remember to love yourself as much as you want someone else to love you.
I've been having a hard time realizing what I have left behind, in my home town.
I was everyones everything.
People liked me they would only asked for me.
I helped everyone with whatever they needed, I gave my whole heart and soul to them.
We grew up in the same shitty little small town together, ate at the same restaurants with our family's.
Before I left we even walked at night in the streets, doing nothing but been kids.
Now since time has passed, and we all grow into bigger and better people.
They all grown into wonderful, motivated and independent people.
And I've been come the laughing stock.
I haven't contacted anyone from my town in a year, but some how I still hear them talking about me, they all say how "they knew me" and "she was our friend how could she". You say my name like I'm the monster. I wouldn't have done this if you would have helped me. But now its too late it finally has a grip on my neck.
I have exciting news
I have lost in total 35 pounds, I officially hit 125.5 pounds
I've been working on losing 20 pounds to ji5 my goal weight.
i’m always breaking my own heart
from my journal
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You used to give me butterflies, now its heart ache.