alternatibabe

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ok so

i love that no one reads this cos sometimes i just feel like sharing my thoughts but just as they are, like pls don't connect them to anything in my life or psychoanalyze me thanks. i'll go back to watching mila tequila!!

omg

this is kinda crazy i thought about calling my grandma cos i kinda missed her but i thought about it when i was on the bus and i finished my data so i couldn't and forgot when i got home and she just texted me saying sorry for missing the call jajajajjjajaj she has alzheimers so i think she just thought about me and saw that there's a call in our whatsapp chat, but still it's kinda crazy

long time no see

ok sooo been a while since i last posted but i got inspired by linsay's old tweets to just vomit everything i'm thinking rn on the internet instead of going to bed or calling a friend. the latter is kinda impossible cos my friends can't stand me! am i too much for everyone? is this what loneliness feels like? idk sometimes i think i'm kinda like amy winehouse, in several ways which kinda worries me if u know what i'm steppin into

will i feel like this once i already do it?

should i plan it or should i just leave it to the air? i think the first one bc, if you plan it, you can be careful and be sure you're doing it with someone that will not hurt you. we are all human and wanting to reproduce it's natural, we have to stop shaming that. the worst part is that we then call women that do it sluts or whores... fucking why??? it doesn't only affect her but also the other girls and women that see how she's being shamed and now prefer to abstain themselves from doing it bc they don't want to be bullied or harassed

i should probably make a regular blog

on stuff like this. giving advice based on my experience and very inspiring women like wizardliz. but then it's also like, yes i have to be a queen, but i as a human have needs, so what ab that? what if i just want to have sex? does it mean i have self-respect or not? like, what if i don't find someone that is on my level or that i think fulfills my standards but i still want to have sex? should i be shamed? why do i feel shamed just by thinking ab it and not even doing it?

this has a lot to do with the shame we put on women to explore their sexuality

i wouldn't feel so guilty if it weren't for the fact that there's a huge stigma that, although it has been lowered, still manages to get into our minds. and on top of that, you have to be extra careful who you have sex with bc what if he's like a creepy dude like... why aren't men normal ab it, we women want to have sex it's a natural thing, why do you do things that scare us away or make us doubt who we put our trust in

this account just became

freedom for my thoughts because i cant talk ab this with anyone so now i can freely say it without being shamed :) also he turns me on so much like i just think ab him and get hot jaja and i think that

so that's also scary because

what if my mom can tell and she'd ask like who it was with and id be like with a dilf i met on tinder that fucked me once and throwed me away she'd be like "self-respect much" and i'd just feel awful and why do i want to put myself through that??? why would anyone

and people say that

you change a lot after having sex for the first time, like, people can tell you've had sex, not in like the you were a "virgin" and now you're not (like physically), more in like your facial expressions but i dont see it and ig it's something that only people that have already had sex can see

i'm seriously wondering if

he is dumb or he is just a new yorker that has no idea that i'm 18 and this shit is scary for me and oh fuck i really want him to fuck me but im scared and i would do it but im scared fuckkkk

"goddamn manchild, you fucked me so good that i almost said i love you"

why is this phrase becoming truer and truer every second I keep talking to him it's like i love him but i would never give him that much power because he is so stupid, and like, so stupid

my dilf

only wants to fuck me and honestly i'd let him but then what's the point of looking for a dilf bc i have daddy issues so i can't stand a one night stand i need security and safety not just casual sex

es un red flag

que mi vato nomas me hable para fuck

all the positions

front and back, and maybe even create new ones

but i also

want to fuck him, like, not just him to me but me to him too

i want him to

do things to me that i can't say out loud and if my mom found out ab she would send me to boarding school far from here

idk

what's taking him so long to come over and do so :p

and i mean

so fucking hard i feel the most alive

dilf

i want my dilf to fuck me already

hot girl hobbie

listen to deux u while making shuffles

de 200

16

Listening one whole album a day (that i haven't heard before

and saying what i think

My summer this year be like :

sebastian stan

officially a dilf and similar to tom's case, handsome in young era, hotter in dilf era

10 things i hate about you

how this movie shaped us to be a pick me girl

k-novelas

cheesy af pero dicen q funciona

grr

my twitter has become too public to post indirectas and what im feeling agghhh

just girly things

i need to fix my life lol