someone please tell me why i thought it’d be a good idea to open my old emails from when i dumped that abusive jerk and he kept sending me emails telling me he’d show up at my place
Mood
A: Oh, I’m sorry, I can’t talk to you right now
B: Why
A: Because I don’t want to
Noooo I'm sorry I accidentally lied
The best day to talk to your crush is whenever you feel ready
It's April 1st y'all
The best day to talk to your crush tbh
Shoot your shot!!
You get a positive answer: congratulations, I'm happy for you :)
You get a negative answer: pretend it was a joke and it's all good, I'm sorry for you but no worries you'll be fine
whenever i tell my friends i’m never invited to their parties, the only answer i get is ‘oh i never get invited either, you know.. there was just this one time when-’
bitch you’re the one planning the parties and you’re invited to other people’s so just be honest and tell me you don’t like me instead of being such an asshole
showed up in class with fresh cuts on my throat from the mental breakdown i had yesterday when i skipped class and one of my classmates laughed and said 'lmao did a cat do this?' but like really first degree and i remained silent and she was like 'ok..' and we've been sitting here awkwardly for 15min now
three years ago i was just about to talk to my 'ex' for the very first time
two years ago i was getting yelled at by my 'ex in the middle of the night bc i was working and it apparently was too late for them and it made them mad
one year ago i was slowly healing from this massive destruction i went through
tonight my intrusive thoughts made me go through all of this and i felt the abuse again as if it was still there
i'm just getting used to live on my own, i'm completely alone, facing intrusive thoughts, surrounded by people that know absolutely nothing about this all, it just feels so... it feels like i keep falling apart even more than a year after putting an end to this and it's so hard i want to give up
oh god i can't believe this, he's currently gaslighting me, tho he doesn't even know what happened precisely
he must be fucking kidding me
texted a friend to tell him that 1. i was here if he ever needed anyone (bc he told me he had no one to talk to) and that 2. i've been treated unfairly and it's making me upset and his only answer was 'i need you to send me the thing i asked you for bc it's due tomorrow' and i can't believe i'm constantly trying my best for people that just couldn't care less
i keep having nightmares where he comes back and finds me and hurts me and no one tries to help me
he/him • • • 'zwischen den welten bin ich gefangen' -th • • • not living, barely surviving • • • insta: @whatsmyname.rolko
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