Pls

getting closer to my ‘gray day’ and i keep pretending i’m ok when really i’m this close to burst into tears :’)

(’gray day’: posted a year ago)

every time someone seems to kinda appreciate me i get my hopes up and i suddenly start getting my shit together like i text them first and dress well and i make sure i look ok and my behavior is ok and i try to be as kind as possible.. until i realize i'm too kind to them and way too uninteresting for them to like me even a slight bit and when it hits me i have this huge wave of hatred covering me and i want to destroy stuff and i start being distant because i feel betrayed and i start gradually hating them and every time i think about my very existence i just feel so pathetic and i hate myself even more and- anyway this is the story of how no one's ever been interested in

Sirius: Nice hands, Moony.

Remus: Uh...thank you?

Sirius: I bet they'd look better wrapped around my-

James: BIBLE! WRAPPED AROUND THE BIBLE. PRAISE THE LORD, AMEN.

he definitely made my day and i just can’t believe it’s real and i wonder what was going on in his head

Draco: Happy anniversary, my love

Harry: A year together and you’re all sappy, eh?

Draco: I still hate you, only I love you too now

Harry: You’re so weird

Draco: I’m a complex and interesting person

Harry: And a fucking git

Draco: A git you like fucking

When they force me to go see a therapist

Therapist: Do you feel different sometimes? I mean different from the others

Me: *stays silent as if I was thinking about an answer*

Me: Don't you think we're all different?

Therapist: 0.0

Therapist: Wtf

okay nevermind he doesn't seem to know about it

i'm just overdramatic

might have gotten drunk and drawn my crush’s eye because tbh it’s one of his best features

and somehow my drunk ass managed to post it in my story and write that i have a crush on him and luckily i only used a song he likes to let him know it’s him i was talking about

now he’s either so dumb he didn’t realize (which he definitely isn’t) or he’s read all of it as usual and basically doesn’t give a fuck (which is actually good because it means it’s not a big deal, right??)

well at least he hasn’t blocked me (yet huh)

currently in a room with both my crushes and i think my heart's gonna stop or something

so much pressure but so much happiness at the same timeeeeee

spent the whole day thinking about him and how i'd text him and i thought i'd do it at like 2 or 3am since i usually get very emotional

but i don't wanna be too much

i don't think waking up to a 'i wish i could be with you rn' could be anything but stressful given the situation

i'm too much

It’s honestly so stupid that Harry is in a relationship with Ginny like they’ve talked 2 times about shit wtf

But Draco could absolutly be Harry’s lover like he’s been annoying him for years so Harry could notice him and it’s clearly how a great Love story could start