the ocean, on a hill and in space watching a supernova. A friend of mine confess his feelings to me and it feels so wrong and weird. I feel sick and I want to cry ! Everybody keeps telling me I should be happy but I am NOT HAPPY! I feel bad, I don't like it,I am scared and I don't know what to say! I don't understand, I don't like it, I want to run away from my life! Be anyone else! Nobody will ever find this account, I know those things I post are supposed to be part of the pilot of the story I planned to write but I use them essentially as a diary. Goodbye

Pilote part 1

Sadly I didn’t knew how to escape my life. all I wanted was to have time for me to take care of myself, be able to go on a long walk on the sea coast, in the park… my life wasn’t complicated, it was the opposite, my life was boring af. Get up, go to school, don’t stop working, stay awake late you have Homework, stay concentrate on your lessons, don’t complain… Welcome in high school !

i was to young to just go outside when I was feeling like going swimming or just ride away on my bike. For me everything felt boring : school ? boring, weekend ? boring, summer ? boring, automne, winter, spring ? BoRIng ! LIFE ? BORING !!!

I couldn’t stay enough concentrate to read or draw, even music and video games were on the edge ! I felt like I was going to explode into tears and cry, scream and punch the wall or my italian teacher’s face, break my phone with my bare hands, running away from my house and my family, climb on the rooftop and live there all at the same time.

On the halloween break I realise that I will never have time for me because life those days is about earning as much as you can and if I had to explain life quickly I would say : when you are 3 and until you are 18 you have to go to school to learn the basics then you can go for more years of school to obtain one or more degrees on speciality. now you have to find a job and work as hard as you can because you need money to live, you will work until you are to old to continu and now you have to survive with the money you have left until the day you die. when I will die on the “game over” screen i will see “congratulation you are dead and you waste your time ! Yay !”.

I know I sound so cynical but, hey, that’s sadly true.

Pilot

Pilot part 4

Today was a rough day, I’m starting to think I’m just not meant to success. I had a test in italian and d*** ! I think I will have a 9/40 and I still believe I’m generous. There’s a thing with the teacher… I can’t stand her, her voice and how she act it’s like she was screaming “I’M AN HYPOCRITICAL !!!”, she sound fake and selfish, she just don’t care about teaching us anything and if you don’t understand it’s limit if she don’t insult you. I’m still trying my best but I feel like I’m unconsciously giving up a little more every times I go to her class.

Apart of that the day was really boring, like if I haven’t left for two weeks and only came back, the teachers, the lesson, the rythme, everything was so natural and yet so strange… 

I thought coming back would help me to quit this feeling of emptiness and loneliness but it didn’t work for long. I think I need a HUG from a friend, or at least an entire day to speak with them without being interrupted ! 

I need an exit door, I feel like starting a Kickstarter to raise enough money to be sure I have anything I need to open a portal to an other dimension. Maybe I will throw myself inside or maybe I will just watch things come from it and ruining everything. No I love you too much Earth to destroy you ! I will only open it and then close it as soon as I’m on the other side.

Should I try ? Ridiculous it wont work… unless ? No, I don’t think it will ever work so it don’t hurt to try, no ? I’ll try to find information about that, just for the joke and the science of course !

I want to draw space related stuff but I have to draw real things for my art class, raaaah ! I am never free ! 

I will stop complaining here, this one is shorter than the others but I don’t think I have anything else to say for today. Have a good day !

Nanami Kento as a Palace guard from Aladdin (1998) for @princeasimdiya12 !

Plus a bonus Gojo as Aladdin in his prince disguise!

Hope you like it !

The bench at the edge of the universe.

I sat there. Silently. I said nothing when he sat next to me. We just stared in silence at what was in front of us. How should I describe that ? Light was a liquid, a see of stars and supernovae. Blindingly bright yet soothing to look at. It shifted like gentle wave under the breeze. I witnessed with my own two eyes the universe unfold all its mysteries. I watched in awe as the big bang happened again. We sat there witnessing the reinvention of time, of matter, of gravity, of life. It expanded until it broke and folded on itself until it vanished from existence and once again exploded into this incredible ocean of possibilities.

From the silence came his voice. "Why are you here?" He asked, and suddenly I heard the universe sing

"I do not know" I answered

"It's alright "

"Why are you here?" I asked

"Because the burden of life sometimes gets to heavy for my to lift it"

"So you come here to rest?"

"I am always here, it's just that sometimes I take a tangible form"

"Wouldn't it be heavier that way?"

"No. You humans do not carry this burden. I feel light when I am you"

"I do not feel so light when I am awake"

"Well come back here anytime you need then. You'll always exist here. You just need to remember it"

Do you even read something so bad, or play a game with terrible script and worldbuilding that you think "I'm not even good at writing but even I would do a better job ?" Yep, that was me when I was 14 and today I just finished writing my first book. Keep your eyes peeled because I fully intend to publish it !