I DON'T EVEN WANT THIS MAN ANYMORE

I DON'T EVEN WANT THIS MAN ANYMORE

I do but i don't and this is the only place I can say shit like this and not have to apologize for it or worry someone will find it and I'm. lsoing my fucking mind over here. I hate him. We're in love. He doesn't even fucking like me. He's obsessed with me. I can't tell if I'm in a bad relationship or not. Things are easy but aparently I always make him feel guilty, and he slips up and I think he only tolerates me because I do not ask for much, and I ask for more, and he encourages it, and he tells me something new, and makes a passive aggressive comment, and I am so exhausted. I don't think we're playing mind games on purpose I think we're just barely adult teenagers who have never been in a real relationship prior to this and are learning. I fear we may learn just enough to want to be with other people. I fear I will become someone I will not like if this happens. I'm so fucking angry at him right now I can't stand it and I can't tell if it's justified and i am overheating as I type this and I just want somebody who obviously, wholeheartedly, VISIBLY likes and loves me and prefers my time to anybody else's and acts like it. This fucking sucks. I hate it here don't date a man guys don't do it just admire them from afar and run away