When The Normal Brain Says Sleep But The Neurodivergent Brain Says “okay, But…” And Proceeds To

… dammit.

reblog if you’re a writer who feels guilt whenever they’re not writing and being productive, so I know I’m not the only one lol

I can’t be the only one who does this

okay, so. I have my main wip, but it’s barely my main any more because of an AU I created of my own work.

I also make headcannons of the characters, forgetting I’m the creator.

Why…

I can imagine what I want to write and how I want it to go, but words simply cannot be manifested onto the page.

so I’m left with the dreaded blinking cursor. A line that stares at me without mercy, mocking me, taunting me, temping me to write when it knows I can’t.

An Average Night

Me, casually trying to sleep:

My brain: Heyyyyyyyyy

Me: Shut. The fuck. Up

Brain: Is the way [character] acts after [relevant plot point] considered [mental disorder/trauma response]?

Me: *Grabbing phone off desk to Google it* I hate you

do you ever think of something when you’re trying to sleep and tell yourself “I can write it down in the morning”?

I have, and every time I do im just lying to myself again

I’m not crying, there’s onions

I am crying

no, i just hate writing sometimes

"If I were orpheus I wouldn't look back"

But we look back everyday- rechecking emails, making sure a friend is still behind you, checking to see if you remebered to pick up your keys. It's second nature, a habit of care.

It was second nature for him too. He looked back, not out of weakness, but love. For what is love, if not to look back?

happy Thursday the 20th

why is it that I have a document for random scenes that appear at some point, and the first one is a character having a crisis over a dead person? to be fair, they watched the person die, and then have to tell that person’s family about their death, but why is that the first scene in the document?

to any readers or writers who see this, reblog with the weirdest line you’ve ever written or read (fanfic counts!). I’ll start: “‘Well, fuck me gently with a chainsaw’”

My story’s antagonist: I’m not just a bitch…

I’m a bitch with a backstory