I Want To Be In Love With A Stud I WANT TO BE IN LOVE Like All Giddy And All.

Stone Butch Blues, Leslie Feinberg

The Watermelon Woman (1996), dir. Cheryl Dunye

watching coming of age movies to reinstall my love for living

they’re deffo talking to someone else and i genuinely need to stop being jealous bc it’s is a disease

genuinely me right now

Party Girl (1995) dir. Daisy Von Scherler Mayer

i want to pull my ribcage open and place you inside next to my heart. to hold you close. to keep you warm. to keep you safe.

i'll tear my body apart for you

i need butch abby anderson biblically it is crazy

‘ulla in her room’ (1998) by chloe sherman

tw: sh

everytime i’ve talked to someone and the doctors about my mental health they’ve just assumed im a teenage girl who’s going through it and like that it’s regular degular shit and there’s this underlying comment that ‘at least you’re not harming yourself’ WHEN I AM! like yes i am and the marks are visible and my mom literally mentioned how the scars couldn’t be scratches.. like i don’t know how them knowing would help but maybe acknowledging that im not lying when i say i dont want to live would be a start.

how can being shy and reserved be unique and good when you strive for and need community? when you want to make more friends, like minded etc, when you want to be intimate with someone?

i guess it’s good when you don’t want to do those things but I DO. i want to engage with people i want to have control on when i speak which includes speaking not just being quiet.